It's been good lately..

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going down]

Went out with Esther yesterday.It was totally fun.We went to Pyramid....watched "Dukes of Hazzard"..it was a really funny flick..Johhny Knoxville is a really funny comedian and a hott one too.....Jessica Simpson had the most stupiest role of all..she had more scenes showing off her body then sayin anything....thts why I like her sister better...shes smarter...anywayz...it was seriesly funny cause durin the movie everytime there was a scene with Jessica wearin something skimpy..Esther kept whacking me cause I kinda dragged her to watch it..lol...after tht we went window shoppin and ate quite a bit on the way....lol.....it was all good....came back at 7pm....after tht hanged around the house and watched tv....I had a really really cool day...

Did nothing much 2day...am bored...seriesly bored...I think I'll go watch F1 with my dad..hope Micheal does well...GO Ferari!!!!!

ChowZzz..

This is the way the weekend should be darlin'

[Mood: Happy/Tired]

[Music: Jay Sean - Stolen]

I've been havin a really good weekend...wow....havent said tht in quite a while..I went to KL yesterday nite,had dinner at Park Royal..its this cute little hotel btw..then a little walk round.My sister has gone to some church trip and all,so I've ben havin a peaceful,calm weekend....I do miss her though....*sigh*...anywayz went to Kl today afternoon yetz again cause my dad wanted to get some stuff,so I decided to shop a little.

I got this really cute top from Voir,which I fell in love with at first sight..I know it sounds weird but before I get some type of clothin,I have to fall in luv with it cause then I'll know, I'll wear it..so yeah I know am weird....Anyway now I'll have to find a skirt to go with that.I shall go skirt shoppin one day..soon..real soon......I spent practically half the day there btw....just lookin round..we just kept walkin a lotz...it was fun....I had a good time....rite now am so darn tired...my legs are hurtin so fuckin badly....I shall go and wait for "One Tree Hill" to start.....

P.S>> Never wear heels for shoppin...it'll kill your feet alive....ALIVE....BAH

You're speacial to me and I think you know that babe...

[Mood: Very Much Confused]
[Music: Howie Day - Collide]

This must be some bad day or somethin'

Cause its been so darn confusin',

I miss you,

Do you know that?

Do I still mean somethin to you,

Cause you alwayz have,

When you asked me if I was alrite,

I answered the truth,after such a long time.

I don't wanna see you leave just like that,

After all we've goin through,

I will not survive...

If you leave.

I always will care for you,

You have the gift of makin me laugh while I cry,

I don't know anyone else who can do that,

And that makes you ever more special to me.

What you said today stung me,

I felt numb for while,

I coudn't feel anymore,

I've no idea how that happened.

I pray that one day,

I'll see you a few years from now,

Happy and all good,

That would be one of the best dayz of my life babe.

Everyday is going by

[Mood: Tired]

[Music: Gavin DeGraw - Follow Through]

Well ppl I've been kinda busy these couple of dayz,sorry for the lack of updates, so heres a quick recap....Monday I went grocery shoppin with my mum and..it was fun....by the time we came back,I was so fuckin dead but it had fun speandin time with my mum.....On Tuesday,I just stayed home and in the evening,went 2 Swensen and had the earthquake...love the ice-cream there speacially the rum and raisin flavour....the rest of the week went by the usually way......borin...

Today there was some stuff at church and all,went there at like 9 something and came back at 3.Am feelin dead nowz...its gonna go on till Saturday but am havin a good time.....but I guess I'll be whinning for the next couple of dayz....

Btw am thinkin of changing my blog's skin again...why'd u guyz think??

Ps: Vitto I know waca gonna say...."wht the hell is wrong with you??" aint tht rite dude....LOL

Its okies...I guess

I am 32% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com


LOL....I guess this is all ritie...(:P)

Wounds will heal...I know of it...

I scream my lungz out but no ones hears,

I cry out loud but no one knowz,

I've run out of tears,

Look what you've done to me.

I am speechless,

And I don't want to hear you stupit excuses anymore,

Cause you should have told me the day....

The day you went away.

These wounds will heal,

I know it will

But it will take time,

How long??

I've learned so much,

From all these brusies,

I know from now onwards I shall not be..

As naive as I was....

Lyin' on the outside

[Mood: Shattered]

[Music: Diana DeGarmo - All I Never Wanted]

I guess I just have to accept reality,

I wish at times tht I can't feel,

Wht the hell did I do wrong?

To deserve all this crap.

Maybe I was a monstorous person in my before life,

But I dont believe in tht stuff anyway,

I just can't figure out what I did wrong,

No matter how hard I try.

Thts why I love day dreamin so much,

It makes me feel safe,

I hate myself for fallin for you,

Its my stupit mistake anyway.

Here I am once again,

and am broken into pieces,

Well am kinda immune 2 this anyway,

I wander when will all this happen yetz again.

You were all I never wanted,

But why in world do I still want you?

You were my nightmare by day,

And a dream by night.

I may smile on the outside,

But am shattared on the inside,

I dont' want you 2 know am hurt,

Cause you don't really care anyway baby.

You make me wanna LA LA

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - La La]

Went outz with a couple of frenz 2day to watch "Herbie" with my sister,my pet sis and a couple of their frenz taggin along.It was really fun and all.A gurls day out thing."Herbie" was such a fun movie.A typical Disney thing but it was sweet.The car was just really adorable.

I have to admit am a Lindsay Lohan fan too.Her movies and songz are cool.I still do like Hilary too.Both of them are good at what they do........ I guess.

At nite I watched "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" with my parents.It was just so fuckin' cool!!! I totally Loved it!! I read the book also so it was just so cool watchin the book you've read .The star of the flick was definately Johhny Depp,and so he has been added to my favourite actor list.Most of his flickz have been really coolio.His just so damn talented and not to mention HOTT.I just had so much fun watchin this flick.

It has been a great day....after such a looooong week...BAH....

In a very weird dream...

[Mood: Sick]

[Music: Blink 182 - Rock Show]

Livin in a dream,

Is better than reality,

I dont want 2 get hurt again

And this makes me happy anyway.

I know it seems so stupit at times,

But I guess it just fun,

I don't really take certain thingz seriesly,

Maybe its time I do.

To dream is fun,

To hope is good,

To do it is even better,

And to just forget is fucked up....

Why don't you just break my heart

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Hilary Duff - The Getaway]

Everything around me is crazy,

And I feel the insanity,

I think am gonna lose it soon,

Or maybe I have.

Round and round,

Here we go playin this game again,

I dont know how long I can take this,

But miracalously am being patient,

You better watch out,

You think you know me oh too well,

But I bet you didn't know I can be mean too,

Thts the part I tend to hidea lotz...

*Why don't you break my heart,
And watch me fall apart,
Cause baby, You seem to be doin tht a lot lately*

Too quick and Just wayy too fast

[Mood:Bored]
[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

Dayz are goin by really fast,
It starts with Monday,and its like Sunday the very next hour,
I remember the beginning of January ever so slightly,
I thought March just started but then I realized I was dreamin'

Everything is goin' by way too fast,
I want time to last,something to hold on too
Apparently I learned tht somethings just dont last,
Even though how hard you try.

There's gotta to be a way to stop time,
To slow thingz down,
To make thingz last,
Even if it was just for a minute.

Theres Gotta be More In a Day....

[Mood: Blank]

[Music: Arkana - So Little Time]

Nearly my whole day was spent at the thearter.It was really fun!!

I watched Stealth and The Island.Both we're really cool movies...

The storyline for The Island was something kinda different,the speacial effects were really cool and all.Also Ewan McGregor is a totally hottie...(:P)

Stealth was very action packed.The actors were okish.The best parts of the movie were the flying scenes, which totally awesome!!

The best part of my day was...when I got in The Island which was an 18PL movie.LOL

Besides tht nothin much happened....

Theres gotta be more 2 a day......

Sometimes is seriesly wrong today

[Mood: Crazy]

[Music: Blink 182 - ALWaYz]

I love my laptop!! My skool,my tv,my music and the way I communicate with my frenz is in it(msn).If I was stranded on an island,the two things I have 2 have is my laptop and an internet system..I'll live happily ever after....I think..

Am currently downloading an episode of the Ashlee Simpson Show,Desperate Housewives and Summerland.Also 2 episodes of OTH.Never seen Desperate Housewives before,so I just wanna see whts the whole "whoo-haaa" everyones makin bout this.The story line seems kinda cool though.

I had tuition 2day.Usually when I start some sort of class..whether its organ class,tuiton...etc,it takes me sometime to get used to the teacher or something...you should see me in front of my organ class teacher,ur bound to laugh out loud....whenever he says something,all I do is smile and nod my head..like one of those weird dolls tht sits on the car dashboard...I have no idea why I react tht way..its not tht I have a crush on him or anything...*ewww* but I use 2 do tht 2 my tuition teacher to...whos a gurl...am not gay either!!!....but lately I've been opening my mouth and actually talkin to her......At last!!.....I have no idea why the fuck I do tht..........my teachers must think am some stupit wacko tht goes around noddin my head all day long...

Ok dear readers..LOL...more like crazy physco wackjobs who enjoys readin my writins...am sorry I havent wrote in lately...its just tht my head have been so very empty these past few dayz....

Dayz are going by empty

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Jem - They]

Goin to the movies on a Monday is fun.
No lines - no huge headz blockin the screen - no bathroom crowds - and more leg room.
From now onwardz I shall go to the movies only on Monday.
The advantages of homeskooling........
Watched Fantastic Four btw.it was cool,not great but cool,too much yappin too little action.

My week has been very peaceful.Quiet yetz not dull.Uneventful yet calm.

Well I have some skool work 2 attend to.....ciozzz

Thts just my view...

[Mood: Sad]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson- Pieces of Me]

Its hard to find good people in a messed up world,

Where everyone hides their true identity,

But when you dig deep,will you find the truth,

And sometimes the truth hurtz.

Here I am,

Starin at the same window by the kitchen,

I love Ashlee Simpson's lyrics,

They alwayz remind me of wht am goin through,

Love makes the world go round but why is it so hard to find?

If only everyone owned a manuel on how 2 live.

The Perfect life,

Thank God theres no such thing,

For then no one will learn 2 survive.

Am the gurl who shows little outside,

But theres so much within,

I don' throw my feelings out,

I like keepin everything in,

Till someone has the gutz find outz,

Thts the way it is,

Thts the way I am.

Maybe

[Mood: Calm]
[Music: Marion Raven - Here I Am]

My dayz have been very quite lately and I have been very calm.
Everthing seems to be going on smoothly and nothing has been overly dramtic lately.
Thats really good....it really is

I watched "War of the Worlds" last week.Very cool speacial effects and all.A really cool flick.Tom Cruise is such a HOTTIE!!!
LOL
I know his really old..lol...yet his hot.

I guess thts the only intersting thing I did last week......not forgetting tht music talk I went for...it was kinda cool too...

I have organ class today and I have 2 head 2 church in the evening.I've Bible skool work to do today.

So I guess I have 2 start practicing the organ soon and start memorizing some stuff for skool.*siGh*

:+:Maybe it was wrong 2 let you go,
Maybe it was wrong 2 never show,
But sometimes it feels so right,
And maybe wht I did was right. :+:

I won't let you HIDE AWAY

[Mood:Free]
[Music: Hilary Duff - Hide Away]

Hiding Away

Losin' the day

As if it doesn't really matter

Saying Goodbye

Scared to say why

Afraid it will shatter our world

Show me some faith now

Trust me somehow

Why are we keepin' our secret

Why are we hiding ourselves away

Anyway we can hide away

I dont wanna fake it

I wanna make you believe, what I sayI wont let you...hide away

Where do we go

How do we know

What we're ever really after

Sometimes it's clear

When you are here

Nothing can shatter our world

I need some faith now

To trust you somehow

Why are we keepin' our secret

Why are we hiding ourselves away

Anyway we can hide away

I dont wanna fake it

I wanna make you believe what I say I wont let you...hide away

Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm losin'

Maybe I, maybe I, maybe I'm OK

Turn around, look around, go around in circles

Dont run away, drift away, dont hide away

Why are we keepin' our secret

Why are we hiding ourselves away

Anyway you can, hide away

I dont wanna fake it

I wanna make you believe what I say

Ohh but I cant

Believe what I said

I wont let you hide away, hide away

Hiding away, losin' my day

As if it doesn't really matter

I won't let you hide away.......

Save me,for I tried

[Mood:Blurry]

[Music: Goo Goo Dolls - Iris]

As I sat on the shore and watched everything around me,

Empty faces and scared hearts were all around,

There were some who were so close yet so far,

I have tried to reach out but they didn't want a hand,

What am I to do,

This place has become so dark,

And all I could do is watch while a tiny candle flickers,

As some walk toward the sea,and drown themselves,

I screamed and asked again if they wanted me to send them a boat,

But they can't hear me anymore,

As tears trickle down my face,

I see the ones I cared for sink down to the depths of the ocean,

When no one wants a hand,

I can't save them,no matter how hard I try,

All I can do is weep and pray,

That they will be saved.....somehow.

The Sea of life

[Mood:Bored]

[Music: Green Day - Minority]

As the endless length of sea stared at me,

And I looked futher,

The wind blew and assuraance swept over me,

I knew everything will be alrite.

Am dreaming and alwayz do,

About everything,

Past,present,future,

Fear and memories take over time to time,

Life shouldn't be this hard,

It really shouldn't,

Yet it is,

Why is there alwayz pain and suffering?

Theres something in the distance,

And I want it,

Its the length thats holding me back,

But I will get,

I will.....

I wrote this while I was at the beach.Thought I'll post it.....

Over it.....

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Anneliese van der Pool - Over It]

How could you know

That behind my eyes a sad girl cried

And how could you know

That I hurt so much inside

And how could you know

That I'm not the average girl

I'm carrying the weight of the world

YEAH!

So can you get me outta here

[chorus]

Take me away

We'll jump in the car

Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far

That we can't

See this place anymore

Take a day off

Give it a rest

So I can forget about this mess

If i lighten up a little bit,

Then I will be

Over It

I'm playin the role of the happy girl

But no one knows

Inside I'm alone

But I would never let it show I get everyday

Too much work and not enough play

Over and over,It's always the same

YEAH!
But you can make everything OK...

[chorus]

Take me away

We'll jump in the car

Drive til the gas runs out and then walk so far

That we can't

See this place anymore

Take a day off

Give it a rest

So i can forget about this mess,If i lighten up a little bit,Then i will be

Over it,Over it
And when the world is closin' in I can leave it all and just walk away I can always start all over again I am closer to a better day

If I lighten up a little bit,

Then I will be,

Then I'll be over it,

Over it,

I am Over It (over it)

Love this song speacially the lyrics....

It was great...

[Mood: Happy]

[Music:Ashlee Simpson - Sorry]

Heyz everyone,

I'm back.I had a good holiday and it helped clear my head a lot.

The beach is a beautiful place to think and let go everything thts in ur heart.

I went to Terengganu btw.It was a long drive,for like 4 hours.Half way through my sister decided to put the Jesse McCartney cd on and she was singing along to the whole cd .After a few songs,my mum become a fan too.*siGh* The entire journey had everyones favourite music on.There was fusion(my dad is into tht stuff),pop(me and my sis),and a bit of old stuff(my mum).....

The place was nice.Really quiet town where everyone loves the simple life.Ppl around there are mostly fisherman and all.There are major oil industries and all but most foreigners work there. The locals mostly have simple jobs.

My week was spent lazing,reading and writin by the beach,riding on 8tivies and speedboats,going for firefly watching and just chillin by the pool.It was total vacation.The funniest thing tht happened was when this guy gave me his handphone number.Yes ppl u read rite....LOL

There was this bunch of boyz who were working by the beach and everytime I passed, they'll try their best 2 get my attention and like on the 3rd day,one of them gave me his handphone number.LOL

Talk bout desperate...LOL

I had a great time....

This vaca really did me some good.

And so its back 2 quiet life.....

Holiday!!

[Mood:Excited]
[Music:Diana DeGramo - The Difference In Me]

I found my IC!!!!!
Thank God!!!
It was found in the van I was in on the way back from Genting.
Picked it up 4rom Esther's house 2day.
Just came home from dinner,had it at The Concorde.
I love the food there!!!
LOL

I won't be here the whole of next week, ppl.
Will be going for a nice,long holiday.
I want and need it badly!!!
Can't wait......

C ya all next weekend!!!
God Bless!!

CioZ!!

Feelingz

[Mood: Still Spacey]
[Music: M2M - Don't Say You Love]

Feelings as it is,is very unpredictable,
and we mess them up even more,

One day ur love,the next you hate,

Then you long and want,

Its all so very complicated.

Pain,hurt and longing comes after the heart breaks and shatters,
Tht is one of the many effects when the heart breaks,
Then comes loneliness and depression.
And everything rotten.....

Through friendship and care,the heart restores.
And with time,the pain goes and fades out,

But there will alwayz be memories hunting and lingering....

I have no idea why I wrote this....

Life and its craziness,its complicated secrets and mysterious,
I hope I figure them some day,right now I know very extremely little bout them.
But am fine with wht I know now,
Kinda...
I wanna know more bout me,
Trying to all the time,

Wish I wasn't so very predictable at certain times,
And shy,
But am proud of me being the wild,loud,crazy gurl I am,
Thts me
Am Happy!!

The joy of being a teenager,
The happiness, sadness, joyfullness, the friendships, relationships,the adolescence,the crapness,the complicatedness,the distinctness
The weirdness,the influences, the obssesion over the media, and the plain wonderful crazyness!!!

I LOVE IT!!!!

Everyday is going by...

[Mood: Spacey]
[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Watched "Batman Begins" yesterday.It was really good.The speacial effects and all.The new batman is totally hott too.LOL.The movie was kinda long though,like 2 hours plus.Way long for a Batman flick.
Theres strong assurance in the ending tht there will be a part two.So thts cool

The heroine is Katie Homes,Tom cruise's new gf.Talk bout a really old guy with a young gurl.Whts the hell is wrong with this gurls anywayz??

Total weirdness.....for goodness sack just cause his loaded with cash and fame doesnt mean you force urself 2 fall in love with him..*sheesh*

Went 2 the dentist yesterday and she said tht my braces can come off in two months!!!!
But then they'll put the retainers right away.....
Tht really suxz
But Thank God thts like for only six months.

WOW!!!

[Mood: Extremely Happy]
[Music: Marion Raven - Break You]

Today was one of the "best yet the worst day of life."
Well kinda at least.In the morning before heading to church,I found out I lost my identity card.*Sniffles*
Tht was it.My parents yelled at me all the way from the house to the church.They kept going on and on bout responsiblilty.
Sometimes I really try to be responsible,I really do but I just really sux at it at times.......fuck...
Then my mum went on bout tht this is my last outing outstation with my homies..yada..yayda..yayda...
That will only be implyed for this year anywayz.Thts wht she said last year also.
Then they said tht maybe I won't be able 2 get the tickets for the showcase cause they'll usually ask for ur IC.I was really disappointed when I heard tht but still kept a little hope up.You just never know.......
After church,we come home,changed and headed to J.W Marriot.
There was a few ppl there who were getting their tickets.I was afraid but I went to the counter and they asked for my name,I found it in their list and... Guess wat??
They GAVE me the ticketz!!!!!
I was physced and totally grateful!!
Waited in the line till like 2:45,it was a totol borin wait with my sis(Note to self:Next time grab a fren to bring along)am not being mean or anything but she doesnt even really like Marion Raven,so yeah.While waitin this lady come up 2 me and she asked if she gave me the "meet and greet pass" and I was like no and the she handed it to me and told me 2 wait after the showcase!!! I wanted 2 scream badly but sadly I couldn't.LOL. Then at 3 they showed us in the hall.And then two Hitz.FM deejayz,Junior and Peatro,was just fooling around a while.They had
some autograped stuff they were givin away.Didnt win any though,I didnt try either.Then at like 3 something Marion come.Everyone just went crazy,pushed past the fence and went right in front of the stage and tht included me. LOL Some of the songs she sang was "Here I am,"Thirteen dayz,"Break You" I love tht song!!,and also "End of me."She also sang a M2M song tht everyone was singing along too and the best song of the showcase was definately "End of Me"It was fun to see everyone sing along 2 it.It was a blast!!
It finished at bout 3:45,then I was waitin in the "Meet and Greet" line.They were lettin five ppl at a time.While waitin I met this gurl,forgot her name though,and we were just chattin,then this guy from Sayful and two another girls joined in and we told the guard tht we all wanted to go in at the same time.Just before I went in the room,I was totally nervous.Marion was really friendly and nice.She shaked our hands and thanked us all for coming.Shes really tall though,I felt freakin short next 2 her,hehehe....I asked her to sign my poster,my sisters'and my autography book.She saw tht my book was Cleo and asked if I saw this months issue and I was like yeah.I was just plain nervous.LOL
Then we had a group photo and all!!

Will post the pictures up soon!

Tht was my day,the best and worst....

Totolly weird yet totally aweosme!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was all good!

[Mood: Tired]
[Music:None]

Well I just come home from a carnival,helped out there.Not really helped but just sat there.(:P)

Am really really worn out......and just dead

The Genting trip was total fun.Had loadzof fun with Esther and my younger pet sis,Hannah
and her fren.It was all good.Just totally messed around and gooffed off.The first day was spent chillin round,the second was spent in the theme park,it was totally fun hanging with the guyz,they were just all crazy!! LOL
In conclusion it was totally great!!

Am gonna go get some rest now
2moro is another long day!!
CANT WAIT!!

I feel like someone just wacked me up.....

And so;at last

[Mood: Special]

[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Well I'll be going 2 my very first concert in 5 dayz time!!

My very first concert!!!!!!

Am totally physced bout it.Its the Marion Raven showcase btw.

I won those tickets in a Star call in thing.

Also I will be going 2 Genting this thursday with Esther and a few other ppl.

Tht will be fun.

I needed a break anywayz.

This week will be kinda hectic.

I think....Most probably

*At LaSt*

I love hectic weeks.They alwayz seem to keep me in a good mood.

So it has been predicted tht it will be a awesome week!!

*Hope tht stayz the same*

The effect that never should be big

[Mood:Happy]

[Music: Marion Raven - End of Me]

Will be going 2 Esther's house today,we'll just chill out and talk most probably,

It would do me some good to spend time with her.....

Shes a good listener and am a good talker(:P).

So its all cool.

I've been feelin so much better 2day,am glad am over this whole depression thing,

Though at times I do get mad thinkin bout it,theres nothing much I can do......

I was just thinkin lately;if u make one little mistake,there are so many wayz it can effect u.

I hope the mistake I made doesnt have much effect.I really don't want a huge disaster.I so don't want it 2 ruin a friendship.

I really don't.

Reality Hurtz

[Mood: Blank]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Better Off]

As reality hit me when I woke up,

I felt the sting of my tears,

I cried wayy too much thts why it hurts,

Everything tht happened come back 2 my mind,

I felt numb for a while,

Too bad it lasted temperarily,

My heart ached all over again,

As tears fell,all I could is wander...

Am never gonna be stupit or so very gulliable again,

And so another lesson has been learned

*siGh*

How long is this pain going 2 last??

I hope not too long.....

Anyone there...bet not...

[Mood: Depressed]

[Music: Ryan Cabrera - Take It All Away]

Am totally immune 2 this,

Cause it has alwayz been happening 2 me,

I wanna run away from here,

I wanna start a new life,

Away from this place,

Am screaming but no one hears me,

Not one soul,

Maybe I should scream louder,

But I bet thts useless

Cause no one;and I mean no one will ever hear me.....ever......

Why the hell does this keep happening??

[Mood: Sad]

[Music: Vertical Horizon - Echo]

Why am I so very gullible?

Why am I so blind at times,

Why the hell didnt I see this coming?

I thought maybe;maybe you were different

I want to be alone,

I dont want anyone anymore,

I want you to stay away from me,

I told you didnt I,

Tht I never want to get hurt again and I trusted you..

Somehow in my heart I knew this would happen,

I didnt want to be a replacement,

But u didnt listen did u?

I have no words,

I am tired of this happening to me,

I seriesly dont know wht ppl think of me,

Maybe a person to hurt,to be broken and shattered,

Thts wht everyone has been doing,

I want to be alone and I want you far away from me................

Yada..Yada..Yada....

[Mood: Cool]
[Music: Lindsay Lohan - Nobody Till You]

Change will always be part of our lives,
Even though sometimes I wish change wasn't that active in life,
Change will alwayz be apreciated,
Yet there are at times it will be hated,
Well rite now there has been some change,
Good changes..I truly appreciate them
I needed it,

I just realized this evening that every time u fall in love,
Theres alwayz a mark left,
Some sort of memory that will stay with you forever,
It depends on what kind of relationship that u've been in,
In a sweet relationship a loving memory is left,
In a bitter one,a nightmare will linger........

BLaH

Sitting in my favourite chair in the study,
With Mandy Moore's Someday We'll Know playing in the background,hope someday I'll know...
Wandering just wayy too much as usual,
My bro's sitting downstairs watchin his all time favourite movie "The Lion King"
My sis is obviously on her laptop looking for more Jesse McCartney websites (Her current obssession)

I want to watch Star World now but am just too lazy to go...
Miss my pet sis,shes just alwayz online at this time and I'd be blabbing all my day events to her.
Shes gone to her aunt's house for a week and I have no one to blab to.*SNiFfLeZ*
I wish it was raining now,then at least I'd have something to do,
The "One Tree Hill" epsidoes are taking forever!!
I've got 2 do some studying 2nite.....

Being weird is what I do best.....LOL

[Mood: Bottled Up]
[Music: The Killers - All The Things I've Done]

"This earings are so very cute."
"One is longer than the other and also they are different patterns."
"But I love them.."
No way am I letting u buy those,ppl will think something is seriesly wrong with you."
"I dont care when others think!"
"You're still NOT getting them.I dont understand why you also want to look weird"

And so I didnt get my earings.*Sheesh*
Mummy always has to be so fussy bout stuff.She hates it when I shop for"weird" stuff.
She always goes on about how everyones gonna say things and all.
When I dont care wht the hell others think!!
*siGh*

Sunday was spent at Midvalley.Shopping around and having lunch there.
Went 2 my aunt's house after that for dinner.
That was preety much it.

Saturday was planned to go watch Star Wars.But I only ended up watchin half of the movie,cause there was a stupit power failure.And so I have to go watch it again!!.Yeppie!!
Christensen Hayden is soo very HoT!!! Am only intersted in Star Wars now cause of him..LOL

Theres some English work I have to attended to....

...I bruise easily....

[Mood: Uncertain]
[Music: Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily]

Am afraid,wht if the whole cycle repeats itself,
I dont want to get hurt again,just not again,
You seem very convincing but am still scared,
Am already partially scared,

I dont want to put so much faith as I did before,
I pray this works out,I really hope,
U asked if I trusted you,
I do
But if u break my trust,u'll never ever get it back,

*I bruise easily,

so be gentle

when you handle me

theres a mark you leave,

like a love heart carved on a tree*

Casual

[Mood: Carefree]

[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Today was very casual,woke up at 8 something,did some studying,

Mummy had to go out somewhere,so I was put "in-charge",in other words,I had 2 babysit.

And trust me,babysitting my brother is no fun.Not only he doesnt sit still but hes so demanding,always wanting something.*Sheesh*

My 13 year old sis is absoultely no help at all.All she does is sit and watch music videos.

And mummy blames me for her physcotic music obessions.

American Idol finale was on 2day,my favourite is definately Bo bice!!

His hot (yes I know his kinda old) and his a rocker!!

Rockers rule!!

But I have 2 admit Carrie is good too.She sang "Angels brought me here"

It was really sweet.

Am addicted to Vanilla Coke Ppl,

I've been drinking too much of it,

LOL

Bet vanilla coke doesnt do tht much harm as coke,

At least I think so...

Downloading more "One Tree Hill" episodes cause I missed the whole first season,

*Sniffles*

The damn downloading is taking freakin long though,

I've gtg check on the downloading...

AggHH

[Mood: Dead Tired]
[Music: Mariah Carey - It's Like That]

Feelin dead is no fun,trust me
Trying to sleep in the car is kinda impossible at times,
Feelin nervous for absolutely no freakin reason is funny!
Sitting under a durian tree and praying its tiny fruits won't fall is hilarious,
Vanilla coke is the best drink ever (for now)
Doing a book report and passing it makes you feel good,
Waterfalls are beautiful,
Trees make me smile,
Lakes are ever so lovely,
Dreaming is a good way to pass time in the car,
AND
Listening 2 borin music is definately no fun!!

Its gonna...

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Mandy Moore - It's Gonna Be Love]

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna you baby

Time I've been patient for so long

How can I pretend to be so strong?

Looking at you baby

Feeling it too baby

If I'm asking you to hold me tight then it’s gonna be all right

[Chorus]

It's gonna be Love

It's gonna be great

It's gonna be more then I can take

It'sgonna be free

It's gonna be real

It's gonna change everything I feel

It's gonna be sad

It's gonna be true

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna be you baby

It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love

Time am I restless or a fool?

How can you pretend to be so cruel

Maybe it's me baby

Maybe it's true baby

Maybe it's everything were dreaming of

We waited long enough

[Chorus] Its gonna be Love

It's gonna be great

It's gonna be more then I can take

It's gonna be free

It's gonna be real

It's gonna change everything I feel

It's gonna be sad

It's gonna be true

It's gonna be your the one to do

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna be you baby

The sooner you let two hearts beat together

The sooner you know this love is forever

Love needs time now or never

You really got to believe,it's gonna be strong enough

Love this song currently,very sweet!!

Let Me Go

[Mood:Feelingless]

[Music: 3 Doors Down - Let Me Go]

I have absolutely no feelings rite now,

But I do want to write,

I guess am just not sure wht to put down,

I love music

And the way they show your deepest emotions,

When there is absolutely no words,

There is music.

Thts why I always luv putting certain songs on repeat mode,

The same lyrics being said again and again and again,

Ppl singing wht am feeling......

"You love me but you dont don't know who I am,

Torn between this life I lead and where I stand,

You love me but you don't who I am,

So let me go,just let me go."

I have 3 Doors Down "Let Me Go" on repeat now.

*You love me but you don't know me*

Drama-less

[Mood: Peaceful]
[Music: Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams]

There are never times in my life where there is absolutely no drama,

Its always one after another,*siGh*

Lately the weirdest things have been happening,am trying to figure out wht in the world is going on.....Some ppl around me are predictable and some just arent.

I feel like forgiving and yet I dont.

I dont even know if this stuff is real.

I think I need an inteperator to follow me around.

That would make my life a whole lot easier.

The emotions that I 've been having for this few weeks,

are slowly fading,

Thank God!!

I can go on at last,without feelin broken or shattered,but I still do feel bruised though

But there is no more loneliness,no more crying,no more weeping in a corner,no more thinking back,

The past is the past and I guess it should rarely be thought of,

*Sometimes I feel like laying down and dying,thats when I need u...*

WEeeeee

[Mood: Lazy]

[Music: Sugababes - Too Lost In You]

Well looks like I got some answers this week.

Kinda......

Am still not so sure bout this though,

I really need more info......

At least you told me the truth,am happy

I had absolutely no idea you had felt this wayy for such a long time,

Am still wondering why you didnt show,

Maybe u did and I didnt see it,

Am just glad everything is going in a very slow pace.....

Tht way I'll know whts happenin'

Someone??

[Mood: Lonely]

[Music: Enrique Iglesias - Addicted]

Well I've made up my mind to never ever fall in luv again,

But its really sad I cant keep up to tht,

Rite now I seriesly dont want too though,I really mean tht....

* Somone has taken over my world,I want it bacK, RITE NOW!!! *

*Going on alone*

[Mood: Glad]
[Music: Busted - Sleepin With The Light On]

Well am happy tht everything is going normally.Dayz are very usual,and for some reason am kinda glad.Heres a quick update on whts been going on..

Saturday:Went for a prayer meeting and came home and watched "One Tree Hill"
Am totally hooked to tht show.Maybe cause Chad Micheal Murray is in it.His sooo
very hot!!!! (:P)

Sunday:My dad came back 4rom the states.He got me a beauTiful necklace set.Its soo
very sweet.He got loads of choclates too!!! Went out in the evening.It was cool

Monday: Had tuition and did absolutely nothing.*siGh*

Its cool now tht everythings going slowly.So I can grasp one thing at a time.Thts good,it really is.

*And now ur gone and am sleepin with the light on*

*Drama*

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Skye Sweetnam - Tangled Up In Me]

Ok,sometimes I think am a major drame queen,

Making a big deal out of something freakin small is weird,

I admit,

I shoudnt kill you,

Dont worry I wont,

I just should confort u bout it,talk 2 ya

*BAH*

Why didnt I think of this????

I know,

Cause I was too busy making a huge deal bout it,

*siGh*

Sometimes when I know what I want,

But is afraid for no freakin reason,

I sound so senseless,

So empty,

P.S>> No more dramas,think calmly,react calmly!!!!

Sentences not ryhmes

[Mood: Freakin Bored]

[Music: Hoobstank - Disappear]

Still living an uneventful life,

This is just very sad,

I want something 2 happen,

PleZzzZ,

Something happen,

My head is still spinning with questions,

Damn,

I want answers,

I need answers.

No more riddles or ryhmes,

I want clear sentence,

something tht I can understand,

Something tht I can interpret,

*Not Again*

[Mood: Upset]
[Music:Drowning - Backstreet Boys]

Fuck........

Am starting 2 hate this day,and its barely even started,
Why cant ppl keep 2 their word,
Why do ppl have 2 freakin lie,
I can't take this anymore, Its the same thing hapenning again and again,its the same damn repeating cycle,am soo fed up,

The cycle: Depressed - Cry my heart out - Listen 2 good inspirational music - Get Inspired - get a bit of good news - then the damn truth comes out

Why can't u leave me alone!!
I dont think u know wht u even want,
Why run after someone else,when someone is already in ur heart,
I dont know wht the hell is going on??

I wish so very much tht I was freakin numb,
tht will be wonderful,
just perfectly wonderful,

FuCK!!