BLaH

Sitting in my favourite chair in the study,
With Mandy Moore's Someday We'll Know playing in the background,hope someday I'll know...
Wandering just wayy too much as usual,
My bro's sitting downstairs watchin his all time favourite movie "The Lion King"
My sis is obviously on her laptop looking for more Jesse McCartney websites (Her current obssession)

I want to watch Star World now but am just too lazy to go...
Miss my pet sis,shes just alwayz online at this time and I'd be blabbing all my day events to her.
Shes gone to her aunt's house for a week and I have no one to blab to.*SNiFfLeZ*
I wish it was raining now,then at least I'd have something to do,
The "One Tree Hill" epsidoes are taking forever!!
I've got 2 do some studying 2nite.....

Being weird is what I do best.....LOL

[Mood: Bottled Up]
[Music: The Killers - All The Things I've Done]

"This earings are so very cute."
"One is longer than the other and also they are different patterns."
"But I love them.."
No way am I letting u buy those,ppl will think something is seriesly wrong with you."
"I dont care when others think!"
"You're still NOT getting them.I dont understand why you also want to look weird"

And so I didnt get my earings.*Sheesh*
Mummy always has to be so fussy bout stuff.She hates it when I shop for"weird" stuff.
She always goes on about how everyones gonna say things and all.
When I dont care wht the hell others think!!
*siGh*

Sunday was spent at Midvalley.Shopping around and having lunch there.
Went 2 my aunt's house after that for dinner.
That was preety much it.

Saturday was planned to go watch Star Wars.But I only ended up watchin half of the movie,cause there was a stupit power failure.And so I have to go watch it again!!.Yeppie!!
Christensen Hayden is soo very HoT!!! Am only intersted in Star Wars now cause of him..LOL

Theres some English work I have to attended to....

...I bruise easily....

[Mood: Uncertain]
[Music: Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily]

Am afraid,wht if the whole cycle repeats itself,
I dont want to get hurt again,just not again,
You seem very convincing but am still scared,
Am already partially scared,

I dont want to put so much faith as I did before,
I pray this works out,I really hope,
U asked if I trusted you,
I do
But if u break my trust,u'll never ever get it back,

*I bruise easily,

so be gentle

when you handle me

theres a mark you leave,

like a love heart carved on a tree*

Casual

[Mood: Carefree]

[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Today was very casual,woke up at 8 something,did some studying,

Mummy had to go out somewhere,so I was put "in-charge",in other words,I had 2 babysit.

And trust me,babysitting my brother is no fun.Not only he doesnt sit still but hes so demanding,always wanting something.*Sheesh*

My 13 year old sis is absoultely no help at all.All she does is sit and watch music videos.

And mummy blames me for her physcotic music obessions.

American Idol finale was on 2day,my favourite is definately Bo bice!!

His hot (yes I know his kinda old) and his a rocker!!

Rockers rule!!

But I have 2 admit Carrie is good too.She sang "Angels brought me here"

It was really sweet.

Am addicted to Vanilla Coke Ppl,

I've been drinking too much of it,

LOL

Bet vanilla coke doesnt do tht much harm as coke,

At least I think so...

Downloading more "One Tree Hill" episodes cause I missed the whole first season,

*Sniffles*

The damn downloading is taking freakin long though,

I've gtg check on the downloading...

AggHH

[Mood: Dead Tired]
[Music: Mariah Carey - It's Like That]

Feelin dead is no fun,trust me
Trying to sleep in the car is kinda impossible at times,
Feelin nervous for absolutely no freakin reason is funny!
Sitting under a durian tree and praying its tiny fruits won't fall is hilarious,
Vanilla coke is the best drink ever (for now)
Doing a book report and passing it makes you feel good,
Waterfalls are beautiful,
Trees make me smile,
Lakes are ever so lovely,
Dreaming is a good way to pass time in the car,
AND
Listening 2 borin music is definately no fun!!

Its gonna...

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Mandy Moore - It's Gonna Be Love]

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna you baby

Time I've been patient for so long

How can I pretend to be so strong?

Looking at you baby

Feeling it too baby

If I'm asking you to hold me tight then it’s gonna be all right

[Chorus]

It's gonna be Love

It's gonna be great

It's gonna be more then I can take

It'sgonna be free

It's gonna be real

It's gonna change everything I feel

It's gonna be sad

It's gonna be true

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna be you baby

It's gonna be...Its gonna be Love

Time am I restless or a fool?

How can you pretend to be so cruel

Maybe it's me baby

Maybe it's true baby

Maybe it's everything were dreaming of

We waited long enough

[Chorus] Its gonna be Love

It's gonna be great

It's gonna be more then I can take

It's gonna be free

It's gonna be real

It's gonna change everything I feel

It's gonna be sad

It's gonna be true

It's gonna be your the one to do

It's gonna be me baby

It's gonna be you baby

The sooner you let two hearts beat together

The sooner you know this love is forever

Love needs time now or never

You really got to believe,it's gonna be strong enough

Love this song currently,very sweet!!

Let Me Go

[Mood:Feelingless]

[Music: 3 Doors Down - Let Me Go]

I have absolutely no feelings rite now,

But I do want to write,

I guess am just not sure wht to put down,

I love music

And the way they show your deepest emotions,

When there is absolutely no words,

There is music.

Thts why I always luv putting certain songs on repeat mode,

The same lyrics being said again and again and again,

Ppl singing wht am feeling......

"You love me but you dont don't know who I am,

Torn between this life I lead and where I stand,

You love me but you don't who I am,

So let me go,just let me go."

I have 3 Doors Down "Let Me Go" on repeat now.

*You love me but you don't know me*

Drama-less

[Mood: Peaceful]
[Music: Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams]

There are never times in my life where there is absolutely no drama,

Its always one after another,*siGh*

Lately the weirdest things have been happening,am trying to figure out wht in the world is going on.....Some ppl around me are predictable and some just arent.

I feel like forgiving and yet I dont.

I dont even know if this stuff is real.

I think I need an inteperator to follow me around.

That would make my life a whole lot easier.

The emotions that I 've been having for this few weeks,

are slowly fading,

Thank God!!

I can go on at last,without feelin broken or shattered,but I still do feel bruised though

But there is no more loneliness,no more crying,no more weeping in a corner,no more thinking back,

The past is the past and I guess it should rarely be thought of,

*Sometimes I feel like laying down and dying,thats when I need u...*

WEeeeee

[Mood: Lazy]

[Music: Sugababes - Too Lost In You]

Well looks like I got some answers this week.

Kinda......

Am still not so sure bout this though,

I really need more info......

At least you told me the truth,am happy

I had absolutely no idea you had felt this wayy for such a long time,

Am still wondering why you didnt show,

Maybe u did and I didnt see it,

Am just glad everything is going in a very slow pace.....

Tht way I'll know whts happenin'

Someone??

[Mood: Lonely]

[Music: Enrique Iglesias - Addicted]

Well I've made up my mind to never ever fall in luv again,

But its really sad I cant keep up to tht,

Rite now I seriesly dont want too though,I really mean tht....

* Somone has taken over my world,I want it bacK, RITE NOW!!! *

*Going on alone*

[Mood: Glad]
[Music: Busted - Sleepin With The Light On]

Well am happy tht everything is going normally.Dayz are very usual,and for some reason am kinda glad.Heres a quick update on whts been going on..

Saturday:Went for a prayer meeting and came home and watched "One Tree Hill"
Am totally hooked to tht show.Maybe cause Chad Micheal Murray is in it.His sooo
very hot!!!! (:P)

Sunday:My dad came back 4rom the states.He got me a beauTiful necklace set.Its soo
very sweet.He got loads of choclates too!!! Went out in the evening.It was cool

Monday: Had tuition and did absolutely nothing.*siGh*

Its cool now tht everythings going slowly.So I can grasp one thing at a time.Thts good,it really is.

*And now ur gone and am sleepin with the light on*

*Drama*

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Skye Sweetnam - Tangled Up In Me]

Ok,sometimes I think am a major drame queen,

Making a big deal out of something freakin small is weird,

I admit,

I shoudnt kill you,

Dont worry I wont,

I just should confort u bout it,talk 2 ya

*BAH*

Why didnt I think of this????

I know,

Cause I was too busy making a huge deal bout it,

*siGh*

Sometimes when I know what I want,

But is afraid for no freakin reason,

I sound so senseless,

So empty,

P.S>> No more dramas,think calmly,react calmly!!!!

Sentences not ryhmes

[Mood: Freakin Bored]

[Music: Hoobstank - Disappear]

Still living an uneventful life,

This is just very sad,

I want something 2 happen,

PleZzzZ,

Something happen,

My head is still spinning with questions,

Damn,

I want answers,

I need answers.

No more riddles or ryhmes,

I want clear sentence,

something tht I can understand,

Something tht I can interpret,

*Not Again*

[Mood: Upset]
[Music:Drowning - Backstreet Boys]

Fuck........

Am starting 2 hate this day,and its barely even started,
Why cant ppl keep 2 their word,
Why do ppl have 2 freakin lie,
I can't take this anymore, Its the same thing hapenning again and again,its the same damn repeating cycle,am soo fed up,

The cycle: Depressed - Cry my heart out - Listen 2 good inspirational music - Get Inspired - get a bit of good news - then the damn truth comes out

Why can't u leave me alone!!
I dont think u know wht u even want,
Why run after someone else,when someone is already in ur heart,
I dont know wht the hell is going on??

I wish so very much tht I was freakin numb,
tht will be wonderful,
just perfectly wonderful,

FuCK!!

Over and over again....

[Mood:Peaceful]
[Music: Cry - Mandy Moore]

I have a selection of songs in repeat mode.I love this bunch of songs currently.
Its soo soothing.
This is fun.

I can't wait for Backstreet Boys new album.

I have fallen in love with their single "Incomplete"
Am addicted 2 it.

*Never*

[Mood:Confused/Calm/Tired]
[Music: Incomplete - Backstreet Boys]

"Everything happens for a reason"my sis said this 2 me,

Thts the only words that keep playing in my head rite nowz,
but now I cant find the reason of why this happened,
I don't blame myself for this,
But yes
Am upset bout it,

I never thought this would happen,
I mean I knew this would happen someday,
But sooo soon,I never guessed
I really never thought
Never.........

**At last**

[Mood: Tired]

[Music: Ooh Baby - Ciara]

Just finished tuition.My mum got a teacher to come over twice a week for BM.

Its official,am going 2 do my PMR.Only next year though.

*siGh*

Its not necessary at all actually.But my parents totally insist on it.

Its just a waste of my precious time.....LOL

Thank Goodness the teacher is okies.Usually all the tuition teachers I get is kinda weird,but this time its ok.

I just realized tht fusion music are made by messed up ppl for the messed up soul.

Went 2 this music shop yesterday,mostly fusion music was sold there.

Not only does it sound weird but the singers are totally weird 2.They're into all kinds of weird religions.The whole shop was just plain weird.

Things are getting totally complicated around me...again

Great.......

Am all confused.....

Well at least something intersting is happening.....

*Life's moving by*

[Mood: Calm]

[ Music: I don't want to be - Gavin DeGraw]

Just came back from Kuala Selangor.Went there for a drive, just for the fun of it.It was a nice drive.

Very scenic.While on the drive.I noticed loads of forests being cut down for housing projects.Whts wrong with this ppl??? If all these trees are chopped down,theres going 2 be less oxygen and very unhealty enviroments.No one is stopping these developers either.Am not sure why but I REALLY hate it when i see so many trees being chopped down.They're such beautiful things.Ppl should apperiaciate them more!!.*siGh*

Went 2 some park when we reached there,then had lunch at a seafood restaurant and came back.

Usually when I go out of town,I usually appreciate living in the city,if I would have been staying in some small town.By now I've would have gone officialy physco.

Life seems horribly boring there.Not one decent shopping mall or cinema.Roads looks really bad and most restaurants look totally unhygienic.

Am soo very grateful am a city gurl!!

THANK GOD!!!!

Well am going 2 get confirmed this year,so I have classes at church 2nite.For those of u who dont know wht am talking bout.

heres the defination of confirmation.

Confirmation: (1) a Christian rite conferring the gift of the Holy Spirit.(2) : a ceremony of confirming youths in their faith. { Defination from the webster website}

I've gotta do some work for confirmation class........

Everything you want

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Vertical Horizon - Everything you want]

Somewhere there's speaking

It's already coming in

Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind

You never could get it

Unless you were fed it

Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks

Past the places where you used to learn

You howl and listen

Listen and wait for the

Echoes of angels who won't return

[Chorus]

He's everything you want

He's everything you need

He's everything inside of you

That you wish you could be

He says all the right things

At exactly the right time

But he means nothing to you

You're waiting for someone

To put you together

You're waiting for someone to push you away

There's always another wound to discover

There's always something more you wish he'd say

[Chorus]

But you'll just sit tight

And watch it unwind

It's only what you're asking for

And you'll be just fine

With all of your time

It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island

Into the highway

Past the places where you might have turned

You never did notice

But you still hide away

The anger of angels who won't return

[Chorus]

I am everything you want

I am everything you need

I am everything inside of you

That you wish you could be

I say all the right things

At exactly the right time

But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

And I don't know why

I don't know why....

*Hope*

[Mood: Depressed]
[Music: Westlife - My Love]

Why is everything going by so fast,
Its like am miles behind time and far way from life,
I cant seem 2 catch up anymore,
I want everything 2 slow down,I really do.
I wanna grab life and drag it behind me.
But it seems 2 be dragging me.
I feel empty,I want more 2 happen in life
Everyone is expecting 2 much,
But all I expect is everything 2 be normal,2 be acceptable 2 nature,
I thrieve for everything 2 be right,
But all I do is mess up,
I alwayz mess da whole thing up,
Life has always been unfair 2 me.
Wht did I do wrong?
I can never figure out,
I hope time will figure answers for all these question,
I really hope so............