Here I go again...

[Mood: Excited]

[Music: Mandy Moore - Cry]

I went 2 skool today and I had a total blast.It was a really good day.And the most unexpected thing happened...you'll just never guess....I think good frenz can't stay away for long...lolz...and I can't keep enemys anywayz....lol.....everyone was in a very happy mood 2day and even teacher Ben wandered why.I was there till about 5 something.Feel kinda of half-dead now.But I had a good time.

Thingz have been kinda of chaotic around me lately.My head going in all kindz of directions and thts causin me 2 give ppl some fucked up ideas to.......*siGh*....and everone around me have arived to a conclusion tht I am indeed mad.

I think now,rite now,I know what I want and that is to be with a certain someone again.We started out really good friends and I guess feelings grew along the way but we kinda messed it up...more like I kinda messed it up......and then I thought he was gone.But at times I liked being proven wrong and I was thankful this time I was.His alwayz been kinda speacial 2 me and this time I think maybe..just maybe..am in love again....

To appericiate...alwayz

[Mood: Upset]

[Music:Bob Carlisle - Butterfly Kisses ]

We should always be grateful for the dayz we live,

And we should alwayz show the people around us how much we love them,

For we will never know what dayz have in store for us,

Gratefulness and love must alwayz be remembered in our daily lives,

I can never bear the thought of losing a love one,

I can't even imagine what kind of state it will leave me in,

I will alwayz remember to be thankful for my life

And to tell everyone in my life how much I care for them.....

"To my dear friend Rita,Am so sorry upon the departure of you father.

You are a very strong person and I admire you for that,the way you are going on with your life is increadible.Continue going on with life and alwayz be strong.For your father is in a better place.And alwayz remember,am here for you.With lots of love...."

Running to nowhere

[Mood:Numb ]

[Music:Backstreet Boys - Siberia]

After weeks of overwhelming sadness and heart brokeness,thingz finally have seem to fall in place,

Its been an intersting week,meeting new ppl and reconciling with old frenz,

Life seems to be a huge cycle tht repeats quite a bit,

Everytime I think I have everything in place,

That's when life decides to prove me wrong,

The week seems to end with intersting theories and thoughts,

Where am I to go when am lonely,

My feelingz can't be felt anymore,

What have I become?

I have ran and ran for miles,

Running down an unknown road,

Maybe I should have turned back a long time ago,

But I know now its too late.

The result of broken promises,its really too much

[Mood: Crazy]

[Music: Crossfade - Cold]

Livin in reality is hard for me,it kills my creative side.I rather leave my head in the clouds,where it belongs.Only when my reality collides with my daydreams,will then I 'll decide 2 come down.Am too complicated for my own good understanding and tht keeps me partially sane.I've lost it a long time ago and you might wander what am blabbin about.This is the result of a broken promises,it messes with you mind a lot.It reaps you sanity and leaves you mindless.Am wandering around without a thought in my head.I've gotta find reality soon before I end up like you.

Bloggin Personality

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

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Your gasps was carried by the wind

[Mood: Dreamy]

[Music: Marion Raven - Little by Little]

I was glad we've come this far,it looked lovely out here.We've gone through much and learned a lot from each other.But though the place looked beautiful....there was this lake by the corner that didn't blend in.It looked weird and it slightly freaked me out.I just stared at it but looked away quickly.But you took a longer glance at it and you were just a bit too intersted in it.I noticed the way you were lookin but I just kept quiet.You walked into it and checked it out.It seemed so harmless then,so I just watched you from a distance......

That was until you started drowing,you started to slowly sink and I heard your soft gaspings.The sounds of your gasp was clear against the soft breazy and I ran to ur side.I was startled at the sight of you.I reached out my hand and tried to grab yours but you refused to grab hold.I started cryin and screaming at the same time,beggin you to take hold of my hand but you refused.....and so I just laid there by the lake's bank for dayz,my arm streached out to you, as I watched you slowly being overwhelmed by the water.Teary eyed I told you how much you meant to me and how much I cared for you.As you saw me crying and my tears flowing freely,I think,maybe,just maybe you realized how much I cared because you slowly started reachin for my fingers.....

I was glad to see you holdin on,even though it was just a little,I was happy you kinda did want to be rescued.I know it will take time before you reach for my whole hand and hold on to it.It will take a while before you decided throughly that you want to be rescued..until then I'll wait...... cause I wasn't willin to lose you than and am not willing to lose you now......

It's been good lately..

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going down]

Went out with Esther yesterday.It was totally fun.We went to Pyramid....watched "Dukes of Hazzard"..it was a really funny flick..Johhny Knoxville is a really funny comedian and a hott one too.....Jessica Simpson had the most stupiest role of all..she had more scenes showing off her body then sayin anything....thts why I like her sister better...shes smarter...anywayz...it was seriesly funny cause durin the movie everytime there was a scene with Jessica wearin something skimpy..Esther kept whacking me cause I kinda dragged her to watch it..lol...after tht we went window shoppin and ate quite a bit on the way....lol.....it was all good....came back at 7pm....after tht hanged around the house and watched tv....I had a really really cool day...

Did nothing much 2day...am bored...seriesly bored...I think I'll go watch F1 with my dad..hope Micheal does well...GO Ferari!!!!!

ChowZzz..

This is the way the weekend should be darlin'

[Mood: Happy/Tired]

[Music: Jay Sean - Stolen]

I've been havin a really good weekend...wow....havent said tht in quite a while..I went to KL yesterday nite,had dinner at Park Royal..its this cute little hotel btw..then a little walk round.My sister has gone to some church trip and all,so I've ben havin a peaceful,calm weekend....I do miss her though....*sigh*...anywayz went to Kl today afternoon yetz again cause my dad wanted to get some stuff,so I decided to shop a little.

I got this really cute top from Voir,which I fell in love with at first sight..I know it sounds weird but before I get some type of clothin,I have to fall in luv with it cause then I'll know, I'll wear it..so yeah I know am weird....Anyway now I'll have to find a skirt to go with that.I shall go skirt shoppin one day..soon..real soon......I spent practically half the day there btw....just lookin round..we just kept walkin a lotz...it was fun....I had a good time....rite now am so darn tired...my legs are hurtin so fuckin badly....I shall go and wait for "One Tree Hill" to start.....

P.S>> Never wear heels for shoppin...it'll kill your feet alive....ALIVE....BAH

You're speacial to me and I think you know that babe...

[Mood: Very Much Confused]
[Music: Howie Day - Collide]

This must be some bad day or somethin'

Cause its been so darn confusin',

I miss you,

Do you know that?

Do I still mean somethin to you,

Cause you alwayz have,

When you asked me if I was alrite,

I answered the truth,after such a long time.

I don't wanna see you leave just like that,

After all we've goin through,

I will not survive...

If you leave.

I always will care for you,

You have the gift of makin me laugh while I cry,

I don't know anyone else who can do that,

And that makes you ever more special to me.

What you said today stung me,

I felt numb for while,

I coudn't feel anymore,

I've no idea how that happened.

I pray that one day,

I'll see you a few years from now,

Happy and all good,

That would be one of the best dayz of my life babe.

Everyday is going by

[Mood: Tired]

[Music: Gavin DeGraw - Follow Through]

Well ppl I've been kinda busy these couple of dayz,sorry for the lack of updates, so heres a quick recap....Monday I went grocery shoppin with my mum and..it was fun....by the time we came back,I was so fuckin dead but it had fun speandin time with my mum.....On Tuesday,I just stayed home and in the evening,went 2 Swensen and had the earthquake...love the ice-cream there speacially the rum and raisin flavour....the rest of the week went by the usually way......borin...

Today there was some stuff at church and all,went there at like 9 something and came back at 3.Am feelin dead nowz...its gonna go on till Saturday but am havin a good time.....but I guess I'll be whinning for the next couple of dayz....

Btw am thinkin of changing my blog's skin again...why'd u guyz think??

Ps: Vitto I know waca gonna say...."wht the hell is wrong with you??" aint tht rite dude....LOL

Its okies...I guess

I am 32% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com


LOL....I guess this is all ritie...(:P)

Wounds will heal...I know of it...

I scream my lungz out but no ones hears,

I cry out loud but no one knowz,

I've run out of tears,

Look what you've done to me.

I am speechless,

And I don't want to hear you stupit excuses anymore,

Cause you should have told me the day....

The day you went away.

These wounds will heal,

I know it will

But it will take time,

How long??

I've learned so much,

From all these brusies,

I know from now onwards I shall not be..

As naive as I was....

Lyin' on the outside

[Mood: Shattered]

[Music: Diana DeGarmo - All I Never Wanted]

I guess I just have to accept reality,

I wish at times tht I can't feel,

Wht the hell did I do wrong?

To deserve all this crap.

Maybe I was a monstorous person in my before life,

But I dont believe in tht stuff anyway,

I just can't figure out what I did wrong,

No matter how hard I try.

Thts why I love day dreamin so much,

It makes me feel safe,

I hate myself for fallin for you,

Its my stupit mistake anyway.

Here I am once again,

and am broken into pieces,

Well am kinda immune 2 this anyway,

I wander when will all this happen yetz again.

You were all I never wanted,

But why in world do I still want you?

You were my nightmare by day,

And a dream by night.

I may smile on the outside,

But am shattared on the inside,

I dont' want you 2 know am hurt,

Cause you don't really care anyway baby.

You make me wanna LA LA

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - La La]

Went outz with a couple of frenz 2day to watch "Herbie" with my sister,my pet sis and a couple of their frenz taggin along.It was really fun and all.A gurls day out thing."Herbie" was such a fun movie.A typical Disney thing but it was sweet.The car was just really adorable.

I have to admit am a Lindsay Lohan fan too.Her movies and songz are cool.I still do like Hilary too.Both of them are good at what they do........ I guess.

At nite I watched "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" with my parents.It was just so fuckin' cool!!! I totally Loved it!! I read the book also so it was just so cool watchin the book you've read .The star of the flick was definately Johhny Depp,and so he has been added to my favourite actor list.Most of his flickz have been really coolio.His just so damn talented and not to mention HOTT.I just had so much fun watchin this flick.

It has been a great day....after such a looooong week...BAH....

In a very weird dream...

[Mood: Sick]

[Music: Blink 182 - Rock Show]

Livin in a dream,

Is better than reality,

I dont want 2 get hurt again

And this makes me happy anyway.

I know it seems so stupit at times,

But I guess it just fun,

I don't really take certain thingz seriesly,

Maybe its time I do.

To dream is fun,

To hope is good,

To do it is even better,

And to just forget is fucked up....

Why don't you just break my heart

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Hilary Duff - The Getaway]

Everything around me is crazy,

And I feel the insanity,

I think am gonna lose it soon,

Or maybe I have.

Round and round,

Here we go playin this game again,

I dont know how long I can take this,

But miracalously am being patient,

You better watch out,

You think you know me oh too well,

But I bet you didn't know I can be mean too,

Thts the part I tend to hidea lotz...

*Why don't you break my heart,
And watch me fall apart,
Cause baby, You seem to be doin tht a lot lately*

Too quick and Just wayy too fast

[Mood:Bored]
[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

Dayz are goin by really fast,
It starts with Monday,and its like Sunday the very next hour,
I remember the beginning of January ever so slightly,
I thought March just started but then I realized I was dreamin'

Everything is goin' by way too fast,
I want time to last,something to hold on too
Apparently I learned tht somethings just dont last,
Even though how hard you try.

There's gotta to be a way to stop time,
To slow thingz down,
To make thingz last,
Even if it was just for a minute.

Theres Gotta be More In a Day....

[Mood: Blank]

[Music: Arkana - So Little Time]

Nearly my whole day was spent at the thearter.It was really fun!!

I watched Stealth and The Island.Both we're really cool movies...

The storyline for The Island was something kinda different,the speacial effects were really cool and all.Also Ewan McGregor is a totally hottie...(:P)

Stealth was very action packed.The actors were okish.The best parts of the movie were the flying scenes, which totally awesome!!

The best part of my day was...when I got in The Island which was an 18PL movie.LOL

Besides tht nothin much happened....

Theres gotta be more 2 a day......

Sometimes is seriesly wrong today

[Mood: Crazy]

[Music: Blink 182 - ALWaYz]

I love my laptop!! My skool,my tv,my music and the way I communicate with my frenz is in it(msn).If I was stranded on an island,the two things I have 2 have is my laptop and an internet system..I'll live happily ever after....I think..

Am currently downloading an episode of the Ashlee Simpson Show,Desperate Housewives and Summerland.Also 2 episodes of OTH.Never seen Desperate Housewives before,so I just wanna see whts the whole "whoo-haaa" everyones makin bout this.The story line seems kinda cool though.

I had tuition 2day.Usually when I start some sort of class..whether its organ class,tuiton...etc,it takes me sometime to get used to the teacher or something...you should see me in front of my organ class teacher,ur bound to laugh out loud....whenever he says something,all I do is smile and nod my head..like one of those weird dolls tht sits on the car dashboard...I have no idea why I react tht way..its not tht I have a crush on him or anything...*ewww* but I use 2 do tht 2 my tuition teacher to...whos a gurl...am not gay either!!!....but lately I've been opening my mouth and actually talkin to her......At last!!.....I have no idea why the fuck I do tht..........my teachers must think am some stupit wacko tht goes around noddin my head all day long...

Ok dear readers..LOL...more like crazy physco wackjobs who enjoys readin my writins...am sorry I havent wrote in lately...its just tht my head have been so very empty these past few dayz....

Dayz are going by empty

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Jem - They]

Goin to the movies on a Monday is fun.
No lines - no huge headz blockin the screen - no bathroom crowds - and more leg room.
From now onwardz I shall go to the movies only on Monday.
The advantages of homeskooling........
Watched Fantastic Four btw.it was cool,not great but cool,too much yappin too little action.

My week has been very peaceful.Quiet yetz not dull.Uneventful yet calm.

Well I have some skool work 2 attend to.....ciozzz