The City Lights Burn

[Mood: Emo-ing]
[Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay(I Pomise)]

I'm tired of dropping my guard too fast,

Bleeding for something that refuses to last...

11:11 Is My Favorite Number, But It Has Yet To Show Me Why

[Mood: Upset]

[Music: Jimmy Eat World - May Angels Lead You In]

It’s those cold days that get to the soul,
It’s when those hurtful words run deep,
And scar the heart,
Tired of the pain,
Can’t seem to find the tears,
Wanting to be set free,
But held back by consequence of a regret,
So much for experience,
Thought the day was near,
But now it seems like eternity,
There’s so much a heart can take,
The memories are like a mixtape,
They play me to sleep,
Wanting to smile again,
But oh such horrible mistakes have been made,
It’s sad that we can’t take back time,
Would you please set me free?
Throw away this misery and make me laugh,
But don’t come too close,
I’d rather not have you near the heart,
This distance is good,
The loneliness does kill though,
My pride is broken,
All for the sake of love,
Vulnerable,
For far too long,
What wasted days,
Ignorance should have been born much before the time,
I was your miracle,
Its just sad that you didn’t see that,
I cherish the days we hoped,
And try to get rid of that bitterness,
But I rather be left out in the cold,
Then to drown in all this ache.

It's All About The Wordplay

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

Layer One
Name: Ezreena
Birth date: March 26, 1990
Birthplace: Malaysia,
Location: Malaysia
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 4 ish I think
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Aries
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Layer Two
The shoes you wore today: None
Your weakness: Procrastinating
Your fears: End of the world
Your perfect pizza: BBQ chicken with extra cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve: Write a book
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Layer Three
Your most overused phrase on MSN: Heyyaz
Your first waking thoughts: Please dont wake me up nowz
Your best physical feature: My eyes
Your most missed memory: Being all carefree when I was 5
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Layer Four
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McD's
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Give me CONVERSE baby!!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
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Layer Five
Smoke: Nopez
Cuss: Yea
Sing: Yup
Take a shower everyday: Yea
Do you think you've been in love: Yeah
Want to go to college: Yes
Like high school: Yea
Want to get married: Yea
Believe in yourself: Most of the time
Get motion sickness: Nada
Think you're attractive: Sorta
Think you're a health freak: Nopez
Get along with your parent(s): Yes
Like thunderstorms: Not really
Play an instrument: The organ..dont ask why..
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Layer Six
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: Yup
Smoked: No
Done a drug: Nopez
Kissed: Yea
Gone on a date: Yea
Gone to a party: Nope
Gone to the mall: Yup
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
Eaten sushi: Nada
Been on stage: Yup
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Nopez
Made homeade cookies: Nope
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: Nopez
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Layer Seven
Ever....
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nopez
If so, was it mixed company: ...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
Been caught "doing something" : I don't think so
Been called a tease: Nope
Gotten beaten up: No
Shoplifted: Nope
Changed who you were to fit in: Yea but not to fit in
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Layer Eight
Age you hope to be married: 24 or 25
Numbers and Names of Children: 2 or 3.Lalaine,Racquel,Ryan
Describe your Dream Wedding: It would take up too much space
How do you want to die: In my sleep.
Where you want to go to college: Monash
What do you want to be when you grow up: A impactive person
What country would you most like to visit: Spain
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Layer Nine
Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
Number of CDs that I own: Lost count
Number of piercing: 2 and cravin for more!!
Number of tattoos: Nada
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
Number of scars on my body: 2 or 3
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few

-Loadz of Love-

Surviving Those Cold Dayz

[Mood: Thoughtful]

[Music: Susie Suh - Recognition]

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.But, once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in.Or to give someone a second chance.Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are.And, it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.
-Lucas-
{One Tree Hill}

Life isnt a destination,

Its a journey we all come upon unexpected curves& turning points.

Everything that happens to us shapes who we are becoming.

& In the adventure of each day, we discover the important things in life & why they're important.

Lights Will Guide You Home

[Mood: Daydreamin]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - Falling Down]

First day of skool still do give me butterflies.I have no idea why but they just do.I was nervous in the car but calmed down when I reached skool grounds.The classes are the same and thank God I have the same teacher.Not many new students this year so I didn't have to start learning new names.Did some math but I was occupied with my phone for the whole day.I was sms-ing and dealin with this rather large drama ad my darlin gf was my shoulder to cling on while Eddy was tryin to cheer me up the whole time with Abel tryin to give advice whenever he could and tellin me I could borrow his shoulder for the day..lolz.I missed Vitz a lot tht day!! I was pretty much upset for the whole time and was not in the mood to watch "King Kong".It's family tradition that we watch a dvd,have dinner or do something as a family on fridayz.Hanged on the phone even more and everything was fixed by that nite and it's good now.

The rest of my weekend was sorta of a bore.Mostly I spent time on the phone or online.The internet sorta suxs rite now cause I can't seem to download anything,just that it better be fixed by Jan 17 or I'll be really mad! OTH is coming back darlins!!!

My year is startin out pretty well but am still procrastinating.Will work on that soon or I'm gonna be stuck in high skool for the rest of my life.I NEED to study.

Its not who you spend the most time with,
Its who you have the best memories with.

This Are What The Teenage dayz Are Made Of

[Mood: Content]
[Music: Dashboard Confessional - Don't Wait]

This year I've got through so much and collected so many picture perfect memories.Learned so much,laughed my heart out,cried my soul out and made mistakes.I do have a couple of regrets but I really don't feel like taking them back.I fell in love this year and got my heart shattered.I found love with my frenz and I've learned to apperiacte them ever so much cause they're really my support system.They've made me smile through rainy dayz and have lent their shoulders all the time.I love you guyz sooo much!!!!!This time around I've learned to lean on my lil sister a little bit here and there too.I know she really cares for me and thankz dear for hearing me rant all night sometimes.I do apperiacte it all.

I did work on a couple of resolutions for 2007.I came up with 25.Mostly its about becoming a better person and working a lot harder in school.I really do wanna graduate next year and that means workin my ass off .I planned to enjoy high skool the fullest next year cause I know am never gonna get this time back again and it's alwayz been said that these are gonna be the best years of my life.I'm gonna live dayz to fullest,love with everything I've got and have the time of my life! I know things are not gonna get any easier and there's are gonna be my fair share of trials but I'm gonna fight for what I want and continue leaning on my support system. Lovin life and enjoyin the ride!

Happy New Year With Love Everyone~

The teenage years are the best years of our lives.
Even though there's tons of drama, tears & heartbreaks,
There's also friends that you trust will never leave your side.
There's the boy who whenever you see you get butterflies in your stomach..
There's parties & breaking the rules.
Now tell me, at what other point in your life are you going to be able to have all those things at once?

It's That Time of The Year Again!

[Mood: Joyful]
[Music: Clay Aiken - Joy To The World]

It's the best time of the year and am grateful for so much this year.My christmas did start out a little bumpy but the gf said I should try my very best to have a wonderful christmas and my sis was you wait and see what happens.I did get my christmas miracle after all!

The usual family tradition during christmas eve is usually having an absolutely wonderful dinner,laugh a whole lot and eat a whole lot more.We had an extra guest this year.A long distance relative shared christmas with us this year.Dinner was the bomb and I got wonderful gifts by everyone.Got loadz of those retro dresses I wanted so much! Christmas day was spent lazing around with the family and we had open house at night.That was real fun.And out of the blue Jarrett and Daniel decided to get beer.It was a real miracle my parents didn't see it and I had a lil too much to drink.Was a lil dizzy after that and I so cleverly decided to hang on the phone after that.Talked crapped a lot and thankz darlin for puttin up with me that nite(:P)My mum came to me and asked what wasnt I hangin with everyone downstairs and I dramatized to her.LOL~! Am smart that way.She hugged me and said I shouldn't be so dramatic about life.haha.The rest of night was spent chatting with aunts and uncles.Slept at 5 in tht morning

Left to my grandparents place the next morning.Didn't do much there,just chilled and relaxed.Went to the beach the next day and came home prety late that night.The rest of the week was spent onlining,just watching tv or sleeping.Yes I've been sleeping a lot lately! On Friday decided to go watch "Night At The Museum".Went with a fren.I had a good time,the movie was really good! Came home around 6 and went for a family dinner.Decided to watched "Lord of the Rings 2".But I got bored half way through and went to hang on the phone.Had Major! drama and I had deal with everything...

It's lunch time.And am starved.I'm gonna go find something to do throughout the day.

Merry Christmas Ya'll!!!!

It's Not Until You're Broken,That You Know What You're Made Of

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Nelly Furtado - All Good Things(Come To An End)]

Flames To Dust

Lovers To Friends

Why Do All Good Things Come To An End?

I feel so grown up today.I think I just dealed with this situation in the most mature of manner.I was afraid to lose a fren but its amazing how things have a way of falling into place.We started out with a fight but I think we just knew what was coming.I guess at times you just have to accept the fact that some things are just not meant to be.I wasn't in a bundle of tears like I usual am but I reasonable discussed what are we to do with the situation and by the end of the night we were laughing again.I think this is one of the greatest lessons I've learnt this year.This is relationship has taught me a whole lot and I don't regret any of it.If I had to do it all over, I wouldn't change it a bit.

Standing From Here

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Nelly Furtado - Try]

Well fellow readers and spam taggers..it's been a while and dayz have been rather eventful and busy and ever so tiring and on top of all that I had to end up with the oh-so-horrible fever....*sulking*....I've finally found time for myself...

Decided to go for the Planetshakers event on Thursday and a bunch of us decided to hang there from 3 in the afternoon.The bunch was Kc,Eddy,Vitz,Sis and Marielle.We had sorta tea and A &W,messed around with this malay guy who sms-ed Vitz and he thought he was Saiful and we played along.ROFL.He asked to come out in a hurry and we were like no you go home first and then he said to wait in front of the Bomba and then we were like you go to the hospital and from then on he didnt get a reply back.hahaha.Guess he found the real guy by then.Watched Eragon.It was okies I guess but the beginning was effin borin,the ending wasnt too bad.Half way we were talkin,laughing and throwing popcorn around.Played a bit of pool and bowlin and then had dinner and Secret Recipe.Soon enough everyone's parents decided to have dinner at Pyramid.Our phones were ringin off the hook.Headed for the concert after that,had a great time and then went home around 11 somethin.Was dead tired when I got home.

Felt like an elephant was on my head that mornin.Lazyed aroud and then got ready for carollin that evening.Was feelin sorta sick and all but managed to pull myself together.Carollin was fun and all.Came home around 1 somethin.Crawled to my room and came down with a fever.I was horrible the next mornin.Feelin totally sore and havin an awful headache.Was takin all sort of pills for the rest of the day.Had a Christmas event that evening.Goodness knows how I manage to pull myself through.The event was real nice.Chatted on the phone and then slept around 12 somethin.

After church headed to One Utama.Had lunch there and then just walked around.Am really not a big fan of that place.Alwayz soo freakin packed.Had a fren at my place for the rest of the day.Went to the Mamak at nite and then watched the OTH shoot-out episode.Did tear a lil though..tht episode alwayz moves me a lotz..

It's turnin out ot be a very slow Monday and am tragically bored and still in a lot of pain.I think I'll just go catch more sleep.

I'll help you [ u p ]when life gets you (d.o.w.n)
Remember to smile & never frown.
Live life crazy with no regrets,
Never look back;
But never forget.

So What's My Damage Today

[Mood: Upset]
[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Nothing New]

Sometimes it's truly amazing how a certain song can say the exact way your feeling.I was all upset the other nite and I was browsing through Ashlee's first album and I randomly decided to give this song a listen and half way through I realized it was speaking my heart out...
I HEART MUSIC~

:Nothing New by Ashlee Simpson:

I found myself wrong again

Starin out my window

Wonderin what it is I should have said

I found myself at home again

Waitin for the after call

From a fallout that feels like such a mess

Ohhhh I can only be myself

I'm sorry that's hell for you

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new

So I listen to you complain and then

I bite my tongue in vain again

As I let it all just slowly settle in

Such a pretty picture that you paint

I'm so vile while your a saint

Funny how your eyes see thick not thin

Ohhhh I can only be myself

Your lookin for someone else

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new

You know how to give it but you can't take it

It's all just a waste now you can save it

No matter what I do

Is never good enough,

Never good enough

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new,Is nothing new

Save your breath cause here comes the truth

I'm over the drama of you

And that's something new

Well I'm starin' out my window

Wonderin' what it is I should have, said

Put On The Famous Smile To Avoid The Questions

[Mood: Confuzzeled]
[Music: Fall Out Boy - I got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth]

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Ezreena
Birthdate: 26 March 1990
Current Status: It's complicated
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Aries

Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: 3/4 Indian,1/4Chinese
Your Fears: Reptiles and bugs
Your Weakness: ummm...
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni,cheese,chicken,more cheese

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: Skool work,dayz scheulede
Your Bedtime: Anywhere from 12-3 A.M
Your Most Missed Memory: A few..

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Vanilla Coke!!
McDonald's or Burger King: Mc'ds
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanila: Vanilla
Cappucinno or Coffee: Cappucinno

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: Nopez
Curse: Yea
Take a shower: Hell yeah!
Have a crush: Yupz
Think you've been in love: Yea
Go to school: Yupz
Want to get married: Yea I do
Believe in yourself: Oh yeah!
Think you're a health freak: Not really

Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank Alcohol: I think so
Gone to the mall: Yeah
Been on Stage: Yeah,awards nite
Eaten Sushi: Nopez..dont like it
Dyed Your Hair: Nah

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: Nopez
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Nah

Layer Eight: Age Your Hoping...
To Be Married: 26/27

Layer Nine: In a Girl/GuyBest
Eye Color: I don't really mind
Best Hair Color: As long as it isnt somethin drastic
Short Hair or Long Hair: Short..guyz with long hair are sorta a turn off..

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing?
In a minute: Listenin to AFI
1 hour ago: Havin lunch
4.5 hours ago: Sleepin
1 month ago: Studyin
1 year ago: Loadz

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: my family and frenz
I Feel: confuzzeled
I Hate: posers
I Hide: and you seek
I Miss: a certain someone
I Need: to sleep!!!

I got tagged by Sam...*BAH*...

"A broken heart is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning."

We keep On Waiting On The World To Change

[Mood: Worried]
[Music: John Mayer - Waiting On The World To Change]

Requirements:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title to answer the questions. ( Lyrics may be inserted as well, depending on your preference.)
4. DON'T CHEAT.

1) How am I feeling today?
Fergie ft. Ludacris - Glamarous{Okies maybe am feelin a lil glam..}

2) Where will I get married?
Kangta ft Vaness - Scandal{this isnt too good}

3) What is my best friend's theme song?
Joss Stone - Right To Be Wrong{Yeah this could be one of her theme songs..."I've got a right to be wrong,my mistakes will make me strong"}

4) What was high school like?
Ashley Parker Angel - Where Did You Go?{O..kies,am still not done with high skool though..so this is irrelavant}

5) What is the best thing about me?
Jason Mraz - Geek In The Pink{"I don't care what you might think about me"..guess I don't really care what others say...}

6) How is today gonna be?
Unwritten Law - Because of You

7) What is in store this week?
MXPX - Play It Loud{Somethin punkish maybe...}

8) What song describes my parents?
Lindsay Lohan - Nobody Till You{This just doesnt make much sense}

9) How is my life going?
Ne Yo - Sexylove{"You keep me sprung..keep me running back to you"}

10) What song will they play at my funeral?
Tata Young - El Nin-Yo!{hell no!!}

11) How does the world see me?
Justin Timberlake - Sexyback{Oh yeah baby....Am BRINGING SEXYBACK!!!}

12) What do my friends see in me?
Fall Out Boy - I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth{ HuhH??}

13) Do people secretly lust about me?
Pink - Trouble{guess am in trouble...}

14) How can I make myself happy?
The Afters - Someday

15) What should I do with my life?
Jennifer Lopez - Play{omg...this is just wrong!}

16) Will I ever have children?
Faith Hill - Breathe{Okies this as a yes..lolz}

17) What is some good advice?
U2 - Beautiful Day

18) What do I think my current theme song is?
Cassie - Me&U{*sizzinlin*...hahaha}

19) What does everyone else think of my current life?
Nsync - It's Gonna Be Me{"Every lil thing I do never seems enough for you"}

20) What type of men do you like?
Usher - Yeah{I really do NOT like players!}

21) Will you get married?
Breaking Benjamin - Diary of Jane{bizzarro!!}

22) Where will I live?
Cascada - Everytime We Touch{Guess with the one I love..hehe}

23) What should I do with my love life?
J Lo - Jenny In The Block{rite...}

24) What will your dying words be?
Low Millions - Statue{sweet!}

25) When I'm having sex I say?
The Cranberries - Linger{LOL!!!}

26) When ( not what ) I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say?
Gavin Degraw - We Belong Together{They'll probably run away and never wanna see me again ..}

27) When my parents are angry I say?
Keith Urban - You'll Think Of Me{HAHAHA!!!!....hell yeah they'll think of me...}

Promises Are Pretty Lies With Ribbons Tied To Them

The hardest thing in life is to watch someone you love

love someone else. The second hardest thing in life is
to know he meant everything to you but you meant
nothing to him.The third hardest thing in life is to see
her in his arms and remember how that used to be you.

When did life get so hard?
It seems like just yesterday we were little kids,
Without a care in the world,
I don't think I like growing up.

Charlie Brown: I think I'm afraid to be happy.

Lucy: How can you be afraid to be happy?

Charlie Brown: Because whenever you get too happy, something bad always happens.

There's beauty in a breakdown

Don't catch her when she falls,

Let her c r u m b l e to the ground.

Those Teenage Dayz

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Jojo - This Time]

Last Sunday was the Awards and Graduation and after the hectic week of much practicing and having fun.It finally came.I woke super tired cause the nite before I crashed at bout 3 in the mornin. Got ready for church and I was in total panic/stressed mode cause we were goin to the venue straight after church and I couldn't forget anything so I kept goin throught the check list in my head.Had to stay back after church for a bit and I was sleepy and hoping we wouldn't be late.Reached to the venue bout 2 and realized only a few were there and I was early so chilled and hanged with Vitz,Rachey and Michelle.Got changed and the butterflies started kicking in.The beginning dance went well and everything else followed in place.Daniel decided to juggle his drumsticks durin the praise and Kc and I were totally laughing along with Paul.It look real hilarious..guess he was nervous and goin hectic since he was handling the computer stuff as well.Then it was our dance and tht went real well..Thank God!!!..got compliments and after that did I start to relax..the drama went well 2..lost our voices durin the award givin ceremony and graduation part.After the whole thing it was just a total camwhorin session.I gotta have to get pics from everyone soon.I was worn out by the end of the day.Had dinner with the family and slept pretty early...

The next mornin it hit me that am never gonna see the graduates after this.Everyone will probably go their own way and we won't see each other for a long time.Was sorta emo the rest of the day and Daniel messaged in the mornin sayin his gonna miss skool and it soo didn't make me feel better..lolz..but I guess that's life u know..Ppl came and go and I' ve really gotta learn to deal with tht.

We had this skool outing on Wed.Bout 30 ppl came and I had a really good time.We played bowling which was super fun since we were makin so much noise and screamning and laughing. T. ben's class did win though!! So the movie was paid for.We had lunch at Subway and got a cake for Tracy.We had another camera session.Seriesly all of us totally love the camera and I bet it loves us too.LOL.Played pool as well n I really need more practice cause I sorta suck at it badly.We watched Step up..it was sooooo cool!!!!!..a total dance movie...if u love dance this is sooo for u!!!...Loved it!..had ice cream at Mc'ds after tht..hanged with Vitz and Rachey for the day.Played daytona for a bit and then lost our voices yetz again cheerin for the guyz who were playin...lolz..headed home around 6 somethin.Rushed for prayer meeting and was super worn outz after that.It wasn't too bad..I did have fun there as well..lolz...came home around 10 somethin...

So far my week has been rather intersting but after all this it's gonna be sorta slow for a few weeks with skool work and lotz of stayin at home.Really gotta get my study momentum back cause it's really gone..am gonna go look for it darlin's!

BEST FRENZ!
It's a promise. not a label

The sky glows and I see it shining with my eyes close

[Mood: Wanderin]
[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Running away from the a problem isn't alwayz the smartest thing to do nor is it a very mature thing to do.Guess thats wht I've been doin,acting like it's all ok when its not.I guess the truth caught up anywayz and I realized how much my frenz love me today.The didn't confront me with it just so I won't be hurt by it all but I guess we all knew it deep down.Btw I had no idea Vitz was so good at physcology,I just discovered that today...

I gave excuses again and again and tried that again today.It was a stupid thing to do but at the end of the day all I wanted to do is cry.I couldn't answer any question with a full stand assurance.I kept zoning off or avoiding it.So much for a year's effort, months have gone and after all that's said and done..I can't fuckin answer the simpliest of questions.

Told Esther today I'll have to make a change by the end of this year.It's really time to grow up and make a mature decison bout this instead of acting like it's okies when its absolutely not.No more playin pretend for am really too old for it anywayz.I gave myself by the end of this months and that's it.I really don't wanna take this years drama into the next..

Realized also that a few of my frenz are graduatin high skool this year.I've never been good at sayin goodbye and I really hope I don't break down this Sunday,that would be super embrassing.But this is what's life bout I guess..growing up and letting go...I really don't wanna grow up...

"Life is full of different things, its full of,hope and sorrow.
The things you choose to do today,could affect your life tomorrow.
Life is full of decisions.
So be careful what you choose.
Cause life is yours to cherish.
But it’s also yours to lose."

Signed Sincerely Me

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Hellogoodbye - Dear Jamie....Sincerely Me]

It's been kinda crazy for the last few weeks.Preparations for awards nite, practices that are loadz of fun,hangin out at the mall and skool work in between it all.I've been in skool everyday this week.No one seems to be studyin cept the brillant,the rest of us are either camwhorin, playin some lame game or havin conversations with peverted topics.The highlight of my week was goin out with Rachey,Nicky and Wesley on Tuesday.We played pool,hanged out for a bit,window shopped and chilled.It was fun and a big shout out to Nicky for following that day since he was suppose to go gym-ing .I owe u dear!

So I have 11 more books to go for this year and my hardworkin momentum that was with me the last few weeks is fading but I really gotta finish it all in bout 2 weeks time if I want to go out..so yeah..quoting mum..."Unless you wanna stay home while we go out for Christmas,you better study"...I've been hearin this everyday day this week on the car trip to and from skool.*sheesh*...so far the slow dance seems good and am not in the drama anymore so that's all good.No more intense practices,its more laid back.

Besides all that it's been good lately.Not too much drama and I've been in a good mood too.I'm feelin really grateful lately for havin so much and I think am gonna take to time to appericate it all and make every moment are memory.

"You know you had a good time when you can't tell your mom what you did."
~XoXoXo~

We might as well be strangers

[Mood: Artsy]
[Music: Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go]

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world.
Some are running scared..
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day..
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men at war with good,
Some are good.. struggling with evil.
6 billion people in the world,
6 billion souls,
And sometimes.. all you need is 1."
-Peyton-{OTH}

"There seems to be a kind of order in the universe…in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own."
-Katherine Ann Porter-

"Most of our life is a series of images.
They pass us by like towns on the highway.
But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens.
And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image.
We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.'"
-Lucas-{OTH}

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

[Mood: Day-dreamin]
[Music: Mario Vazquez - Gallery]

Life is really simply.
We just insist on making it___>>Complicated.

Summarizing the 1st of week of November I gotta say I can't believe we're left with the last two months of the year.The last two months of being 16.Seriesly I don't wanna move on to 17.I like being 16.It's that age where you're right in the middle and you feel all young and ready for a new adventure.I like high school and I know college maybe fun and all but even with the drama and crazyness I love it.High skool memories will alwayz be the best.I was listening to Bowling For Soup's new single called High Skool Never Ends the other day.That song really makes sense,thinkin bout it, high skool drama will alwayz be out there.The girl-fights,break-ups,back-stabbings and life changing relationships.I really wanna enjoy my skool dayz to the fullest currently and not worry to much about sayin goodbye and lose out on the time I have with me.

Seems like the end of the year stresses have been catching me up.I've gotta get ready for christmas at church which means ample practice time is needed.The drama needs work and I have no idea what's really goin on there.Then there's the skool work that needs to be dealt with.Yes people am starting to feel the pressur,the lack of time and a desperate need for a organized scheulede.

Friday at skool was very quiet.Maybe cause Vitz wasn't there and neither was Nicki.So it was just me and Kc entertaining ourselves.As lesbian as that sounds,it's true.The good news at skool this week must be the change in the cafetria.The food has definately improved and we are all very grateful.After skool,I was meeting someone at Summit and since there was no transport.My sis,Son,Me and Shaun who decided to be our bodyguard walked there.It was really nice of him to tag along.I felt so accomplished after that.Had tea and then watched "The Covenant".Wasn't too bad I would give it 3 out of 5.Gotta give props for the speacial effects though.Played daytona after that and I won.It was really sweet of you to let me win dear.I so know you did. I had really great time hanging out with you darlin'!Went to starbucks and got my regular caramel frappucino but was totally disturbed by the fact tht the guy asked me if I was just done with work and when I said no he tried college and when I respoded no again,he just gave this totally blur look and I finally said skool and went off complainin to the others how mean the guy workin there was.Hanged in Sonya's place for a bit while I waited for dad.Went home and hanged on the phone with Kc,givin her the 411 on my dayz events.Was very worn out that day that I slept before 12.

Saturday was spent in total day dreaming mode.I couldn't concentrate on much and I had to start workin on the Christmas song list for church.I really gotta start praticing...really.Watched the "Perfect Man" that nite and was rather emo after that...

This next 3 weeks is gonna be crazy with skool work,practices and gettin ready for the end of another year.I'll go start with skool work darlin's.

Photographic Memories Are For Forever

[Mood: Sleepy]
[Music: Jojo- Coming For You]

Here are some of the pics we took durin the drama rehersal last Friday:

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Your Taste in Music:

Adult Alternative: Highest Influence90's Hip Hop: Medium Influence90's Rock: Medium InfluenceCountry: Medium InfluenceR&B: Medium Influence

How's" Your Taste in Music?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Love Song Is

Yellow by Coldplay "Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you, And everything you do, Yeah they were all yellow" You're so in love, it's like a drug.

What Love Song Are You?

These Dayz Are What They Call Livin Momentz To The Fullest Darlin'

[Mood: Excited]
[Music: Fergie - Fergalicious]

One of the best parts of livin in Malaysia is the abundant amount of holz for the festive season.The weekend seemed super long and I did have a good time.Had a couple of relatives over for the fun of it, mum cooked loadz and I eat a lot as well.Oh and not forgettin being glued to the tv.I just haven't been watchin tv much lately cause am happy with my downloads of LB and OTH but I decided to just catch on some movies and all.On Tuesday,my family decided to do the drive around with no specific location tradition.We do that on public holz usually.I wanted to go back to Ipoh again but dad decided it would too long of a drive.So decided to go to Morib.The beach was nice and they have good seafood there.It wasn't too bad.Besides all that it was just me and my skool work and not forgettin checkin out the cuties in LOTR.(:P)

Went to skool on Thursday.I've switched to books for Math and was overwhelmed with joy to touch a book again and to put my pencil to use again.Yes I know it sounds corny but seriesly I was sooo happy to have it back.The rest of day was very casual and I have a new luchin group.Its Eddy,Vitz,Rachey,Shaun,occisonaly Christine and the gf.They're just loadz of fun to hang with cause our conversations are a mix of crappness,sacrasm and a whole bunch of emal-ness(Nicki's way of sayin lame),super cool huh.lolz.Newayz Friday we had drama practice and I did nada skool work.Practice was cool cause all we did was laugh loadz and camwhore.Will uploadz the pics as soon as I get it from Daniel.Chapel was total crazyness.I may reconsider sittin in between Kc and Vitz the next time and opposite Pete as well cause he kept sendin sign language signals yht he loves Vitz and it was just freakin disturbin.Damn we have like to many gay couples in skool..*BAH*

It's a beautiful Saturday mornin and am up super early.I crashed at 3 last nite after my usual phone conversation but woke up around 9.I've got skool work to attend to currently.And also I've gtg to church tonite...tht may be excitin(:P)
~Loadz of Love~