Tears Durin The Bitter Rain

[Mood:Emo]

[Music: Marion Raven - Break You]

Lookin at the sky,

It looks rather beautiful as evening turns to night,

The light hits it just right and it looks ever so lovely,

But how many out there lookin at the same beauty with tears in their eyes,

How many have lost someone at that very moment,

Or just have been broken hearted,

And those that have the thought of breakin someone's heart in that very night.

Those that can't stand the world and have suicide in their thoughts,

There are people out there who have lost hope in much,

And can't bare the truth cause it seems so bitter,

Cause somethin so beautiful turned into a hell of a nightmare within a day,

It's sad when you know so much goes on under the same beautiful sky,

So much tears and pain,

Screams that can't be heard,

And a broken heart behind a beautiful smile,

So be nice to everyone you meet,

Cause they're fighting a battle you know absolutely nothing about.

Throwin away every bit of regret

[Mood: Sadly Cheery]

[Music: The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not]

I definately am in need of a distraction,

Cause my emotions are in a whirlwind,

My head is spinning with questions,

And the answers never seem to be good enough

At first I thought am gonna kill the way I really feel with anger,

But that made me feel bitter,

Then I tried running away away from it,

By burying it anyway I can,

But that made it feel worse,

Later I realized I might as well face it nowz,

Cause sooner or later it's gonna get to me,

So for the last few dayz I've decided to face the way I feel,

And deal with it all,

So far it's goin fine,

Cause it's not somethin that hasnt happened before,

And it's not somethin new,

It's a repeat of history,

That happened just way too soon.

Sometimes you have to see the worst,

To apperieacte the bad.

Unoffical Vaca

[Mood: Relaxed]

[Music: Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue]

Am on unoffcial vaca cause am currently waiting for my new shipment of cd's to come.So on Monday I watched the Oscars live in the morning which was bout 9 A.M and catched the red carpet at night with the family...okies more like they were forced to watched it with me.The Oscars was kinda simple this year.Reese Witherspoon definately wore the best dress.Total vintage! It seems it was some vintage Dior she found in Paris and her friend helped fix it and all ( read it somewhere :P) And the worse must have been Michelle Williams,tht horrible lookin yellow thing..lol...even Charlize Theoron's dress looked weird....the Best song winner was kind of a disappointment expected the track of Brokeback mountain or Memoris of Geisha to win...also thought Brokeback Mountain would win for the movie of the year..*sheesh*..this year's Oscar's was definately borin.....well I plan to watch Brokeback Mountain..I soo wanna watch that..also "Walk the Line","Memoirs of a Geisha" and Munich..I saw the DVD that day but didnt get it.....

Watched Lost at nite.It was good.Seems to be gettin more intersting,hope I'll be able to keep up with it but AXN alwayz has loadz of repeats so I don't think tht'll be a problemo....Didn't do notta much on Tuesday..my rountine these past two dayz and will be for probably the entire week.....wake up around 8,read the paper and listen to the radio till bout 10,watch tv and babysit bro till bout noon.Have lunch,catch up on some readin,be bored durin the evening and watch tv at nite yetz again....am not totally bored outz from this rountine but I definately can't take more then a week of this.....

Am currently showing a bit of interst on the "O.C".Been watchin for 2 weeks in a row but sadly it's not as intersting as One Tree Hill.Guess am still a loyal OTH fan.....

It's All Good

[Mood: Tragically Bored]

[Music: Fall out Boy - Sugar We're Goin Down]

And so my internet has been down for the last couple of dayz and all.So heres an update on my weekend...

Friday was a blast.Went to skool durin break which was pretty late.Kc was there and all.So it was our usual group hangin outz.Kc and I spent practically the whole day talkin bout boyz,boyz and more boyz...lolz...thank goodness I didnt get the " I told you so or didnt I tell this would happen" from either of them.They were totally darlin's and were really supportive and all.But they did hint a little..lol....Check this outz-->

Esther: See thats why I told you say no.You alwayz don't listen to me....

Kc: Well she wanted her own experience in this and she sure learned something.

Me: *Grinz*......Yea thts true.....And in my head *** HELL YEAH!! Of Course I gained experience and learned something from all that....DUH.......maybe I should rethink this whole method of experince gaining wisdom thing.......***

Chapel was okies,the new teacher took over this time.It was ok-ish...Headed home at bout 4 and continued with my "Memoirs of a Gesisha" which is really good btw.Do read it if you get the chance.Very intersting...

My parents decided to go watch "Pink Pather" at nite.So I decided to book the tickets and it actually worked!! Had dinner at Secret Recipe which is one of my fav restaurants! The movie was hilarious but the story was pretty simple.Steve Martin is a darn good comediean......

You know I learned that day that good friends alwayz find their way back to each other.Even after much bickerin and bitchin and all of that.You'll find that you're much closer than before and you just know you'll have each others back.Guess that's one of the many cool parts of life.

The rest of my weekend was spent in front of the tv with a pile of DVD's and quite a bit of babysitting to do.But it was all good.It was a simple but good weekend.

Can't wait to see what the week has in store for me!

Let The Rain Fall Down And Wake My Dreams

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Evanescene - Goin Under]

Everything happens for a reason.

Things fall apart and can fall into place.

Don't question it, just let it happen.

If it`s meant to be, it will find a way

We live an unforgiving world,
Where we strive to learn,
And hurt for love,
Where nothing can last,
And where forever has no meaning,
We die to live,
And live to die,
We fight for love that takes a lifetime to find,
Where innocence takes a whole new meaning,
And evolves through time.
Where goals seem to be priorities,
And love becomes meaningless,
Where running seems to be unstoppable,
And drowning is just another hobby,
Where crying is an hourly activity,
And heartbrokenness just another trend.
Heartless is what this world is,
Where nothing seems to live with time.

Looking for a Saviour to save my soul,

Cause all the damage I've done has left a big hole.

Experience is one hell of a hard teaher

[Mood: Sleepy]

[Music: The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not]

Looks like I've judged you right yetz again,

Now I know why I've been feelin weirdly emo and all today mornin,

My heart has alwayz been right bout you,

And this must been the milliontieth time I ignored the message.

My current nickname on msn is "Experience is one hell of a hard teacher,it gives you the test first and the lesson later.I had no idea this morning why in the world I put it there but now I do.

It weirds cause this time am not in a puddle of tears.

It's just another lesson learned.

And am definately gonna pick up from this.

P.S: Next time Esther remind me to listen to you or hit me in the head if you have too dear! LOL

MUAX~

I'm Gonna Muster Every Ounce of Confidence I Have,For You I Will

[Mood: Very Happy]

[Music:Teddy Geiger - For You I Will(Confidence)]

Yesterday was one hell of nice day.Well I went to school bout 10:00 something.The new place isnt that great..I miss the old place loadz..guess cause of the old memories of running around a lotz there and all.The lunch place just looks sad and the environment is plain borin ...anywayz..it was nice to see all the old people there and meet some new ones too.Check out this conversation I had with Esther...

** Readin Sense and Sensibility**

Esther: You know I've known you for quite some time know and I can totally describe you.

Me: Really?? Shoot

Esther: You like listening to punk music and you look partially punk.But inside your totally classic.

Me: And why's that?

Esther: Look what you're readin

Me:LOL...That's one intersting description

She alwayz comes up with some intersting stuff usually.It was nice to see her after quite a while.Sadly Kc wasnt there..kinda miss her...chapel was okies.We played a couple of weird games...lol....Vitto was completely weird the whole day,his gone from bad to worse lately.He was goin around huggin everyone and spreadin the love I guess...BizZaRe!...

After that,Sheryln,my sis and I waited for Jarett to get to skool and we headed to Pyramid.There was heavy trafic and I was kinda nervous in the car and cause I kept checkin my watch everyone minute..lolz...reached there kinda late and I was a bundle of nerveous cause my bf walked rite past me twice and I didnt ever notice him..talk bout super blur!..and then I called him to ask where he was and he was like "Am rite in front of you ".LOL.

We went to watch "Dick and Jane".Quarter of the movie was gone by the time we went in and all.After that we went to Mc'ds and had partial lunch or tea I think..lolz..it was really cute cause we kept feedin each other and all(:P)....after that we just walked around and talked....I had a blast.This was my offcial 1st date and baby thankz for makin it memorable.I had a great time!

When am in your arms,

It just feels ever so right,

I've never really been in love,

But this time,I know I definately am.

I love you baby boy!

The Partial Mid Week

[Mood: Casually bored]

[Music:Tyler Hilton - That's How Love Should Be]

Well Ppl its the mid week,nearly the mid week.My weekend was quite,more like too quite and all.Haven't been out much lately.Sadly....

So the good news is I finished the school work and I need to do and all and am officialy free!! Am a free person!

Which is a such relief after one hell of a hectic week that consisted of late nights and lookin dead every mornin and all.

Besides that,theres nothin much goin on lately.The usually stuff.But usually at quite times of the month such as these,I'll be rather emo and all but I have been in a very happy go lucky mood lately.It's just that somethin's been keepin me very happy lately and am just real glad.

That's pretty much it.I guess.

Well am gonna find somethin 2 do....

"Am gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have,For You I Will BabY"

There goes another Valentine

[Mood: Dreamy]

[Music: Lifehouse - Take Me Away]

Its Valentines ppl.The prices of roses raised to the higgest possible,boxes of chocolates on speacial sales(best part ever!),every restaurant havin some sort of promotion and people dancing aorund with love ringing in the air.It's a real speacial day.

My valentine started out disastrous,precisely at 12.First I thought it was a joke,then I got hit by reality,into a state of shock,drama followed and then it ends up sweet in its on little way.Long story PpL......anywayzz....I spent my morning with my baby boy,which was real fun,I really enjoy our conversations.He alwayz has his own little way of makin me smile and I love that bout him.He somehow brigtens my day.Sadly I can't go out with him today and all.Sorry bout that baby!

Well besides that,I've been studying and just hanging around listening to music the usual.Nothing much really.

Valentine's Day isn't just bout being in love but it's also appericiating your friendships.So to all my friends,Thankz for alwayz being there,Love you guyz loadz!!!

~HapPy VaLenTine's Day Ya'LL~

P.S:ThankZ For The Note on Friendster Vitz,ReallY Apperaicate it!!!

I'm like a bird and I need to fly away

[Mood: Complicated]
[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Just Let Me Cry]

I'm like a bird,
And I do wanna fly away,
Can't stick around here for too long,
Gotta get out of here.

I know there's more
And this was definately not for me,
But when your bored,
You turn to your last resolutions.

I just relieased that I had the opportunity,
But I threw it away,
Please throw another my way,
I promise I won't be so blind.

This has been killin my free spirit,
And my fun lovin side,
As it is am the complicated one in it
And I don't need confusion in the middle of it all.

Gotta get out,
Gotta find an escape route,
Gotta run away,
From all this complicated misery.

Highlights

[Mood: Sleepy]

[Music: The Pros and Cons of Breathing - Fall Out Boy]

Well it's been a pretty uneventful week.There has been a bit of drama here and there though.As you all know,my life is addicted to drama.I've been doing a lotz of studying lately though maybe because I've been procrastinating a lotz and all...long story...and so know my mum has given some time limit to finish up my work and all.*Sheesh*

Other than that,there's been notta much.Oh and the highlight of the week is...I dont have to do PMR!!..which is good news since I pay no attention at tuition and all.Tht's cause it's just way to early for me.The teacher notices that I guess.....cause I alwayz like am about to sleep on the table anytime soon...

I'll most probably be goin to skool next Fri.I know you guyz....I've been saying next week for quite a while nowz but it'll definately be next fri.I know you wanna kill me for that Vitto!!...LOL...I miss you lotz darlin'!!!...And this goes to Esther as well..since she wants to kill me as well.....am victimazed too much..if theres such a word...

Well ppl I gotta go attend to some science crap...I hate that freakin subject....speacially if it has to do with memorizing cell names...fuck....

~MuaX~

The Real Thing

[Mood:Excited]

[Music: Bo Bice - The Real Thing]

Looks like you found your way back into my life,
It's alwayz good to know there's so much honesty between us,
I never really thought this would happen,

But it's been a darn good surprise.

You always have your own way of makin me smile,
And these dayz you make sure I always have a great day,
I never knew how much you really loved me,
But I do see it now.

You've always been special,
Sometimes I wander if you knew that
I hope you see that nowz baby,
By the way I just speak to you without sayin much at all.

It's alwayz been there,

The spark,

The chemistry,

It just took us time to see it all.

If you want to,I can save you

[Mood: Cheerful]

[Music: Black Eyed Peas - Where is the love]

If you want to,

I can save you,

I can take you away from here,

So lonely inside but so busy out there,

And all you wanted was someone to care.

It's been crazy for both of us lately,

We've gone through much,

From hatin each other,to wanting to tell each other how much we cared,

It's been mad but terrifically fun.

Drama,

It'll always been part of my life,
It'll always be my inspiration,

It just makes my world go round.

It's beautiful to like someone,
But It's even more beautiful to be in love with someone,
There's beauty in everything,

All you have to do is look.

It's been intersting lately...Thank Goodness

[Mood:Sick]

[Music: Backstreet Boys - What makes You Different]

Well I had a darn good weekend.I headed off to "The Curve" on Friday.I'm really starting to love that place.The concept seems a lot like Singapore though but that's cool.Had dinner at this Italian restaurant which was soo soo good.Went window shoppin a bit and headed home.

There was this wedding on Saturday.Woke up bout 10 a.m And by the time I got online,had breakfast and all it was bout 1:00p.m and it was time to leave by then.Time does fly these dayz.The wedding was definately fun..It was nice to see all my cousins and family.

The typical Sunday it was.Had church in the morning.Didn't really go out and all.Stayed at home and was bored as usually....

Today's my sis's birthday.She 's 14 this year.I haven't really gotten her anything yet(:P).But I will soon....Had some relatives over and all....That was pretty much it.....It's been intersting so far and thank goodness......

Exciting in a funny sort of way

[Mood:Kinda bored/excited]

[Music: Lindsay Lohan - Magnet]

Exciting is a funny sort of way,
That's how it has been this last couple of dayz,
It's been dramatic yetz cool,
But I've been havin my fair part of a good time.

Am not sure where's it goin from here

But so far it seems to be goin in the rite way baby,

This year though am gonna fun and not take anything too seriesly,
It's gonna be more of a chillin outz this time round,
I shall my try very best not be overly dramatic bout stuff
Not that I am anywayz....

It better be sweet

[Mood:Tired]
[Music: Bo Bice - Valley of Angels]

It's been crazy this few weeks,
And I thought this year was gonna be quiet,
Guess it's fun when somethingz are unpredictable.
You never know.

Sometimes when you go to the least expected person for advice,
You find out that you've been running away from the truth all along,
Well I just didn't want the real thing you know,
But desperate times calls for desperate messures.

Lookin down this year,
It seems like there's gonna be full of suprises,
And I can't wait,
It's gonna be sweet sixteen baby!!
It better be SWEET!!!!!

"You can't keep somthin you never had"

[Mood:Upset]
[Music:Marion Raven-13 dayz]

Am still stuck in memories of you,
And this really suxs,
I hate you rite now,
Hope you know that.

I thought we had somethin,
I really did,
But your jerkish side showed soon,
And am thankful for that.

I know it was only a month,
But that had an impact on me,
I still wander in the middle of the nite,
What the hell went wrong?

I will learn to let go.
Till then I shall continue to pretend.

Nail Polish,A City and A Celebrity

[Mood:Relaxed]
[Music:Blink 182 - Alwayz]

Your Nail Polish Color is Black

How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't unique Why your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it off What this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Are Ashlee Simpson!

Stylish, unique, talentedYou're your own woman!"It seems like I can finally rest my head on something realI like the way that feels"

Who's" Your Inner Rock Chick?

From the top darling!

[Mood: Chillin]
[Music: Blink 182 - I Miss You]

And so the holidayz are over and its back to skool..*sniffles*...I've got loadz of work piled up from last year's left over...and so it's been kind of a hectic week..well actually I've been procrastinating a lotzz....*sheesh*..I so have to start gettin hard workin again...

My current obbession...LAGUNA BEACH!!.....I've seen the advertisment and buzz bout it a lotz lately and so I decided to download an episode and see whts it bout......and wht'd u know...soon enough I was downloading 3 epsiodes a day..am still at season 1 though..never knew they would be so much drama in a teenagers life...guess tht happens when you live at orange county......but I definately love tht show!!

I need to get all this work done,to go out again...so you could say am kinda of grouded in wayz..fuck...I really really wanna go out soon...I miss my gurlz so much!!.....

Gonna go watch a fresh episode of Laguna Beach tht just finished downlading.....
Chowz babes!!

Happy New Year Ya'll

[Mood: Happy]

[Music:Nelly - Over and Over]

Well darlin's its a brand new year,so HAPPY NEW YEAR YA'LL!!

I did do notta much on New year's eve.Just went to church,had dinner at some Chinese restaurant,waited at home for the counted and blasted fireworks...okies not so huge ones but they were good enough.Stayed up till bout 2A.M.Not much of partyin and all,which is pretty sad....anywayz

Headed to church this mornin and then went over to KLCC.For some shoppin and dining....

Got some stuff at the GIRLS shop.I just love tht store.It's real darn cute!

I usually don't plan New Year resolutions and all cause I've headed you tend to forget bout in less than a week.But what the hell...I thought I'd give it a try.......

1.Study more and a whole lot harder.(DefinateLY!!)

2.Start livin in reality more and stop daydreamin'(Really must try)

3Get better at my writin'(add more words to my vocab)

4.Read More(Ex: Memoirs of a Geisha,Series of Unfortunuate Events,Chronicles of Narnia,The Da Vince Code and etc.)

5.Hang out more with my gurls(I know this is kinda weird but...)

6.Build stronger bonds with my sibilings(It'd be good to start arguing less with my sis)

7.Start actually practicing the organ(It's exam year!!...and am Fuckin' Doomed!!)

8.Get into more dance classes

9.Try out for some sort of sports.(This may do me some good)

10.Make a difference..somewhere..somehow

That's bout it...Hope this works....

Well am gonna go find somethin 2 do....Holla~