Here's To Broken Hearted

[Mood: Hurt]
[Music: The Funeral - Band of Horses]

Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like crap, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

Livin A Day At A Time

[Mood: Worn Outz]
[Music: Bowling For Soup - When We Die]

So I've started skool and gettin back to the discipline is fuckin diffult.I've been sleepin a lot in class lately but teacher said he'd rather have us sleep then yack.Been crashin at 4 for the whole effin week and yes its the usual stuff.THE DRAMA!It's been goin on for the whole darn week but its sorta settled nowz or at least I hope it is.

Went out on Fri with Rachey and Vitz.Had a really good time with them.We had wafflez,looked for a birthday gift for bloop bloop and me.Yeah she wanted 2 get my hot underwear..hehe..and then we played pool and laughed a whole lot.Later Rachey's dad dropped us at the park .We had ice-cream and a serious heart to heart convo.It was cool.The event was fun.The bandz rocked and that hottie was there.OMG! Am so crushin on him.His really effin cute.I have a HUGE weakness for boyz tht write their own songs and play the guiter. The am-tryin-to-make-a-diff-in-the-world-guy.So hotttt.Headed to Asiacafe and had supper there.Chilled till bout 12:30 and then reahed home at 1.Relaxed with music and then the phone convo waz till bout 4.

Headed to my grandparents place in the mornin and it was the usual.Did a bit of shoppin at the mall and got super cute earings and a top.It was pretty much Retail therapy shoppin and I ate way too much as usual...Came home and was on the phone till bout 6 in the mornin.Yes it was record.A 5 hr phone convo!! Was dead that mornin and was super late.Came home slept,had lunch,was bout to sleep but he called and didnt wanna let me sleep but then I was sleepin on the phone and he had to go.So been pretty much chillin till now.

Skool's tomorrow.I better get some sleep!! Yes am still sleepy.*BAH*

"How did you get here?"
"We rode dolphins!"
-Friday'z Randomness-

Don't Wanna Trust

[Mood: Emo]
[Music: The Constantines - Soon Enough]

I'm slowly learning to be a dependant,
Cause deep within I know at the end of the day,
You're gonna be alone.
I'm still havin problems trusting,
Are those words true?
Or is it another phase your goin through?
I still have doubt,
A replacement of somethin you can't have.
Yeah those words still ring in my head,
It was really awkard that day,
I had so many other thoughts in my head,
But all of a sudden all this came back.
And I was chokin my tears,
I couldn't cry in public,
So I tried my best to push those thoughts away,
But it didn't really work,
Was it my intuition goin off the hook,
My heart tryin to send a message through,
I really don't want another heart break,
But I know what must be done,
Too much has been said and done,
The future seems bright,
But tryin to fit all this in doesn't seem to work,
I'm tired of being put down,
And gettin told that nothing I do is ever good enough,
Save me from this misery,
I'm tryin my best to be happy through it all,
But instead of makin me feel better,
You deprive me even more,
So much for wanting to see me smile,
You make me happy,
A repeated line,
From the heart,
But am not sure if its the same likewise,
Cause somehow am refusin to believe,
And I don't know why,
Maybe because am tired of being naive,
Maybe for once I wanna go with my intuition and
Not fall on my face,
Please,
NOT AGAIN.

As The World Spins Madly On

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: The Weepies - World Spins Madly On]

My week has been the very usual kind with my spirit of hardworking-ness at its peak.I managed to finish a history book in a day and my parents were impressed.They went " Look if she wants to do it she can" sorta thing.Yea I sorta know that but I tend to be lazy to much. *BaH* Then there was the usual effin drama.The usual fight and make-up.Yeah I think am gettin use to this weekly thing darlinz.

At the end of the week we went on a class field-trip to the Curve.Had breakfast at Lotus and then we had a mall hunt there.That was pretty fun and now I know the whole layout of the curve.I got teamned up with Abel and I was surprised tht he was pretty smart(:P) We came out third I think.Had lunch at Secret Recipe...that was real good...I <3>
Had a really good time that day! The rest of the week was a bore.Will be startin skool soon.Excited bout that and dreading the work load at the same time.Will upload field trip pics soon!

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands,
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans,
She never even knew she had a choice,
And that’s what happens when the only voice,
She hears is telling her she can’t.
-Keith Urban's Stupid Boy-

Out Goes Procrastinating!

[Mood: Excited]
[Music: Beyonce ft. Shakira - Beautiful Liar]

So skool has been fun and usually when I go back after a while I really miss it.Had a word with teacher tht day bout college and when am gonna graduate and all.Am hopping for this year so we'll see how it goes. If graduation is this year tht also means that I have to work fuckin hard.I guess I'll have to do tht.That may mean goin back to skool so that part am excited bout.My electives so far are computer literacy and language which maybe Spanish or German.Have to discuss that with dad.But personally I prefer Spanish,I think its sexy(:P)

I'm mostly probably doin computer science and maybe in Life cause of their twining program.My parents have given me a choice..either I do everything here at Sunway or go to Life and twin with Aussie.They're twined with University of South Australia.I've been to the campus at Adelaide,which isn't too bad.I like it.But I'll definately wanna go to Aussie.Its something I've alwayz Alwayz wanted to do.My dad wasn't too keen at first on me goin to Aussie but this time around my mum suprised me by tellin him to send me.She was like"Let her do it if she wants to.She's alwayz wanted that".P.S: My mum never wanted me to leave the country at all!

For the next few months its gonna be Hardwork..more Hardwork and Fuckin Extra Hardwork! I'll try to find Fun somewhere around there.And the word Procrastincating can't exist anymore!

"Didn't you F her Bf when you too were BFF's!"
-One Tree Hill-

Those Thoughts That Run Deep

[Mood: Broken]
[Music: Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks]

My stereo is blasting;
My eyeliner is beginning to smear;
I can barely hear;
My tears are forming in the corner of my eyes,
So just shut up and let me slip.

I think part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because
we fear that something so great won't happen twice

I just wanna talk to you,
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go 'round
-Ashlee Simpson's Love Makes The World Go Round-

When I turn the lights out,
When I close my eyes,
Reality overcomes me,
I'm living a lie.
-Avril Lavigne's Together-

My heart is broken,
I'm lying here,
My thoughts are choking on you my dear.

It's Bout The Vacaz

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend]

The family decided to have a picnic at Morib 2day.So yeah that means an early wake up call which am not very good at and gettin ready in 5 minutes is really no joke.The journey was effin to short.I do <3 long car rides.The place wasn't too pack and the wind was wonderful.But I realized my family is just don't do picnic.We kept movin the tent cause of the sun.My dad was yellin everytime there was sand near the food.And everyone else were pissed with the unwanted visitors aka bugz.LOL.But it was okies I guess..just spending time and talin bout random thingz.Everything from politics to the latest flick.It was fun.

Out trip to Penang was real good to.The part I enjoyed the most: THE FOOD! Seriesly Penang has the best food ever.You just gotta know the right place to go.The place has real cool architecture as well.There's restorations of old buildings everywhere.Did some shoppin here and there and just relaxed.I had a good time just piggin outz:P

It's been a good vaca darlinz.Time to hit the books again.
BAH!

P.S: Avril Lavigne has a new single called girlfriend.It's sounds poppy-punk.It talks bout how she WANTS to steal someone elses bf.The lyrics are sorta like PCD's Don't cha.Seems this dayz everyone wants to steal bf's.*sheesh*

"It's all in the game of L.O.V.E"

I Am Me

[Mood: Pondering]
[Music: Matthew Ryan - Return To Me]

I thought everything was perfect for once.That the feelin of content was true.The last few weeks seemed great but I felt I've been running away from it all.Deep down I felt the truth but denial was strong.Here's why we don't want the truth,it's because most of the time it suxs.Deep down I was still aching from it.I was still carrying the scars and I questioned all that I felt.At 2 in the mornin,with silence lingering in the air.I found myself again.After months of being lost in the darkness,I finally found my principles and desires.My dreams and hopes.I want them all over again but in the right path this time.

I guess ppl are sent at different moments of our lives for a purpose.Each one to impact us in their own way.I know now that I have to learn to depend on me more than ever.To learn to stand on my own and know that I'll be ok.The gf and I had a past an hour long phone convo.And we talked bout all the yrs we've spent together,what we wanted,what we've learnt and we realized at 17,you can't afford anymore screw ups.It's a time in your lifewhere you're old enough to better but you aren''t that young to not care.

I thought to myself that nite.I wanted to be this all my life and maybe I wanted to grow up too fast.But I have no regrets though.Yes I've made bad decisions but I believe every little detail in our life has its own lil purpose.The reason we get hurt and broken.Would we learn if there was no pain? Thats what I ask myself a lot.As I alwayz remind myself "Experience is a hard teacher, you get the test first and the lesson wayy later" and then you'll probably go "damn I wish I just listened in the first place".Yea ppl I've been down that road.

But at this moment in my life I'm gonna be me.I'm not gonna let the past aches and pain change the person I am.I'm gonna stay true to my principles and ideals in life.I'm tired of ppl judging as if they know it all.Sometimes even the ppl you think know you best has not the slightist clue of who you are.I guess thtat hurts sometimes cause you thought they'll alwayz be reliable.Right now all I know is the most reliable person is me.I am who am and your approval is not DESIRED or REQUIRED!

Another Valentine Goes By

[Mood: Cheery]
[Music: Faith Hill - Breathe]

I know I haven't updated in a while but I've been away on vaca and also too lazy to update.But since it's Valentines I thought I'll put something up.But I'll defiantely post bout my trip ASAP!

So went to skool 2day and there were frenz celebrating Single Awareness Day.Hitz was doin that this mornin and everyone picked it up.Lame I know but the single ppl just wanted something to celebrate bout.Vitz complained bout how he hasnt seen me in 2 weeks.I missed you too dear!!!Besides that we spent the day laughing at Nicki's lameness and Rachel's sacrasm.Gosh I love hanging with this ppl.Though it does gets disturbin once in a while.LOL.

So I have never been a big fan of Valentine's day.I mean I don't exactly hate the day but I don't adore it either.It just makes single ppl feel bad and another holiday to make money out of.We don't need a day to tell someone how we feel bout them,its something that should be done all the time.Cause you never know what tomorrow holds.I know am sounding totally anti-Valentine but I haven't had a great Valentines YETZ!So maybe that's the cause of this complain list...but I do strongly believe about telling someone they way you feel all the time.

So here's something I wrote:

You have no idea how you make me feel,
The things I feel when am in your arms,
I always knew we had something special,
And am ever so grateful we fought like hell for each other,
The way I can lay on your shoulder without a word said,
The way you look at me and I know I mean the world to you,
You listen to me when I need to be heard,
And you know those dayz when I need to hear something sweet,
I’ve always dreamt of this sorta teenage love,
I never would have guessed it would have been you,
Our late night conversations full of honesty and passion,
Our casual random day messages,
The way you pick on me just to see me smile,
I know its never been easy on us babe,
But its love that has brought us this far,
I know I can be hard to deal with sometimes,
But your patience and understanding has brought me a long way,
Your love has made me a better person,
I know sometimes I run away and hide,
But the thing is I’ve always been afraid,
Afraid to admit how much I care,
But you’ve thought me that its ok to admit how I feel,
You’re my biggest inspiration and always will be,
I love when you talk about how much you want me part of your future,
You really have your way of making me smile,
No one’s gonna understand our chemistry,
But they’re gonna know we’re crazy bout each other,
You make me very happy darling,
And everyone sees that,
I sparkle a lil more each day cause of you,
I love you baby boy,
Happy Valentine’s Day!

P.S: Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! Hope you have a speacial one with your frenz or loved one.Especially to my darlin frenz.I love you guyz to tiny tiny bitz!!! Muaxkz!

Meeting you was fate, Becoming your friend was a choice, But falling in love with you was beyond my control

[Mood: Excited]
[Music: Hellogoodbye -Here (In Your Arms)]

It's not like I've been busy lately or anything but I had wayy to much going on.I mean seriesly I had drama beyond the usual and I totally hate it when I get into a misunderstading with my closest frenz speacially when they're the ones you go to when everything else is messed up.So yeah you get the point.But the thing is everything has a miraclous way of fixin itself.And I finally saw some light today.

I had a wonderful time.It was our one year aniversary and I'm in awe cause time has passed by so fast and it seems like only a few months back that we went for our first date.We've had our share of ups and downs.Trust me ppl it has been one hell of a rollar coaster ride but if I had to do it all over again,I wouldn't change a single detail.Cause it has brought us where we are today.I love the way he makes me laugh and teases me just to see me smile.His really made my teenage years extra special.Our late conversations and hours online has alwayz been loadz of fun.I like the way I can be myself with him n argue with him bout the most of random thingz.No one has made me feel this way before and I think what we have is definately one of a kind.It's a mix of chemistry,passion and love.He makes me happy.Also the gift he got me totally moved me to tears.I was practically choking with my mouth literally open.I loved it darlin.It's soo beautiful.

We watched the Holiday,its a super sweet movie.Gotta get the dvd some time.So besides a great day with him,gf and I patched thingz up.Am sooooo glad for that and when I came back I got to hang on the phone with both my besties.That was definately a blast.An hour with each person.I heart phone convos!!

I really needed a day like this and am ever so grateful for it.Feelin totally worn outz now.His on the phone and he wants me to get off my lappie immediately....I L.O.V.E him!

When you're holding my hand,
I get the feeling that everything
is meant to be.
This way.
You and me

The City Lights Burn

[Mood: Emo-ing]
[Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay(I Pomise)]

I'm tired of dropping my guard too fast,

Bleeding for something that refuses to last...

11:11 Is My Favorite Number, But It Has Yet To Show Me Why

[Mood: Upset]

[Music: Jimmy Eat World - May Angels Lead You In]

It’s those cold days that get to the soul,
It’s when those hurtful words run deep,
And scar the heart,
Tired of the pain,
Can’t seem to find the tears,
Wanting to be set free,
But held back by consequence of a regret,
So much for experience,
Thought the day was near,
But now it seems like eternity,
There’s so much a heart can take,
The memories are like a mixtape,
They play me to sleep,
Wanting to smile again,
But oh such horrible mistakes have been made,
It’s sad that we can’t take back time,
Would you please set me free?
Throw away this misery and make me laugh,
But don’t come too close,
I’d rather not have you near the heart,
This distance is good,
The loneliness does kill though,
My pride is broken,
All for the sake of love,
Vulnerable,
For far too long,
What wasted days,
Ignorance should have been born much before the time,
I was your miracle,
Its just sad that you didn’t see that,
I cherish the days we hoped,
And try to get rid of that bitterness,
But I rather be left out in the cold,
Then to drown in all this ache.

It's All About The Wordplay

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

Layer One
Name: Ezreena
Birth date: March 26, 1990
Birthplace: Malaysia,
Location: Malaysia
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 4 ish I think
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Aries
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Layer Two
The shoes you wore today: None
Your weakness: Procrastinating
Your fears: End of the world
Your perfect pizza: BBQ chicken with extra cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve: Write a book
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Layer Three
Your most overused phrase on MSN: Heyyaz
Your first waking thoughts: Please dont wake me up nowz
Your best physical feature: My eyes
Your most missed memory: Being all carefree when I was 5
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Layer Four
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McD's
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Give me CONVERSE baby!!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
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Layer Five
Smoke: Nopez
Cuss: Yea
Sing: Yup
Take a shower everyday: Yea
Do you think you've been in love: Yeah
Want to go to college: Yes
Like high school: Yea
Want to get married: Yea
Believe in yourself: Most of the time
Get motion sickness: Nada
Think you're attractive: Sorta
Think you're a health freak: Nopez
Get along with your parent(s): Yes
Like thunderstorms: Not really
Play an instrument: The organ..dont ask why..
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Layer Six
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: Yup
Smoked: No
Done a drug: Nopez
Kissed: Yea
Gone on a date: Yea
Gone to a party: Nope
Gone to the mall: Yup
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
Eaten sushi: Nada
Been on stage: Yup
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Nopez
Made homeade cookies: Nope
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: Nopez
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Layer Seven
Ever....
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nopez
If so, was it mixed company: ...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
Been caught "doing something" : I don't think so
Been called a tease: Nope
Gotten beaten up: No
Shoplifted: Nope
Changed who you were to fit in: Yea but not to fit in
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Layer Eight
Age you hope to be married: 24 or 25
Numbers and Names of Children: 2 or 3.Lalaine,Racquel,Ryan
Describe your Dream Wedding: It would take up too much space
How do you want to die: In my sleep.
Where you want to go to college: Monash
What do you want to be when you grow up: A impactive person
What country would you most like to visit: Spain
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Layer Nine
Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
Number of CDs that I own: Lost count
Number of piercing: 2 and cravin for more!!
Number of tattoos: Nada
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
Number of scars on my body: 2 or 3
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few

-Loadz of Love-

Surviving Those Cold Dayz

[Mood: Thoughtful]

[Music: Susie Suh - Recognition]

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.But, once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in.Or to give someone a second chance.Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are.And, it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.
-Lucas-
{One Tree Hill}

Life isnt a destination,

Its a journey we all come upon unexpected curves& turning points.

Everything that happens to us shapes who we are becoming.

& In the adventure of each day, we discover the important things in life & why they're important.

Lights Will Guide You Home

[Mood: Daydreamin]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - Falling Down]

First day of skool still do give me butterflies.I have no idea why but they just do.I was nervous in the car but calmed down when I reached skool grounds.The classes are the same and thank God I have the same teacher.Not many new students this year so I didn't have to start learning new names.Did some math but I was occupied with my phone for the whole day.I was sms-ing and dealin with this rather large drama ad my darlin gf was my shoulder to cling on while Eddy was tryin to cheer me up the whole time with Abel tryin to give advice whenever he could and tellin me I could borrow his shoulder for the day..lolz.I missed Vitz a lot tht day!! I was pretty much upset for the whole time and was not in the mood to watch "King Kong".It's family tradition that we watch a dvd,have dinner or do something as a family on fridayz.Hanged on the phone even more and everything was fixed by that nite and it's good now.

The rest of my weekend was sorta of a bore.Mostly I spent time on the phone or online.The internet sorta suxs rite now cause I can't seem to download anything,just that it better be fixed by Jan 17 or I'll be really mad! OTH is coming back darlins!!!

My year is startin out pretty well but am still procrastinating.Will work on that soon or I'm gonna be stuck in high skool for the rest of my life.I NEED to study.

Its not who you spend the most time with,
Its who you have the best memories with.

This Are What The Teenage dayz Are Made Of

[Mood: Content]
[Music: Dashboard Confessional - Don't Wait]

This year I've got through so much and collected so many picture perfect memories.Learned so much,laughed my heart out,cried my soul out and made mistakes.I do have a couple of regrets but I really don't feel like taking them back.I fell in love this year and got my heart shattered.I found love with my frenz and I've learned to apperiacte them ever so much cause they're really my support system.They've made me smile through rainy dayz and have lent their shoulders all the time.I love you guyz sooo much!!!!!This time around I've learned to lean on my lil sister a little bit here and there too.I know she really cares for me and thankz dear for hearing me rant all night sometimes.I do apperiacte it all.

I did work on a couple of resolutions for 2007.I came up with 25.Mostly its about becoming a better person and working a lot harder in school.I really do wanna graduate next year and that means workin my ass off .I planned to enjoy high skool the fullest next year cause I know am never gonna get this time back again and it's alwayz been said that these are gonna be the best years of my life.I'm gonna live dayz to fullest,love with everything I've got and have the time of my life! I know things are not gonna get any easier and there's are gonna be my fair share of trials but I'm gonna fight for what I want and continue leaning on my support system. Lovin life and enjoyin the ride!

Happy New Year With Love Everyone~

The teenage years are the best years of our lives.
Even though there's tons of drama, tears & heartbreaks,
There's also friends that you trust will never leave your side.
There's the boy who whenever you see you get butterflies in your stomach..
There's parties & breaking the rules.
Now tell me, at what other point in your life are you going to be able to have all those things at once?

It's That Time of The Year Again!

[Mood: Joyful]
[Music: Clay Aiken - Joy To The World]

It's the best time of the year and am grateful for so much this year.My christmas did start out a little bumpy but the gf said I should try my very best to have a wonderful christmas and my sis was you wait and see what happens.I did get my christmas miracle after all!

The usual family tradition during christmas eve is usually having an absolutely wonderful dinner,laugh a whole lot and eat a whole lot more.We had an extra guest this year.A long distance relative shared christmas with us this year.Dinner was the bomb and I got wonderful gifts by everyone.Got loadz of those retro dresses I wanted so much! Christmas day was spent lazing around with the family and we had open house at night.That was real fun.And out of the blue Jarrett and Daniel decided to get beer.It was a real miracle my parents didn't see it and I had a lil too much to drink.Was a lil dizzy after that and I so cleverly decided to hang on the phone after that.Talked crapped a lot and thankz darlin for puttin up with me that nite(:P)My mum came to me and asked what wasnt I hangin with everyone downstairs and I dramatized to her.LOL~! Am smart that way.She hugged me and said I shouldn't be so dramatic about life.haha.The rest of night was spent chatting with aunts and uncles.Slept at 5 in tht morning

Left to my grandparents place the next morning.Didn't do much there,just chilled and relaxed.Went to the beach the next day and came home prety late that night.The rest of the week was spent onlining,just watching tv or sleeping.Yes I've been sleeping a lot lately! On Friday decided to go watch "Night At The Museum".Went with a fren.I had a good time,the movie was really good! Came home around 6 and went for a family dinner.Decided to watched "Lord of the Rings 2".But I got bored half way through and went to hang on the phone.Had Major! drama and I had deal with everything...

It's lunch time.And am starved.I'm gonna go find something to do throughout the day.

Merry Christmas Ya'll!!!!

It's Not Until You're Broken,That You Know What You're Made Of

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Nelly Furtado - All Good Things(Come To An End)]

Flames To Dust

Lovers To Friends

Why Do All Good Things Come To An End?

I feel so grown up today.I think I just dealed with this situation in the most mature of manner.I was afraid to lose a fren but its amazing how things have a way of falling into place.We started out with a fight but I think we just knew what was coming.I guess at times you just have to accept the fact that some things are just not meant to be.I wasn't in a bundle of tears like I usual am but I reasonable discussed what are we to do with the situation and by the end of the night we were laughing again.I think this is one of the greatest lessons I've learnt this year.This is relationship has taught me a whole lot and I don't regret any of it.If I had to do it all over, I wouldn't change it a bit.

Standing From Here

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Nelly Furtado - Try]

Well fellow readers and spam taggers..it's been a while and dayz have been rather eventful and busy and ever so tiring and on top of all that I had to end up with the oh-so-horrible fever....*sulking*....I've finally found time for myself...

Decided to go for the Planetshakers event on Thursday and a bunch of us decided to hang there from 3 in the afternoon.The bunch was Kc,Eddy,Vitz,Sis and Marielle.We had sorta tea and A &W,messed around with this malay guy who sms-ed Vitz and he thought he was Saiful and we played along.ROFL.He asked to come out in a hurry and we were like no you go home first and then he said to wait in front of the Bomba and then we were like you go to the hospital and from then on he didnt get a reply back.hahaha.Guess he found the real guy by then.Watched Eragon.It was okies I guess but the beginning was effin borin,the ending wasnt too bad.Half way we were talkin,laughing and throwing popcorn around.Played a bit of pool and bowlin and then had dinner and Secret Recipe.Soon enough everyone's parents decided to have dinner at Pyramid.Our phones were ringin off the hook.Headed for the concert after that,had a great time and then went home around 11 somethin.Was dead tired when I got home.

Felt like an elephant was on my head that mornin.Lazyed aroud and then got ready for carollin that evening.Was feelin sorta sick and all but managed to pull myself together.Carollin was fun and all.Came home around 1 somethin.Crawled to my room and came down with a fever.I was horrible the next mornin.Feelin totally sore and havin an awful headache.Was takin all sort of pills for the rest of the day.Had a Christmas event that evening.Goodness knows how I manage to pull myself through.The event was real nice.Chatted on the phone and then slept around 12 somethin.

After church headed to One Utama.Had lunch there and then just walked around.Am really not a big fan of that place.Alwayz soo freakin packed.Had a fren at my place for the rest of the day.Went to the Mamak at nite and then watched the OTH shoot-out episode.Did tear a lil though..tht episode alwayz moves me a lotz..

It's turnin out ot be a very slow Monday and am tragically bored and still in a lot of pain.I think I'll just go catch more sleep.

I'll help you [ u p ]when life gets you (d.o.w.n)
Remember to smile & never frown.
Live life crazy with no regrets,
Never look back;
But never forget.

So What's My Damage Today

[Mood: Upset]
[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Nothing New]

Sometimes it's truly amazing how a certain song can say the exact way your feeling.I was all upset the other nite and I was browsing through Ashlee's first album and I randomly decided to give this song a listen and half way through I realized it was speaking my heart out...
I HEART MUSIC~

:Nothing New by Ashlee Simpson:

I found myself wrong again

Starin out my window

Wonderin what it is I should have said

I found myself at home again

Waitin for the after call

From a fallout that feels like such a mess

Ohhhh I can only be myself

I'm sorry that's hell for you

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new

So I listen to you complain and then

I bite my tongue in vain again

As I let it all just slowly settle in

Such a pretty picture that you paint

I'm so vile while your a saint

Funny how your eyes see thick not thin

Ohhhh I can only be myself

Your lookin for someone else

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new

You know how to give it but you can't take it

It's all just a waste now you can save it

No matter what I do

Is never good enough,

Never good enough

Heyyy so what's my damage today

Don't let me get in your way

Let it out like you always do

The trouble between me and you

Is nothing new,Is nothing new

Save your breath cause here comes the truth

I'm over the drama of you

And that's something new

Well I'm starin' out my window

Wonderin' what it is I should have, said