The Ultimate Act of love that had the greatest impact on the world

[Mood: Tired/Cheery]

[Music: Planetshakers - All I Want Is You]

As it was Good Friday this week,there was no skool.So I spent my day partially studying,onlining and on the phone.At nite I went to church for Good Friday service and I had a good time..I was just in a very good mood that day cause a certain someone decided to be such a darlin!....hehehehe.....anywayz it rained as usual,the way it alwayz does on Good Friday...it reminds us that Our Saviour died on this very day all for love....the ultimate act of love....

On Saturday,didnt do much either.Just the usual.Hanged around the house doin nothing actually.In the evening went over to Christine's and waitied for a couple of ppl to come and all.Then Christine's sis..Josephine took us there.The place was jam packed when we arrivied and service didnt even start yetz.The main whole was packed and there was bout 100 people waitin in the lobby.Had a really good time! The Pastor spoke bout the road to our destiny.It was real good.There were bout 10 to 12 people from our skool.We had dinner and was hangin around till bout 11 somethin.And then Christine's sis took us home and since Christine and I was in the car 2gether,we kept laughin so much and poor Josephine couldnt hear Timothy give directions to his house...it was fun..lolz...I reached home bout 12 and was totally worn outz.....

I have no idea how I work up precisely at 8 in the mornin but was kinda tired.Headed to Christine's place and waited there till bout 10.Went to church at bout 10 somethin.Service ended around 12 somethin and there were more ppl from skool 2day.We took pics and all.Had lunch and sat in camp fire position...lolz....oh and a fren of mine..we've been in the same skool for a few years but his not a christian but finally yesterday when they had an altar call..he took the move and went..I was really soo happy for him..after a couple of years..his made the move to give his life to Jesus...all of us were really glad for him.....so we had lunch and after that I headed home,rushed like mad cause we were late to go to our grandparents place cause there was dinner sorta thing that evening...I was runnin low on energy by then...came home at bout 12 that nite and after that I headed to bed...was ever so tired...

Woke up at 11 this mornin..dad decided to be gracious this mornin I guess...well I gotta go do some skool work...my week of vaca is officialy over...

He died on the cross for you and me,

He suffered ever so much,

And all for the sake of love,

The one pure,true love,

Love that impacted the world and touched many lives,

He loves us in the way that words can't describe,

And all He wants back is our love,

And to walk the path He has planned for us,

So that we may have abundant life.

He died for you,why not live for Him?

My dear little corner

[Mood: Lonely]

[Music: Crossfade - Cold]

Am in a small little corner,

Shiverin slightly in the light cold breeze,

So many thoughts are lingerin in my mind,

And am not sure which one to deal with first.

For I want everythin in my mind to disappear,

So I can run along carefree,

Thingz were so much easier back then,

When the biggest problem was learnin to write your name.

I just want a hug,

A hug to make all this disapper,

To be held and never let go,

To be held close and be told that everything will be alrite.

Maybe I should find a cosier corner,

And stay there till am ready to come out,

Fo right now I just want to hold on this feelin.

Life is a balance of holding on and letting go

It's was a sweet old day

[Mood: Cheery]

[Music:Carrie Underwood - Jesus Take The Wheel]

The day started off with tuition and then some time online.Headed off to Esther's house later in the mornin.We were messin around with her computer and her music collection.I gotta get that Carrie Underwood cd from her,its sounds really good btw...has tht country feel to it.Then we walked to Mc'ds and had lunch...its kinda of our routine everytime I go to her place.We had the usual round of burgers,fries and ice-cream.We don't usually count calories when we go out cause we don't notice how much we eat when we talk...lolz....we were talkin bout the teens in hollywood and ideal husbands(:P)......we like talkin bout the future a lot....its weird tht way...

So we came home and chilled around for a while and then we went out with her mum to get ingredients for the cookies we were goin to bake.Took a while to decide if we were goin 2 use hershey or cadbury chocolate and then her mum suggested cooking chocolate..lolz....came home around 3 somethin and we practically had home economic lessons....it was fun!!...we kept talkin and laughin a lot..it was nice 2 spend time with her after such a long time....guess we both felt the drift and all......then she had 2 go for violin lessons and I hanged online with my pet sis and watched "The Nanny"..its an old sitcom..use 2 watch it when I was younger..anywayz we went 2 pick her from her lessons and then we went for dinner....came back and my mum was there by then...just came home btw and so here I am..

It was a really good day.I had a great time!!.....I think I should do this more often....am gonna go check on my one tree hill episode....I wasted a whole freakin day downloadin the wrong one!!...*Sheesh*...

Since You've Been Gone

[Mood: Still worn outz]

[Music: Kelly Clarkson - Since You Been Gone]

I can't believe,
For I am in disbelief,
I trusted you,
So much for that matter,
But you've proved me wrong yet again,
Guess am getting use to this,
But there are no more tears to cry,
And ain't gonna waste my time cryin anymore,

Am done here,
For it's not something new,
In my heart, I knew
I knew you would tell me this one day,

It was just a matter of time,
So thank you for all the great times we had,
For breakin my heart and watchin me fall apart,
For no one has hurt me the way you did,

I bet it was fun,
And you had a good time
But I don't reget,
I learned a lot from you,
And am grateful in a way for all the lessons,
But as usually behind every lesson,
There are marks,

Marks you can't erase and you'll carry around for the rest of your life,
For experience is a hard teacher

It gives you the test first
And the lesson much later.

You dedicated,

You took the time,

And it wasn't long till I called you mine,

But all you ever heard me say is how I pictured me with you,

That's all you heard me say,

But since you've been gone,

I can breath for first time,

And am so movin on,

Thankz to you,

Now I can get what I want,

Since you've been gone

Smooth Sailin

[Mood: Totally Worn Out]

[Music: Goo Goo Dolls - Name]

It was kinda of a vacation this weekend and thank goodness cause I needed it ever so badly.My friday was rather quiet.It was the usual and a little more here and there.So it was pretty fun.Stayed at home for the evening and packed for the next day cause I was goin away for the weekend to the beach.Watched "Cheeper By The Dozen" that night.It was a good family flick but Hilary Duff looks really bad here.She's lost just wayy wayy too much weight.But over all its a nice movie to watch with the family.After that Kc and I were on the phone till bout 12.That was rather fun!

Woke up bout 8 and the house was bustling as everyone got ready and got their luggage into the car.We had breakfast at a restaurant and headed off by 9 somethin.So had lunch at my grandma's place and then the whole family left to the beach at nearly 2 somethin.The hotel was okies and the pool was great.The best part was when we were at the pool,it started pourin rather heavily and I got to chill in the rain(alwayz wanted 2 do tht!!).After tht was rather worn outz and had a good chinese dinner.Slept at around 12.

As it was Palm Sunday,the family decided to go to church and we went 2 my grandma's church.Later we had lunch and decided to hang outz at the beach.Was there till bout 6 somethin.Went for a boat ride and swam.Btw the beach looks really beautiful when the sun sets.It really lights up the horizon......loved the view of that.....

Went back to my grandma's place and then we went out for dinner.For chinese yetz again...I have no idea but the family tends to like Chinse food a lotz...lolz...Finished nearly round 10 and everyone headed home.Was totally tired outz when I come home.

Cause we were all really worn outz,my dad decided to let us sleep in late till bout 10 somethin.I really needed the extra sleep though am still tired...

Well the rest of my week was pretty uneventful but there was the usually highlights.Watched "Ice Age" on Thurday.It was nice but I felt not as good as the 1st.Besides tht notta much I guess.The vacation was really good for me.I had loadz of time to think thingz through and plan where I wanted to go from here.I really needed to get everything sorted out and all.And I just hope,it'll be smooth sailin from here...at least for a while.....

Is it suppose to be this way?

[Mood: Poetic]

[Music: Westlife - You Raise Me Up]

It's been all bout growning up,

For am tryin to find a way to stop time,

I want everything to come to halt,

So I sink into every moment bit by bit.

I don't wanna let go of some much,

Cause I love this sense of secruity,

Please don't go,

And leave me all out here in the cold.

Am lovin this feelingz,

Of love and care,

I never wanna let go,

Of all this wonderful dreams.

Is there no way to hold on,

For I suddenly believe in a forever,

If there is hope,

And faith lingers,

There is a forever.

"Let your desires be ruled by reasons"

Cicero

Seemed Intersting

Borrowed this from a frenz site...I was bored...seemed intersting....

1. his hair color? black,brown,redish,blonde,anything is fine cept weird colours like purple or something..
2. his eye color? anything will do..black,blue,green....
3. his height? Definately taller than me
4. does he have a six pack? sure tht wouldnt be a prob
5. is his hair long or short? short
6. does he wear glasses? no probz
7. does he have piercings? wouldnt mind a ear piercin but others maybe I'll mind...
8. does he have scars? sure
9. would he stay on the phone with you until 2 a.m.? that would be fun and sweet
10. is he buff or skinny? kinda buff but not too buff and not too skinny
11.is he funny or serious? Funny but series at times as well
12. does he like to party or stay at home? party a little is fine but not too much and stay at home is all good 2
13. should he cook? tht would be cool
14. should he have a best friend? sure
15. should he have alot of female friends? okies I guess
16. is he outgoing or shy? Outgoin is good but shy at times is kinda cute..(:P)
17. is he sarcastic or sincere? Sincere..but the occasional sacrism is fine...lol
18. should he love his mother? of course
19. should he watch chick flicks? sure..why not..it would be nice 2 watch some movies with him
20. would he be a smoker? its okies I guess but not smoke a whole pack a day and kill himself kinda thing
21. would he drink? Not to the point where he gets drunk all the time and pukes
22. would he swear? sure
23. would he play with your hair? that would be nice..(:P)
24. is his clothes style important? not exactly...but being fashionable ones in a while is good
25. would he pay for somes dates? sure
26. does he kiss on the first date? ummm....
27. would he call you everyday? tht wouldnt be a prob I think
28. would he bring you flowers? That would be sweet,speacially if they were roses
29. would he lay under the stars with you? OF COURSE!!!..thts so romantic...
30. would he write poetry about you? tht would be very cute
31. would he call you baby? of course!
32. would he hang out with you and your friends? sure
33. would you hang out with him and his friends? why not
34. would he walk you to the door at the end? yupz
35. holding hands? a must!
36. does he play soccer? not a problem
37. does he play baseball? sure
38. does he play basketball? no probz
39. does he play football? he could be a sports freak...I wouldnt mind
40. would he have alot of things in common with you? yes and no
41. would he be the type to always tell you his feelings? yea..I like honest guyz
42. would he three-way you with his best guy friend? NO!!!!
43. would he three-way you with his last girlfriend? ewWw!
44. would he sing for you? yea sure...a really romantic song would be nice like a ryan cabrera one
45. is he musical? guiter at the beach or by my window or jammin on the drums would be cool too..wouldnt mind a cute piano player either....
46. would he introduce you to his parents? lolz..why not
47. would he leave you messages for you to wake up to? hugz~
48. is it important to have him in check? hmMm..
49. is he artistic? tht would be cool since am not too artistic
50. if he calls five times a day, do you tell you friends he's sprung? It's okies...I wouldnt really mind....
51. would he talk alot about his ex-girlfriends? sure I guess...
52. would he give you any reason to think he was cheating? ermmm....
53. would he watch the sun rise with you? Hell yeah!!!
54. would he take you for walks in the park? Yea and talk the nite away in his arms...as u can see am a total romantic...hahaha
55. how old is he? just not too old....
56. is he very smart or average? hmmMm...
57. what is the most important thing in a relationship? Honesty,loadz of love,trust,chemistry

Cheers To The Teenage Years

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Like You - Bow Wow ft. Ciara]

So Friday was pretty casual this week.It was the usual Kc and I yappin for the whole day and we were plannin 2 go outz on Saturday and all.Also a gurl name Yvonne came to our skool and had a talk..she has NS,its a sickness where u have tumors growin in ur body and cause of tht she can't really hear and was unable to walk for a while...it was real beautiful the way she's fightin for life and keepin so strong...I really admire tht cause she's not drowning herself in self-pity....even with her sickness shes a writer and a business student...she come to our skool to sell some t-shirts to raise money for an operation she needs to get down..everyone was kinda inspired in a way from this talk.....so anywayz come home and chilled around the house.Tried persuadin my date 2 go outz on Saturday which he gave me a bizzare reason for not comin and I really thought it was true and it ended bein an early April fool's joke..lol.....Went outz for dinner then and come home and slept....

Woke up nearly 11 in the mornin on Saturday.Was online till bout afternoon and since the date thing was called off,I planned 2 go 2 Christine's church....my mum was kinda shocked tht I switched plans for goin to the mall to church..LOL....went to Christine's house bout 6 and then Sonia,Wesley,Tracy and Nicole joined us.Went there with Sonia's mum.There was loadz of youths there when we reached.Had a hard time keepin track of each other.The guyz came in kinda late and all..the service was really good...the worship was loadz of fun and the senior pastor gave a good sermon bout friendship.....had no idea David Lee could play the drums so well...Esther and I kept checkin and seein if tht was really him since his usually so quite in class and all....finished nearly at 10p.m..the guyz decided 2 go first..so we had dinner and waited to take our group pic so we migled around.At nearly 10 somethin we took our pic and some guy none of us knew decided to join our pic..lol...weird...went home bout 12 and was really worn outz...I had a really good time with my gurlz though....

It was really hard wakin up in the mornin on Sunday,I was really tired.Headed to church and then to the mall for a little shoppin and makin my watch smaller since every I watch I get alwayz seems to be rather too large..Bleh...come home and spent the rest of my day in a "lazy sunday" manner..tht includes readin with my music blarin,sleepin,watchin tv and gettin online...

So my weekend was good in a way....I had fun,looks like my week ahead maybe intersting...well am actually really hopin it is...

Tears,drama and lies...THREE CHEERS TO THE TEENAGE YEARS!!!!!

I've drifting down a river

[Mood: Cheery]

[Music: Fefe Dobson - Everything]

The week has been rather quiet,

With occision events,

But that what makes it intersting I guess,

Life's weird that way.

I realized that the more we fight the closer we become,

Well actually you said that but I like quotin from you sometimes,

Who else am I gonna steal quotes from anywayz,

But you know I realized that's kinda true in a way.

You're very unpredictable most of the time,

I can never know at times what goes on in your head,

Most people I can read,

But just not you.

Maybe that 's why am attracted to you
It's just that you have your way of makin me smile,
Even when I really don't want to,
And the way I can alwayz be honest with you,

That's just speacial,
You're just really speacial to me,
And I want you to know that.

Sweet 16

[Mood: Excited/Happy!!]

[Music: Hilary Duff - Sweet Sixteen]

And so my sweet sixteen celebration started out precisely at saturday.Headed down to the saloon to get my hair curled,not the whole thing though,just the ends and it turned out pretty good but it seriesly was so freakin tirin sittin on that chair. By then I was practically starvin to death cause it was 2pm when it was done and as usually I didnt grab breakfast.Later had lunch and hanged around the house.I got dressed up at bout 5 somethin,really loved the dress and....I decided to put flowers in my hair...I know it isn't really me but hey its "sweet 16".....

It started precisely at 7 and the early ones were Vitz and Sam.Everyone roller kinda later but I forgive you guyz...lolz...poor Denise and Danielle got lost....I had precisely 16 candles on my cake even though the large ones usually represented 10 but wht the heck...lolz.....dinner started out round bout 8 and by then everyone

was there...wesley,daniel,sonia,hannah,sheryln,denise,danielle,christine,

hannah,vitto and sam.I had loadz of fun,we kept laughin so much and crappin as usual....lol.....we were definately the loudest around...it was a total blast..everyone hanged around till bout 10 somethin and then Denise,her sis and Sonia went home 1st.Everyone else stayed round till 11 somethin and Wesley and Daniel decided if they didnt get transport home,they'll have 2 crash in my livin room with Vitto..which was definately a bad idea,especially the vitto part...LOL....the last 2 go was definately Vitto..we were watchin Alien and Predeator cause there was nothin else showin..later I sat up checkin out my presents..got some really cool stuff..cash,Ashlee Simpson's I Am Me(thankz Esther!!),a couple of jewelry items,teddy bears,chocolate,a discman!!..I wanted tht so very much... and loadz more...thankz everyone for ur gifts btw...

Headed to church this morning.Was really tired outz and all but Thank God I played well even though I didnt practice...Headed to the mall after that and did a little shoppin..went home and my parents gave me my gift and I got want I wanted from my wishlist!!..which was really cool since they don't check out my blog and all.....it was GUESS accesories!!!!!..I got a watch and a handbag..TOTALLY AWESOME!!...was checkin out all my greeting testimonials and greeting cards just nowz...they were so very darn sweet!!..thank you so much dearies!!!....loved them..

Well I gotta say ppl this has definately been one hell of a sweet sixteen!!!Really great.Thankz 2 all my family and homies for makin it an aweosme one!!...Loadz of Love...~XoXo~

It's been a very intersting journey so far,

With so many lessons learned,

Gaining much and lossin little,

But there is no regret in all,

All these wonderful memories will alwayz be with me,

Through times of joy and tears,

I've found love both in my family and frenz,

People standin in corners,

Alwayz willin to give me a helpin' hand,

And am indeed very greatful,

From here is gonna be discoverin so much more to life,

And carryin on all that I've learned,

It's the road to a whole new journey,

Livin life to the fullest,

And lovin every part of it

It definately gonna be sweet!!

Nervous,Happy Yetz Excited

[Mood: Nervous]

[Music: Chris Brown - Run It]

Headed to skool 2day.It was really hectic,running around givin out my addy,rememberin who I didn't invite yetz,checkin whos gonna comin and whos not.Then there were people with "whos coming?","is so-so coming","how formal is formal","do u want a teaset?".....tht was from Vitto btw...LOL....and then I was updatin Kc with all the details of my week...so it was really crazy and all 2day but it was good.Check this out...

*Everyone watchin Jarett's magic card trick...Kc and I were watchin*

Vitto: Oh look you guyz are actually not talkin

Me: LOL...yeah...

Kc and I were talkin non stop for nearly the whole day.We alwayz have so much to catch up on Fridayz.So skool was pretty cas for the rest of the day

Am really nervous bout 2moro.Not really sure why though.Feelin weirdly stressed.Maybe am worried if I invitied everyone and all...totally bizzare....lolzz....gonna go find somethin 2 do...kinda bored currently....muax~

Never take life for granted,

Live a little,

Love with everything you have

&

Never give up

It's Cold Out There

[Mood: Down Memory Lane]
[Music: Stray's Don't Sleep - For Blue Skies]

Does this darknesss have a name?
This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?
Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?
What happened to us that now we send our children into the world like we send young men to war,
Hoping for their safe return, but knowing some would be lost along the way.
When did we lose our way?
Consumed by the shadows.
Swallowed whole by the darkness.
Does this darkness have a name?
Is it your name?

Slick and Sweet

[Mood: Cheery]
[Music: Amber Pacific - Poetically Pathetic]

It has been a definate intersting weekend.The camp was fun with its occasional bizzare happenings.But it was nice spendin time with everyone and all.I indeed had fun.Was totally tired outz when I came back yesterday.Watched the beginning of F1,slept and watched the ending.I slept for pretty much the rest of the day and hanged online at nit3zZ..

Today was okies,the usual chattin,listenin to music for the whole day and studyin.That was pretty much it.It was kind of a drag....The highlight for this week is definately goin to be my birthday this weekend...really excited bout it and all...I've been running around checkin with my guest list n all lately...really can't believe am gonna be 16 in a couple of dayz...gosh I feel old..lolz...Well am gonna go watch "Lost".....sadly I missed last week's episode....

Life is not a dress rehersal,
It's the final production,
So make it count.

LOVES!!

I'm caught in between perfect lies and impossible dreams

[Mood: Kinda Bored]

[Music: Lifehouse - Blind]

It was suppose to be sweet,

But currently it just seems messy,

Maybe I need to get my priorities straight,

It's time to rearrange again,

Cause I can't go on livin in a daydream.

The truth usually suxz,

So here I am again,

Talkin to myself,

Tryin ever so hard to find,

Courage,

Strength,

Support,

Will,

And all of that,

I need it all rite nowz,

Just to get by the day.

Confusion seems to take over just way too much lately,

It's been kinda overwhelming sometimes,

I really don't know where to go from here.

Tears Durin The Bitter Rain

[Mood:Emo]

[Music: Marion Raven - Break You]

Lookin at the sky,

It looks rather beautiful as evening turns to night,

The light hits it just right and it looks ever so lovely,

But how many out there lookin at the same beauty with tears in their eyes,

How many have lost someone at that very moment,

Or just have been broken hearted,

And those that have the thought of breakin someone's heart in that very night.

Those that can't stand the world and have suicide in their thoughts,

There are people out there who have lost hope in much,

And can't bare the truth cause it seems so bitter,

Cause somethin so beautiful turned into a hell of a nightmare within a day,

It's sad when you know so much goes on under the same beautiful sky,

So much tears and pain,

Screams that can't be heard,

And a broken heart behind a beautiful smile,

So be nice to everyone you meet,

Cause they're fighting a battle you know absolutely nothing about.

Throwin away every bit of regret

[Mood: Sadly Cheery]

[Music: The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not]

I definately am in need of a distraction,

Cause my emotions are in a whirlwind,

My head is spinning with questions,

And the answers never seem to be good enough

At first I thought am gonna kill the way I really feel with anger,

But that made me feel bitter,

Then I tried running away away from it,

By burying it anyway I can,

But that made it feel worse,

Later I realized I might as well face it nowz,

Cause sooner or later it's gonna get to me,

So for the last few dayz I've decided to face the way I feel,

And deal with it all,

So far it's goin fine,

Cause it's not somethin that hasnt happened before,

And it's not somethin new,

It's a repeat of history,

That happened just way too soon.

Sometimes you have to see the worst,

To apperieacte the bad.

Unoffical Vaca

[Mood: Relaxed]

[Music: Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue]

Am on unoffcial vaca cause am currently waiting for my new shipment of cd's to come.So on Monday I watched the Oscars live in the morning which was bout 9 A.M and catched the red carpet at night with the family...okies more like they were forced to watched it with me.The Oscars was kinda simple this year.Reese Witherspoon definately wore the best dress.Total vintage! It seems it was some vintage Dior she found in Paris and her friend helped fix it and all ( read it somewhere :P) And the worse must have been Michelle Williams,tht horrible lookin yellow thing..lol...even Charlize Theoron's dress looked weird....the Best song winner was kind of a disappointment expected the track of Brokeback mountain or Memoris of Geisha to win...also thought Brokeback Mountain would win for the movie of the year..*sheesh*..this year's Oscar's was definately borin.....well I plan to watch Brokeback Mountain..I soo wanna watch that..also "Walk the Line","Memoirs of a Geisha" and Munich..I saw the DVD that day but didnt get it.....

Watched Lost at nite.It was good.Seems to be gettin more intersting,hope I'll be able to keep up with it but AXN alwayz has loadz of repeats so I don't think tht'll be a problemo....Didn't do notta much on Tuesday..my rountine these past two dayz and will be for probably the entire week.....wake up around 8,read the paper and listen to the radio till bout 10,watch tv and babysit bro till bout noon.Have lunch,catch up on some readin,be bored durin the evening and watch tv at nite yetz again....am not totally bored outz from this rountine but I definately can't take more then a week of this.....

Am currently showing a bit of interst on the "O.C".Been watchin for 2 weeks in a row but sadly it's not as intersting as One Tree Hill.Guess am still a loyal OTH fan.....

It's All Good

[Mood: Tragically Bored]

[Music: Fall out Boy - Sugar We're Goin Down]

And so my internet has been down for the last couple of dayz and all.So heres an update on my weekend...

Friday was a blast.Went to skool durin break which was pretty late.Kc was there and all.So it was our usual group hangin outz.Kc and I spent practically the whole day talkin bout boyz,boyz and more boyz...lolz...thank goodness I didnt get the " I told you so or didnt I tell this would happen" from either of them.They were totally darlin's and were really supportive and all.But they did hint a little..lol....Check this outz-->

Esther: See thats why I told you say no.You alwayz don't listen to me....

Kc: Well she wanted her own experience in this and she sure learned something.

Me: *Grinz*......Yea thts true.....And in my head *** HELL YEAH!! Of Course I gained experience and learned something from all that....DUH.......maybe I should rethink this whole method of experince gaining wisdom thing.......***

Chapel was okies,the new teacher took over this time.It was ok-ish...Headed home at bout 4 and continued with my "Memoirs of a Gesisha" which is really good btw.Do read it if you get the chance.Very intersting...

My parents decided to go watch "Pink Pather" at nite.So I decided to book the tickets and it actually worked!! Had dinner at Secret Recipe which is one of my fav restaurants! The movie was hilarious but the story was pretty simple.Steve Martin is a darn good comediean......

You know I learned that day that good friends alwayz find their way back to each other.Even after much bickerin and bitchin and all of that.You'll find that you're much closer than before and you just know you'll have each others back.Guess that's one of the many cool parts of life.

The rest of my weekend was spent in front of the tv with a pile of DVD's and quite a bit of babysitting to do.But it was all good.It was a simple but good weekend.

Can't wait to see what the week has in store for me!

Let The Rain Fall Down And Wake My Dreams

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Evanescene - Goin Under]

Everything happens for a reason.

Things fall apart and can fall into place.

Don't question it, just let it happen.

If it`s meant to be, it will find a way

We live an unforgiving world,
Where we strive to learn,
And hurt for love,
Where nothing can last,
And where forever has no meaning,
We die to live,
And live to die,
We fight for love that takes a lifetime to find,
Where innocence takes a whole new meaning,
And evolves through time.
Where goals seem to be priorities,
And love becomes meaningless,
Where running seems to be unstoppable,
And drowning is just another hobby,
Where crying is an hourly activity,
And heartbrokenness just another trend.
Heartless is what this world is,
Where nothing seems to live with time.

Looking for a Saviour to save my soul,

Cause all the damage I've done has left a big hole.

Experience is one hell of a hard teaher

[Mood: Sleepy]

[Music: The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not]

Looks like I've judged you right yetz again,

Now I know why I've been feelin weirdly emo and all today mornin,

My heart has alwayz been right bout you,

And this must been the milliontieth time I ignored the message.

My current nickname on msn is "Experience is one hell of a hard teacher,it gives you the test first and the lesson later.I had no idea this morning why in the world I put it there but now I do.

It weirds cause this time am not in a puddle of tears.

It's just another lesson learned.

And am definately gonna pick up from this.

P.S: Next time Esther remind me to listen to you or hit me in the head if you have too dear! LOL

MUAX~

I'm Gonna Muster Every Ounce of Confidence I Have,For You I Will

[Mood: Very Happy]

[Music:Teddy Geiger - For You I Will(Confidence)]

Yesterday was one hell of nice day.Well I went to school bout 10:00 something.The new place isnt that great..I miss the old place loadz..guess cause of the old memories of running around a lotz there and all.The lunch place just looks sad and the environment is plain borin ...anywayz..it was nice to see all the old people there and meet some new ones too.Check out this conversation I had with Esther...

** Readin Sense and Sensibility**

Esther: You know I've known you for quite some time know and I can totally describe you.

Me: Really?? Shoot

Esther: You like listening to punk music and you look partially punk.But inside your totally classic.

Me: And why's that?

Esther: Look what you're readin

Me:LOL...That's one intersting description

She alwayz comes up with some intersting stuff usually.It was nice to see her after quite a while.Sadly Kc wasnt there..kinda miss her...chapel was okies.We played a couple of weird games...lol....Vitto was completely weird the whole day,his gone from bad to worse lately.He was goin around huggin everyone and spreadin the love I guess...BizZaRe!...

After that,Sheryln,my sis and I waited for Jarett to get to skool and we headed to Pyramid.There was heavy trafic and I was kinda nervous in the car and cause I kept checkin my watch everyone minute..lolz...reached there kinda late and I was a bundle of nerveous cause my bf walked rite past me twice and I didnt ever notice him..talk bout super blur!..and then I called him to ask where he was and he was like "Am rite in front of you ".LOL.

We went to watch "Dick and Jane".Quarter of the movie was gone by the time we went in and all.After that we went to Mc'ds and had partial lunch or tea I think..lolz..it was really cute cause we kept feedin each other and all(:P)....after that we just walked around and talked....I had a blast.This was my offcial 1st date and baby thankz for makin it memorable.I had a great time!

When am in your arms,

It just feels ever so right,

I've never really been in love,

But this time,I know I definately am.

I love you baby boy!

The Partial Mid Week

[Mood: Casually bored]

[Music:Tyler Hilton - That's How Love Should Be]

Well Ppl its the mid week,nearly the mid week.My weekend was quite,more like too quite and all.Haven't been out much lately.Sadly....

So the good news is I finished the school work and I need to do and all and am officialy free!! Am a free person!

Which is a such relief after one hell of a hectic week that consisted of late nights and lookin dead every mornin and all.

Besides that,theres nothin much goin on lately.The usually stuff.But usually at quite times of the month such as these,I'll be rather emo and all but I have been in a very happy go lucky mood lately.It's just that somethin's been keepin me very happy lately and am just real glad.

That's pretty much it.I guess.

Well am gonna find somethin 2 do....

"Am gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have,For You I Will BabY"

There goes another Valentine

[Mood: Dreamy]

[Music: Lifehouse - Take Me Away]

Its Valentines ppl.The prices of roses raised to the higgest possible,boxes of chocolates on speacial sales(best part ever!),every restaurant havin some sort of promotion and people dancing aorund with love ringing in the air.It's a real speacial day.

My valentine started out disastrous,precisely at 12.First I thought it was a joke,then I got hit by reality,into a state of shock,drama followed and then it ends up sweet in its on little way.Long story PpL......anywayzz....I spent my morning with my baby boy,which was real fun,I really enjoy our conversations.He alwayz has his own little way of makin me smile and I love that bout him.He somehow brigtens my day.Sadly I can't go out with him today and all.Sorry bout that baby!

Well besides that,I've been studying and just hanging around listening to music the usual.Nothing much really.

Valentine's Day isn't just bout being in love but it's also appericiating your friendships.So to all my friends,Thankz for alwayz being there,Love you guyz loadz!!!

~HapPy VaLenTine's Day Ya'LL~

P.S:ThankZ For The Note on Friendster Vitz,ReallY Apperaicate it!!!

I'm like a bird and I need to fly away

[Mood: Complicated]
[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Just Let Me Cry]

I'm like a bird,
And I do wanna fly away,
Can't stick around here for too long,
Gotta get out of here.

I know there's more
And this was definately not for me,
But when your bored,
You turn to your last resolutions.

I just relieased that I had the opportunity,
But I threw it away,
Please throw another my way,
I promise I won't be so blind.

This has been killin my free spirit,
And my fun lovin side,
As it is am the complicated one in it
And I don't need confusion in the middle of it all.

Gotta get out,
Gotta find an escape route,
Gotta run away,
From all this complicated misery.

Highlights

[Mood: Sleepy]

[Music: The Pros and Cons of Breathing - Fall Out Boy]

Well it's been a pretty uneventful week.There has been a bit of drama here and there though.As you all know,my life is addicted to drama.I've been doing a lotz of studying lately though maybe because I've been procrastinating a lotz and all...long story...and so know my mum has given some time limit to finish up my work and all.*Sheesh*

Other than that,there's been notta much.Oh and the highlight of the week is...I dont have to do PMR!!..which is good news since I pay no attention at tuition and all.Tht's cause it's just way to early for me.The teacher notices that I guess.....cause I alwayz like am about to sleep on the table anytime soon...

I'll most probably be goin to skool next Fri.I know you guyz....I've been saying next week for quite a while nowz but it'll definately be next fri.I know you wanna kill me for that Vitto!!...LOL...I miss you lotz darlin'!!!...And this goes to Esther as well..since she wants to kill me as well.....am victimazed too much..if theres such a word...

Well ppl I gotta go attend to some science crap...I hate that freakin subject....speacially if it has to do with memorizing cell names...fuck....

~MuaX~

The Real Thing

[Mood:Excited]

[Music: Bo Bice - The Real Thing]

Looks like you found your way back into my life,
It's alwayz good to know there's so much honesty between us,
I never really thought this would happen,

But it's been a darn good surprise.

You always have your own way of makin me smile,
And these dayz you make sure I always have a great day,
I never knew how much you really loved me,
But I do see it now.

You've always been special,
Sometimes I wander if you knew that
I hope you see that nowz baby,
By the way I just speak to you without sayin much at all.

It's alwayz been there,

The spark,

The chemistry,

It just took us time to see it all.

If you want to,I can save you

[Mood: Cheerful]

[Music: Black Eyed Peas - Where is the love]

If you want to,

I can save you,

I can take you away from here,

So lonely inside but so busy out there,

And all you wanted was someone to care.

It's been crazy for both of us lately,

We've gone through much,

From hatin each other,to wanting to tell each other how much we cared,

It's been mad but terrifically fun.

Drama,

It'll always been part of my life,
It'll always be my inspiration,

It just makes my world go round.

It's beautiful to like someone,
But It's even more beautiful to be in love with someone,
There's beauty in everything,

All you have to do is look.

It's been intersting lately...Thank Goodness

[Mood:Sick]

[Music: Backstreet Boys - What makes You Different]

Well I had a darn good weekend.I headed off to "The Curve" on Friday.I'm really starting to love that place.The concept seems a lot like Singapore though but that's cool.Had dinner at this Italian restaurant which was soo soo good.Went window shoppin a bit and headed home.

There was this wedding on Saturday.Woke up bout 10 a.m And by the time I got online,had breakfast and all it was bout 1:00p.m and it was time to leave by then.Time does fly these dayz.The wedding was definately fun..It was nice to see all my cousins and family.

The typical Sunday it was.Had church in the morning.Didn't really go out and all.Stayed at home and was bored as usually....

Today's my sis's birthday.She 's 14 this year.I haven't really gotten her anything yet(:P).But I will soon....Had some relatives over and all....That was pretty much it.....It's been intersting so far and thank goodness......

Exciting in a funny sort of way

[Mood:Kinda bored/excited]

[Music: Lindsay Lohan - Magnet]

Exciting is a funny sort of way,
That's how it has been this last couple of dayz,
It's been dramatic yetz cool,
But I've been havin my fair part of a good time.

Am not sure where's it goin from here

But so far it seems to be goin in the rite way baby,

This year though am gonna fun and not take anything too seriesly,
It's gonna be more of a chillin outz this time round,
I shall my try very best not be overly dramatic bout stuff
Not that I am anywayz....

It better be sweet

[Mood:Tired]
[Music: Bo Bice - Valley of Angels]

It's been crazy this few weeks,
And I thought this year was gonna be quiet,
Guess it's fun when somethingz are unpredictable.
You never know.

Sometimes when you go to the least expected person for advice,
You find out that you've been running away from the truth all along,
Well I just didn't want the real thing you know,
But desperate times calls for desperate messures.

Lookin down this year,
It seems like there's gonna be full of suprises,
And I can't wait,
It's gonna be sweet sixteen baby!!
It better be SWEET!!!!!

"You can't keep somthin you never had"

[Mood:Upset]
[Music:Marion Raven-13 dayz]

Am still stuck in memories of you,
And this really suxs,
I hate you rite now,
Hope you know that.

I thought we had somethin,
I really did,
But your jerkish side showed soon,
And am thankful for that.

I know it was only a month,
But that had an impact on me,
I still wander in the middle of the nite,
What the hell went wrong?

I will learn to let go.
Till then I shall continue to pretend.

Nail Polish,A City and A Celebrity

[Mood:Relaxed]
[Music:Blink 182 - Alwayz]

Your Nail Polish Color is Black

How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't unique Why your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it off What this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Are Ashlee Simpson!

Stylish, unique, talentedYou're your own woman!"It seems like I can finally rest my head on something realI like the way that feels"

Who's" Your Inner Rock Chick?

From the top darling!

[Mood: Chillin]
[Music: Blink 182 - I Miss You]

And so the holidayz are over and its back to skool..*sniffles*...I've got loadz of work piled up from last year's left over...and so it's been kind of a hectic week..well actually I've been procrastinating a lotzz....*sheesh*..I so have to start gettin hard workin again...

My current obbession...LAGUNA BEACH!!.....I've seen the advertisment and buzz bout it a lotz lately and so I decided to download an episode and see whts it bout......and wht'd u know...soon enough I was downloading 3 epsiodes a day..am still at season 1 though..never knew they would be so much drama in a teenagers life...guess tht happens when you live at orange county......but I definately love tht show!!

I need to get all this work done,to go out again...so you could say am kinda of grouded in wayz..fuck...I really really wanna go out soon...I miss my gurlz so much!!.....

Gonna go watch a fresh episode of Laguna Beach tht just finished downlading.....
Chowz babes!!

Happy New Year Ya'll

[Mood: Happy]

[Music:Nelly - Over and Over]

Well darlin's its a brand new year,so HAPPY NEW YEAR YA'LL!!

I did do notta much on New year's eve.Just went to church,had dinner at some Chinese restaurant,waited at home for the counted and blasted fireworks...okies not so huge ones but they were good enough.Stayed up till bout 2A.M.Not much of partyin and all,which is pretty sad....anywayz

Headed to church this mornin and then went over to KLCC.For some shoppin and dining....

Got some stuff at the GIRLS shop.I just love tht store.It's real darn cute!

I usually don't plan New Year resolutions and all cause I've headed you tend to forget bout in less than a week.But what the hell...I thought I'd give it a try.......

1.Study more and a whole lot harder.(DefinateLY!!)

2.Start livin in reality more and stop daydreamin'(Really must try)

3Get better at my writin'(add more words to my vocab)

4.Read More(Ex: Memoirs of a Geisha,Series of Unfortunuate Events,Chronicles of Narnia,The Da Vince Code and etc.)

5.Hang out more with my gurls(I know this is kinda weird but...)

6.Build stronger bonds with my sibilings(It'd be good to start arguing less with my sis)

7.Start actually practicing the organ(It's exam year!!...and am Fuckin' Doomed!!)

8.Get into more dance classes

9.Try out for some sort of sports.(This may do me some good)

10.Make a difference..somewhere..somehow

That's bout it...Hope this works....

Well am gonna go find somethin 2 do....Holla~

Behind These Dark Brown Eyes

[Mood: Hurt]

[Music: Good Charlotte - Predictable]

How could you?

How could you break me this way,

How could you do this?

This is revenge isn't it.

Why did you lie to me then?

Why did you leave the taste of your lips on mine?

Why did you say you loved me?

Why did you even bother tryin to care.

All I needed was someone to prove me wrong,

To show me that somethingz are worth it,

But Thank You for showin me the truth,

Why didn't I see this comin?

I guess I thought this would never ever happen between us.

But I want you to know this,

You are NEVER,

And I mean EVER gonna see tears,

Behind these eyes....

Merry Christmas Ya'll

[Mood: Joyous]
[Music: Bob Carlisle - Christmas Shoes]

It was almost Christmas time
There I stood in another line
Try to buy that last give or two
Not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me
Was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing around like little boys do
And in his hands he had
A pair of shoes

And his clothes were worn and old
He was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight

They counted pennies for what seems like years
And cashier says son there's not enough here
He searches is pockets franticly
And he turned and he looked at me
And he said Momma made Christmas good in our house
Most years she just did without
Tell me Sir
What am I gonna do?
Some how I gotta buy her these Christmas shoes
So I laid the money down
I just had to help him out
And I'll never forget
The look on his face
When he said Momma's gonna look so great

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight

I know I won't regret some help as he thanked me and ran out
I know that God sent that little boy to remind me
What Christmas is all about

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight
I want it to look good
If Momma meet's Jesus tonight

This is definately the true meaning of christmas.To share love,hope,joy and peace around.
Hope all you guyz have a rockin' christmas!!
To all my readers and homies out there..
MERRY CHRISTMAS WITH LOVE!!!
~XoxO~

No More...

[Mood: Excited]

[Music: Kelly Clarkson - Because of You]

I tried...

I really did,

But it doesn't seen like your gonna change or at least try,

I really am sorry for you,

Just thought you'd like to know.

I alwayz thought you were better than that,

And you were different,

But you're just as bad as all the rest,

Thank for being honest with me.

After all that we've been through,

Haven't you learned anything,

Guess you're just became ever more egositic,

This is definately sad.

I'm really tired of all the crap that keeps happening again and again,

And you could say am fed up,

I really don't mind your ignorance,

It makes my life a whole lot simpler.

I didn't tell you to change your whole self,

All I did say was to think before throwing your words outz,

Guess you'd don't wanna do that,

And am not gonna bother anymore.

Round and round

[Mood: Bubbly]

[Music: Blink 182 - I Miss You]

I have no idea,

How you do it all,

The way you drag me into a whirlwind

And I still go back for more.

Maybe its the thrill,

Maybe its the crazyness,

But from what I know,

It's definately Not normal.

Am uncertain now,yetz again

And that's definately not good,

I wanna scream out loud,babe,

Is there anyway do make all this go away?

Just another regret...and gosh do I hate them....

[Mood: Fustrated]

[Music: Sum 41 - Over My Head]

I can't take it anymore,

I really can't,

I've tried and tried again

But you seem to be a hopeless case.

Your mad you know that,

No one and I mean no one is ever gonna get through to you,

Trust me on that,

Your gonna know that one day.

The amount of time I've wasted with you,

Everything seems such a regret,

And I think you are one too,

Oh the time I've wasted.

I hope someone tortures you the same way,

Kills you slowly,

Never allowing to say a word,

To leave you in a corner.

Well from now on I offically give up on you,

No more tears and pain,

No more trying for something so hopeless,

Cause your a huge regret,

And so you know,

I hate REGRETS....

Plez....Don't...

[Mood: Too darn confused]

[Music: My Cheamical Romace - I'm Not Okay]

I hope you've changed,

And not become the person I think you are,

I wanna see the person I love and care bout,

For I can't bare to be disappoited again.

Don't break me like the way you did before,

Please......

After all I've gone through with you,

Hasn't it all been enough?

Am afraid,

Am scared,

And I fear too much,

I don't want you to turn into my worse nightmare.

I hope you remember the words I've said,

And the tears I've cried,

Cause if it goes to waste,

Don't bother speaking to me again.

Just fuckin' don't.

A great weekend

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Kelly Clarkson - Because of You]

Headed to Mid Valley today.I just love that place.All your favourite stores in one place.......

Just looked around a lotz and bought a t shirt from BodyGlove.One of my fav brandz!!

I just like the patterns a lot and all.Had lunch at Uncle Chili's after that.I ablosultely LOVE the tacos there.Yum!...actually I love all the food there...lolz...

Came home and did some chores.The typically look after the dog and clean up the room routine.

Gosh......Rite nowz,just sitting around and checkin my mail and all....the usual Sunday nite thing...nothing out of the ordinary......

And so it turns out to be a great weekend.It's been rockin and am trying my best to make the greatest out of everything and it's been all fuckin good.........

So have a great week ahead darlin's!!!!!

La La

[Mood: Excited]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - La La]

Friday was the last day of skool and it was a kind of sad parting.Am gonna miss skool so much!

A few ppl gave a speech and all and it was real sweet,espeacially Sonia's one.It was real good.

After skool a whole bunch of us headed to the mall to watch Zathura.Not that we were waiting for it and all but it was the only flick available at that time and we watched it out of desperation..lol....It wasn't too bad though.Hanged at the arcade and all and played a dance like game with pet sis who just couldn't get enough of it...Gosh Hannah....u rock at it!!

After that I went shopping with Christine and her sis.It was so damn fun cause we went to practically every clothing shoppin in there...lol......we had such a good time just laughing and all....I came home bout 7 P.M and then headed back to the mall to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with my family.And I got to say ppl that flick was real good.Speacially the speacial effects and all! It was preety long though...like bout 2 hours plus I think...I just reached home and I feel totally DEAD!

Well dude's am gonna hit bed nowz..I have to admit though I had one awesome day and it was the company that made the day rock!....Love all guyz loadZzz!!!...~MuaXzzzZ~

I love the way you love me

[Mood:Dreamy/In Love]

[Music: Yellowcard- Only One]

I thought am never going 2 be in your arms again,

Or be able to tell you how much I love you,

But I guess when people collide,

Its just happens.

I didn't mind the wait cause somehow in my heart somethin told me its gonna be alrite,

When you told me that you wanted me back in your life,

I wanted to scream out loud,

And so patience does have its rewards after all.

When am with you,

Being me is never a problem,

I love the way you accept me the way I am,

Your patient and your kindness is what I admire the most.

I want you to know that I love you baby,

And being with you makes me feel darn great,

You're one hell of a speacial guy,

Cause no one has made me feel the way I do when am with you,

I love you!!!!!

Happy Birthday darlin'!!!!

~MuaX~

Hectic is good,for me anyway

[Mood: Worn Out]

[Music: None]

The whole week of practice really did make me feel like am seriesly lackin in exercise.And also am really sore rite nowz....Gosh.....But I had my part of fun this week, So I ain't complaining too much....LOL...the awards nite was really fun.I really had a great time.I got to streak my hair red and all.....just came home btw...am so darn worn outz now....

This week has been real crazy.Dealin with frenz and preassures of rehersals.Running around and all.Hectic weeks are real good....(:P)....Oh and not forgettin unexpected thingz happening and all...am dancing around too much lately....lol.....dancin happily anyway....

Well I've come to where I wanted to be and it feels so damn good.

It's good to know that thingz have their way of straighning up.

So you could say I had one fuckin good week!!!!!!!

Punkish Lover Outz~

Lessons are learned daily baby

[Mood: Tired/Kinda Upset]

[Music: Get It Together - Indie Arie]

When your caught which so much going on,

You'll feel like your drowning alive,

That's how I feel rite now,

Am lost and out in the bitter cold.

What have I got to do to prove to you that you matter to me,

And what have I got to do to show you that I have changed and no more like you,

When will you see me as me?

When will you learn to accept the real me without being bitter about it.

Haven't you done enought damage?

And isn't time to fix thingz up,

When I need you to be there?

Why is hurting me your main aim.

I guess it doesn't take long to know who your real frenz are,

Cause the truth will show sooner or later,

And I know now that I should show how much my real homies matter to me,

Lessons are learned daily in your life baby....

Its been real good lately....

[Mood: Kinda Insane]

[Music: All American Rejetcs - Move Along]

Well last week was total vacation..no studying and all, just plain doin nothing.I needed it badly...I think....Anyway lately I've been very happy and I've absoluty no idea why... ok maybe I have a slight idea...its cause there have been a whole damn less drama and everything seems to be place lately.I've been more sane and I guess that makes me happy....

I went to skool 2day,there was dance practice 2day and I seriesly have to start practicing and all cause I think am kinda rusty,havent been dance for a few months now...*rolls eyes*.....After practice,Esther,Asha and I went for a drink and all....It's nice 2 spend time with your girlfriends...lolz.....just laughing and crappin for absoluty no reason...its all good....

Well I've gotta go check if my "One Tree Hill" download is done...its the 1st episode of season 3 btw.....I really don't wanna wait for it till next year...am just wayy too impatient!!...