If you want to,I can save you

[Mood: Cheerful]

[Music: Black Eyed Peas - Where is the love]

If you want to,

I can save you,

I can take you away from here,

So lonely inside but so busy out there,

And all you wanted was someone to care.

It's been crazy for both of us lately,

We've gone through much,

From hatin each other,to wanting to tell each other how much we cared,

It's been mad but terrifically fun.

Drama,

It'll always been part of my life,
It'll always be my inspiration,

It just makes my world go round.

It's beautiful to like someone,
But It's even more beautiful to be in love with someone,
There's beauty in everything,

All you have to do is look.

It's been intersting lately...Thank Goodness

[Mood:Sick]

[Music: Backstreet Boys - What makes You Different]

Well I had a darn good weekend.I headed off to "The Curve" on Friday.I'm really starting to love that place.The concept seems a lot like Singapore though but that's cool.Had dinner at this Italian restaurant which was soo soo good.Went window shoppin a bit and headed home.

There was this wedding on Saturday.Woke up bout 10 a.m And by the time I got online,had breakfast and all it was bout 1:00p.m and it was time to leave by then.Time does fly these dayz.The wedding was definately fun..It was nice to see all my cousins and family.

The typical Sunday it was.Had church in the morning.Didn't really go out and all.Stayed at home and was bored as usually....

Today's my sis's birthday.She 's 14 this year.I haven't really gotten her anything yet(:P).But I will soon....Had some relatives over and all....That was pretty much it.....It's been intersting so far and thank goodness......

Exciting in a funny sort of way

[Mood:Kinda bored/excited]

[Music: Lindsay Lohan - Magnet]

Exciting is a funny sort of way,
That's how it has been this last couple of dayz,
It's been dramatic yetz cool,
But I've been havin my fair part of a good time.

Am not sure where's it goin from here

But so far it seems to be goin in the rite way baby,

This year though am gonna fun and not take anything too seriesly,
It's gonna be more of a chillin outz this time round,
I shall my try very best not be overly dramatic bout stuff
Not that I am anywayz....

It better be sweet

[Mood:Tired]
[Music: Bo Bice - Valley of Angels]

It's been crazy this few weeks,
And I thought this year was gonna be quiet,
Guess it's fun when somethingz are unpredictable.
You never know.

Sometimes when you go to the least expected person for advice,
You find out that you've been running away from the truth all along,
Well I just didn't want the real thing you know,
But desperate times calls for desperate messures.

Lookin down this year,
It seems like there's gonna be full of suprises,
And I can't wait,
It's gonna be sweet sixteen baby!!
It better be SWEET!!!!!

"You can't keep somthin you never had"

[Mood:Upset]
[Music:Marion Raven-13 dayz]

Am still stuck in memories of you,
And this really suxs,
I hate you rite now,
Hope you know that.

I thought we had somethin,
I really did,
But your jerkish side showed soon,
And am thankful for that.

I know it was only a month,
But that had an impact on me,
I still wander in the middle of the nite,
What the hell went wrong?

I will learn to let go.
Till then I shall continue to pretend.

Nail Polish,A City and A Celebrity

[Mood:Relaxed]
[Music:Blink 182 - Alwayz]

Your Nail Polish Color is Black

How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't unique Why your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it off What this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

You Are Ashlee Simpson!

Stylish, unique, talentedYou're your own woman!"It seems like I can finally rest my head on something realI like the way that feels"

Who's" Your Inner Rock Chick?

From the top darling!

[Mood: Chillin]
[Music: Blink 182 - I Miss You]

And so the holidayz are over and its back to skool..*sniffles*...I've got loadz of work piled up from last year's left over...and so it's been kind of a hectic week..well actually I've been procrastinating a lotzz....*sheesh*..I so have to start gettin hard workin again...

My current obbession...LAGUNA BEACH!!.....I've seen the advertisment and buzz bout it a lotz lately and so I decided to download an episode and see whts it bout......and wht'd u know...soon enough I was downloading 3 epsiodes a day..am still at season 1 though..never knew they would be so much drama in a teenagers life...guess tht happens when you live at orange county......but I definately love tht show!!

I need to get all this work done,to go out again...so you could say am kinda of grouded in wayz..fuck...I really really wanna go out soon...I miss my gurlz so much!!.....

Gonna go watch a fresh episode of Laguna Beach tht just finished downlading.....
Chowz babes!!

Happy New Year Ya'll

[Mood: Happy]

[Music:Nelly - Over and Over]

Well darlin's its a brand new year,so HAPPY NEW YEAR YA'LL!!

I did do notta much on New year's eve.Just went to church,had dinner at some Chinese restaurant,waited at home for the counted and blasted fireworks...okies not so huge ones but they were good enough.Stayed up till bout 2A.M.Not much of partyin and all,which is pretty sad....anywayz

Headed to church this mornin and then went over to KLCC.For some shoppin and dining....

Got some stuff at the GIRLS shop.I just love tht store.It's real darn cute!

I usually don't plan New Year resolutions and all cause I've headed you tend to forget bout in less than a week.But what the hell...I thought I'd give it a try.......

1.Study more and a whole lot harder.(DefinateLY!!)

2.Start livin in reality more and stop daydreamin'(Really must try)

3Get better at my writin'(add more words to my vocab)

4.Read More(Ex: Memoirs of a Geisha,Series of Unfortunuate Events,Chronicles of Narnia,The Da Vince Code and etc.)

5.Hang out more with my gurls(I know this is kinda weird but...)

6.Build stronger bonds with my sibilings(It'd be good to start arguing less with my sis)

7.Start actually practicing the organ(It's exam year!!...and am Fuckin' Doomed!!)

8.Get into more dance classes

9.Try out for some sort of sports.(This may do me some good)

10.Make a difference..somewhere..somehow

That's bout it...Hope this works....

Well am gonna go find somethin 2 do....Holla~

Behind These Dark Brown Eyes

[Mood: Hurt]

[Music: Good Charlotte - Predictable]

How could you?

How could you break me this way,

How could you do this?

This is revenge isn't it.

Why did you lie to me then?

Why did you leave the taste of your lips on mine?

Why did you say you loved me?

Why did you even bother tryin to care.

All I needed was someone to prove me wrong,

To show me that somethingz are worth it,

But Thank You for showin me the truth,

Why didn't I see this comin?

I guess I thought this would never ever happen between us.

But I want you to know this,

You are NEVER,

And I mean EVER gonna see tears,

Behind these eyes....

Merry Christmas Ya'll

[Mood: Joyous]
[Music: Bob Carlisle - Christmas Shoes]

It was almost Christmas time
There I stood in another line
Try to buy that last give or two
Not really in the Christmas mood
Standing right in front of me
Was a little boy waiting anxiously
Pacing around like little boys do
And in his hands he had
A pair of shoes

And his clothes were worn and old
He was dirty from head to toe
And when it came his time to pay
I couldn't believe what I heard him say

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight

They counted pennies for what seems like years
And cashier says son there's not enough here
He searches is pockets franticly
And he turned and he looked at me
And he said Momma made Christmas good in our house
Most years she just did without
Tell me Sir
What am I gonna do?
Some how I gotta buy her these Christmas shoes
So I laid the money down
I just had to help him out
And I'll never forget
The look on his face
When he said Momma's gonna look so great

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight

I know I won't regret some help as he thanked me and ran out
I know that God sent that little boy to remind me
What Christmas is all about

Sir I wanna buy these shoes for my Momma please
It's Christmas Eve and these shoes are just her size
Could you hurry Sir?
Daddy says there's not much time
You see she's been sick for quite a while
And I know these shoes will make her smile
And I want it to look beautiful
If Momma meets Jesus tonight
I want it to look good
If Momma meet's Jesus tonight

This is definately the true meaning of christmas.To share love,hope,joy and peace around.
Hope all you guyz have a rockin' christmas!!
To all my readers and homies out there..
MERRY CHRISTMAS WITH LOVE!!!
~XoxO~

No More...

[Mood: Excited]

[Music: Kelly Clarkson - Because of You]

I tried...

I really did,

But it doesn't seen like your gonna change or at least try,

I really am sorry for you,

Just thought you'd like to know.

I alwayz thought you were better than that,

And you were different,

But you're just as bad as all the rest,

Thank for being honest with me.

After all that we've been through,

Haven't you learned anything,

Guess you're just became ever more egositic,

This is definately sad.

I'm really tired of all the crap that keeps happening again and again,

And you could say am fed up,

I really don't mind your ignorance,

It makes my life a whole lot simpler.

I didn't tell you to change your whole self,

All I did say was to think before throwing your words outz,

Guess you'd don't wanna do that,

And am not gonna bother anymore.

Round and round

[Mood: Bubbly]

[Music: Blink 182 - I Miss You]

I have no idea,

How you do it all,

The way you drag me into a whirlwind

And I still go back for more.

Maybe its the thrill,

Maybe its the crazyness,

But from what I know,

It's definately Not normal.

Am uncertain now,yetz again

And that's definately not good,

I wanna scream out loud,babe,

Is there anyway do make all this go away?

Just another regret...and gosh do I hate them....

[Mood: Fustrated]

[Music: Sum 41 - Over My Head]

I can't take it anymore,

I really can't,

I've tried and tried again

But you seem to be a hopeless case.

Your mad you know that,

No one and I mean no one is ever gonna get through to you,

Trust me on that,

Your gonna know that one day.

The amount of time I've wasted with you,

Everything seems such a regret,

And I think you are one too,

Oh the time I've wasted.

I hope someone tortures you the same way,

Kills you slowly,

Never allowing to say a word,

To leave you in a corner.

Well from now on I offically give up on you,

No more tears and pain,

No more trying for something so hopeless,

Cause your a huge regret,

And so you know,

I hate REGRETS....

Plez....Don't...

[Mood: Too darn confused]

[Music: My Cheamical Romace - I'm Not Okay]

I hope you've changed,

And not become the person I think you are,

I wanna see the person I love and care bout,

For I can't bare to be disappoited again.

Don't break me like the way you did before,

Please......

After all I've gone through with you,

Hasn't it all been enough?

Am afraid,

Am scared,

And I fear too much,

I don't want you to turn into my worse nightmare.

I hope you remember the words I've said,

And the tears I've cried,

Cause if it goes to waste,

Don't bother speaking to me again.

Just fuckin' don't.

A great weekend

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Kelly Clarkson - Because of You]

Headed to Mid Valley today.I just love that place.All your favourite stores in one place.......

Just looked around a lotz and bought a t shirt from BodyGlove.One of my fav brandz!!

I just like the patterns a lot and all.Had lunch at Uncle Chili's after that.I ablosultely LOVE the tacos there.Yum!...actually I love all the food there...lolz...

Came home and did some chores.The typically look after the dog and clean up the room routine.

Gosh......Rite nowz,just sitting around and checkin my mail and all....the usual Sunday nite thing...nothing out of the ordinary......

And so it turns out to be a great weekend.It's been rockin and am trying my best to make the greatest out of everything and it's been all fuckin good.........

So have a great week ahead darlin's!!!!!

La La

[Mood: Excited]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - La La]

Friday was the last day of skool and it was a kind of sad parting.Am gonna miss skool so much!

A few ppl gave a speech and all and it was real sweet,espeacially Sonia's one.It was real good.

After skool a whole bunch of us headed to the mall to watch Zathura.Not that we were waiting for it and all but it was the only flick available at that time and we watched it out of desperation..lol....It wasn't too bad though.Hanged at the arcade and all and played a dance like game with pet sis who just couldn't get enough of it...Gosh Hannah....u rock at it!!

After that I went shopping with Christine and her sis.It was so damn fun cause we went to practically every clothing shoppin in there...lol......we had such a good time just laughing and all....I came home bout 7 P.M and then headed back to the mall to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with my family.And I got to say ppl that flick was real good.Speacially the speacial effects and all! It was preety long though...like bout 2 hours plus I think...I just reached home and I feel totally DEAD!

Well dude's am gonna hit bed nowz..I have to admit though I had one awesome day and it was the company that made the day rock!....Love all guyz loadZzz!!!...~MuaXzzzZ~

I love the way you love me

[Mood:Dreamy/In Love]

[Music: Yellowcard- Only One]

I thought am never going 2 be in your arms again,

Or be able to tell you how much I love you,

But I guess when people collide,

Its just happens.

I didn't mind the wait cause somehow in my heart somethin told me its gonna be alrite,

When you told me that you wanted me back in your life,

I wanted to scream out loud,

And so patience does have its rewards after all.

When am with you,

Being me is never a problem,

I love the way you accept me the way I am,

Your patient and your kindness is what I admire the most.

I want you to know that I love you baby,

And being with you makes me feel darn great,

You're one hell of a speacial guy,

Cause no one has made me feel the way I do when am with you,

I love you!!!!!

Happy Birthday darlin'!!!!

~MuaX~

Hectic is good,for me anyway

[Mood: Worn Out]

[Music: None]

The whole week of practice really did make me feel like am seriesly lackin in exercise.And also am really sore rite nowz....Gosh.....But I had my part of fun this week, So I ain't complaining too much....LOL...the awards nite was really fun.I really had a great time.I got to streak my hair red and all.....just came home btw...am so darn worn outz now....

This week has been real crazy.Dealin with frenz and preassures of rehersals.Running around and all.Hectic weeks are real good....(:P)....Oh and not forgettin unexpected thingz happening and all...am dancing around too much lately....lol.....dancin happily anyway....

Well I've come to where I wanted to be and it feels so damn good.

It's good to know that thingz have their way of straighning up.

So you could say I had one fuckin good week!!!!!!!

Punkish Lover Outz~

Lessons are learned daily baby

[Mood: Tired/Kinda Upset]

[Music: Get It Together - Indie Arie]

When your caught which so much going on,

You'll feel like your drowning alive,

That's how I feel rite now,

Am lost and out in the bitter cold.

What have I got to do to prove to you that you matter to me,

And what have I got to do to show you that I have changed and no more like you,

When will you see me as me?

When will you learn to accept the real me without being bitter about it.

Haven't you done enought damage?

And isn't time to fix thingz up,

When I need you to be there?

Why is hurting me your main aim.

I guess it doesn't take long to know who your real frenz are,

Cause the truth will show sooner or later,

And I know now that I should show how much my real homies matter to me,

Lessons are learned daily in your life baby....

Its been real good lately....

[Mood: Kinda Insane]

[Music: All American Rejetcs - Move Along]

Well last week was total vacation..no studying and all, just plain doin nothing.I needed it badly...I think....Anyway lately I've been very happy and I've absoluty no idea why... ok maybe I have a slight idea...its cause there have been a whole damn less drama and everything seems to be place lately.I've been more sane and I guess that makes me happy....

I went to skool 2day,there was dance practice 2day and I seriesly have to start practicing and all cause I think am kinda rusty,havent been dance for a few months now...*rolls eyes*.....After practice,Esther,Asha and I went for a drink and all....It's nice 2 spend time with your girlfriends...lolz.....just laughing and crappin for absoluty no reason...its all good....

Well I've gotta go check if my "One Tree Hill" download is done...its the 1st episode of season 3 btw.....I really don't wanna wait for it till next year...am just wayy too impatient!!...