Random Update

[Music: Augustana - Twenty Years]

It's 3:43 A.M.
And since I felt hardworkin but tired I had a cup coffee with cinnamon!
Wanted to stay up and finish up my math.
But then I felt lazy..*ish*
Now I wanna sleep but can't!!

*Next day*
Just got back from summit.Went to skool this mornin to score my 1103 Math.Kc,Nicolette and Shauny were there.He came late,did a L.A test superr quick and left with his new bf.Apparently he has more than one and am really starting to question his preferences.Nicolette left with them first.Esther called then..shes coming back on sunday!!! *rachey we should do tht gurlie thingg again!* At around 2 something eddy came and got us by cab.Had lunch at Garden cafe at Summit.We never did this in a while but when the 3 of us hangout our conversations alwayz end up in peverted note.lol.Halfway through lunch Kc got me all thinkin again..hate it when she does tht..*bah*..we wondered about and ended up at the arcade.Played spot the difference for the first time.It's kinda addictive actually.Went back by cab at aroun 5 something.Spent about 10 bucks just on transport.I'm gonna try 2 learn to take the bus.Really

Goin to dinner now.My parents are takin 2 kids from the home they're helpin out at for dinner for their graduation or so.Going to Saujana.I get to dress up *beams* and finally wear my blue heels! If I survive in this...I can survive any kind of heels!! It's the ultimate test.Therefore if I pass this with flying colors,am gonna go to Nose and get the maroon ones I saw the other day.

I'm shoe obsessed lately!!
Actually from last year..end of last year
I clearly remember the shoppin spree at Ikano

Thinking of the bread pudding there makes me happy.
I could really do with happy desserts.

I can hear dad's car.

Screw calories..FOR TODAY!

Happy Birthday Paul!

Happy Birthday Paul!!!
We soo have to catch up soon.
Hope college n all is goin good for you.
Have a rockin 18th!
xoxo

7th American idol!

Congratulations David Cook!!!!!

I was kinda worried the other David was gonna win cause Simon went all " It was a knock out"
But he did sing well but the's just something about Cook's voice thats soo sexayyy!
I'm hooked to his rendition of "Always Be My Baby"

Can't wait for his new single!

Hearing Without All The Cluster

[Music: Hidden In Plain View - I Don't Wanna Hear It]

Currently I only have 2 means of communication:
Writing and sign language

Cursed sore throat!

I can't even swallow without jolting in pain

Its been about a week now that I've lost communication with another human being.Therefore I've been lost in my own world of thoughts but I've learnt to listen better though.By the way I mean LISTEN not merely HEAR.

Dear voice,

I'm sorry if I've been mean and overused you;I cannot promise I will not strain you but I miss you oh so much and will definately try to use you better.

Loadz of Love

Am proud that for once I kept up with the entire American Idol..*beams*
Though I like both David's.
Archuleta has looks and voice and Cook bubbles with talent.I never knew Mariah Carey's "Alwayz Be my Baby" could sound rockish. His definately the next daughtry.

The results are coming out soon.
Soon to the point that I can count the hours.
The weird part is am not freaked out..*bah*

Btw is american timing a day behind from malaysian?
I'm gonna Yahoo! that.Am not a fan of google.
Not sure why though.I find it plainly inconvenient.

I went into MPH the other and went into wonderland!
SoooOO have to get P.S I Love You
Note To Self: Before Reading It,Buy a Box of Tissues
I know am gonna need it.

Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspain was pretty good.More action than the first one.I enjoyed this more.And the actors really grew up.It was long though.I couldn't feel my legs after the movie.

Yea I thought Prince Caspian was good lookin :D

He looked pretty annoying when he younger

And He grew up :P

I liked his sword fighting scenes..and him

Well am gonna take my meds and sleep for another 8 hrs..

Nitez world!

Another 18yr Old!

Happy 18th Birthday Kc!!
Hope you have a rockin one ya..!
As another enters legality :D

We shall celebrate as soon as I can speak again..lol

It's funny how the years have passed by so fast..we alwayz use to talk bout being 18 and all..Never thought it'd come so soon...

I'm feelin old...haha

Through The Clouds

I'm down with a sore throat...
Therefore am oddly quite.

Will update bout todayz trip as soon as I collect all the pics.
I just uploaded mine and there are about 70.
*bah*

Watch out for an emo post...I feel one coming soon..!

I feel liking flying away to another land...

TRa-LaLA

[Music: Gavin DeGraw - Chariot]

I've spent the whole week chillaxin.And i kinda feel bad bout it...
I really should get back to hardworkin mode.

I went to skool on friday
Only to sit in detention for the whole day...with the very rare occasion that I go to skool and whtmore I didn't go for a month...
There were a few of us.Everyone else got sent back to class cept me,zoe,belinda and andrew.
We ended up playing cards and hangman.
I ended up learning how to play blackjack.lol.And zoe's came up with the most intersting animal name for hangman...Woodchuck...apparently its a woodpecker..haha..

Went out with family to summit that nite.Had dinner at Johhny's.I've been cravvin for thai lately newayz.Went dvd shoppin..I got Step Up!! Love tht flick. Watched Ironman..which was pretty good.

My saturday was spent as alwayz.Breakfast at 1 and do notta for the rest of the day.Went out for dinner with the gurl I gave chocolat to.We were suppose to do this 2 months back but somehow it kept getting moved.Had dinner at kenny rogers and dinner convo was purely on dogs.lol.But am real happy that chocolate is in good hands :D Then she had to leave early to visit her cousin at the hospital.So I ended up spendin time with me,myself and I at starbucks.Had my usuall..the caramel frappucino..I ended readin n camwhorin..lol.

I feel so unhealthy
I've been having fast food for the past 3 dayz.
Pizza...More pizza and kfc

Note To Self: Improve Eating Habits

Happy Birthday Christine..!

Happy Birthday Darlin..!!!

I can't believe your 20 already...

Miss ya loadzzzzz

She's is the type of gurl that gives meaning to "sweetheart"

Friendly and sweet...lovely to have a gurlie day out with

*reminiscing*....I miss all our outings with never ending laughter and deep conversations..

We shall catch up when you get back ya..!

Hope you're havin a great time in New Zealand!

Loadz of love

xoxo

Tagged!

I got tagged a while back...just found the time:

You have to type the 1st thing thatcomes to mind whenever you hear these things.You can’t think and go back and change your answers.

1. Beer: Heineken

2. McDonald's: Cheese Burger!

3. Relationships: Complicated

4. Purple: Sister

5. Power Rangers: Red ranger

6. Weed: Junkie

7. Steroids: Atheletes

8. Cartoons: Spongebob Squarepants!!

9. The President: Hilary Clinton

I...

1)...am obsessed with: hersheys!!!!

2)...can't live without: my laptop

3)...am proud of: graduatin

4)...really need to: finish my books asap

5)...don't get why:

6)...relax by: bonding with my media player

7)...am excited about: going to college

My...

1)...fridge usually contains: caramel!

2)...teenage years were: awesome

3)...family is: noisy

4)...biggest regret: is havin regrets

)...friends don't understand why: I get oddly emo

6)...attitude to exercise: expressin my emotions

8 random facts about myself :

1. I collect photography from xanga websites

2. I love quotes from the past.Like those from Ralpho Waldo Emerson,Dr Suess,Mark Twain and so on.

3. I wanna go to the Carribean Islands one day.

4. I kinda have a weird obessesion to tabloaids.

5. My music is my escape from reality.

6. I wanna own the complete series of Grey's Anatomy,One Tree Hill and Heroes someday.

7. I wanna write a song but just the lyrics part though.

8. I daydream a tiny bit 2 much at times.

Continuation:

1. who is your all time inspiration?- My experiences I guess...lol

2. have you had a crush on me?- on whom!!??

3. if you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you and why?- ummm..jason; I'll make him build me a house :D,Rachel: she'll keep me amused..lol and Esther: She'll be fun to have!

4. place that you wanna go to the most?- Rome!!

5. if you have one dream to come true, what would it be?- A published book

6. do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?- Yea

7. what are you afraid to lost the most now?- Loved ones

8. if you win $1, what would you do?- keep it

9. if you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him or her?- haha..am a classic gurl..I'd wait for him to do it first

10. list out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.- oddly amusin,friendly, gay(the happy meaning and the other as a well :P)

11. what are the requirements that you wish for your other half?- He should refer to McDreamy on Grey's...LOL

12. which type of person do you hate the most?- Hate is just plainly harsh

13. highlight of the week?-am done with my s.a.t?

14. if you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or keep quiet?- Well I'd like them to be honest but not to the point of being mean.

15. what do you think is the most important thing in your life?- So much

16. are you a shopaholic?- Hell yeah!

17. what's on your mind right now?- I hav healthquest to do.

18. if you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?- More open with my emotions.

19. what's the last shocking thing that you seen or heard?- Miley cyrus's topless pics

20. what's bothering you lately?- random stuff

I tag......

1) Jason

2) Zoe

3) Wesley

Time Flies By

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Hot Stuff]

And it's finally done!

Am relieved...I spent the past week on all out nerdy mode.Stayed up till 4 in the mornin studying grammar rules and waking up at 10 doing practice papers.I felt a tiny bit guilty at first for the cramming but I realized that you can't really study weeks ahead for this test.I dreaded practicing the essay the most.On thursday nite I went on panicking mode.With all kinds of "what if's" running through my head.But I realized there was no point in doing so.

Only started it at the middle of the week.I wasn't as nervous as I thought I'll be but I didnt really sleep the night before and woke up at exactly 6 a.m. Daddy and I had breakfast at Mcd's in ss15. I didnt dare have the coffee cause it was super thick.Oh and there was a guy who was sitting the other side of the window pane and sleeping with his mouth open.lol.

I had no idea so many ppl taking the s.a.t.When I went into metropolitian,it was pretty much packed.Found the exam hall I was in and had to wait for half an hour before the test began.Malaysian timing..ish ish..the 3 hrs and 45 minutes was abslosute torture! Even during the practice test I alwayz ended up taking more than half an hr breaks.And the stupid chairs!!! My back was hurting like crazy!

I was super excited when it came to section 10.Realizing within 10 minutes,I'll be done. Met up with a fren who use to go to the center at usj 9.Catched up and all,his aiming for 1800! For a scholarship to Texas.

I didn't notice dad waiting there..lolz..till he came and asked me if I was ready to go..haha..blur blur..so since I had a stressful week I decided to hit the gym.Went for a swim after that and came home around 5 something.I slept till 8 something and then couldnt sleep at nite..

Went to Mid Valley on sunday.Did a little shoppin therapy; mostly accessories though.Then got a manicure so now I hava crimson-ish nails.Currently havin a weird obesession with different shades of red. Had lunch at esquire.Went home n slept more.I think I was just plainly tired from the whole week.Catched up on One Tree Hill and Grey's that night.Thank God the writers strike is overr!!!

I'm plannin to chill about this week and get back to skool work.Scores are coming out on may 22nd.So plans hav to made after that...

Just As It Was

[Music: All Time Low - Six Feet Under The Stars]

I had pancakes for dinner! And I made them..! Though they were instant but wth..
Went to the gym yesterday after a looogish time
I don't really like cardio
I should go more often..I know

Been hybernating a lot lately..am gettin fustrated cause of it
I wish I wasn't so tired so much..
It's not like my hours are as crazy as before but I still sleep durin the day quite a bit..*ish*
I miss late nite crazy convo's..nowdayz its mostly on skype, not on my phone
Larry feels neglected..I plainly feel it
Btw I my phone's name is Larry..

I nearly lost Steve (my laptop) this week.My adapter started singing weirdly n I couldn't use it for a while.
I went on panicking mode and insisted to dad that he get me a new one..
But the next day it recovered and it's healthier now..*sigh*..thank goodness!!
I lovee steve too much..But his adapter wire is a bit loose though so yeah...
I feel bad

My mood swings hav been a lil crazy these dayz..I go from angry to bubbly in a couple of minutes..
I think I'm takin the emo-ness and turning into these new emotions so I won't depress myself to much..

I made a wish list yesterday..not on paper but just in my head
*thankz One Tree Hill for the idea*
The list included all that I want
I feel motivated!

The lack of updates is because of the S.A.T lockdown...
P.S: It's a personal lockdown..my own intentions..
Though I think I should be studyin more..I've been bummin aroun a wee bit to much..
I SHOULD study MORE!!

I'm proud that I know soo many knew words from my vocab list
Am in the early stages of erudition...and..startin to develop pedantic ways

Am off to do a practice a test!

The real deal is in approximately a week or so...

Birthday! Birthday!

Happy Birthday Daniel (lala chai) and Wesley..!!!

U guyz are celebratin your last yrs of ur teenhood..hehe..

So make sure do spend it well..!

Have a great one!!

XoXo

Vulnerability

[Music: Leona Lewis - Here I Am]

Vulnerable: Capable of being emotionally and physically wounded ( Meriam-Webster)

Sometimes without realization we put ourselves into such vulnerable positions.We think that by putting ourselves out there that another would understand our past and help us through the future.Secretly hoping that they do not take advantage of it all,knowing all the emotionally weakness and soft points that we carry deep within; revealing only to those that has given us a sense of secruity.

Without realization we show our care and love to another in our on little ways.Most of time without the another knowing the meanings of these little gestures and there are the rare occasion where we speak out our emotions just so its our there and its presence is made known.

Putting oneself out there selflessly is an act of courage and strength that not many possess.Maybe cause of past experiences or a remaining scar that we refuse to let another into our lives.We may have our reasons,nevertheless there are moments where a ray of hope shine's through and there's that tiny voice that rings in your head saying "maybe just maybe it will be different this time" and at times we let that voice get through our screaming consciuous.

This risk can turn out to be a start of something wonderful or it could be what your conscious was killing you about.But then there are the callous people.The most cruel of sort.The kind that is subtle at first and just when you have faith over the top,they push you of the cliff and leave you to fall face first.That's the kind that hurt the most and your couscious takes over from here, killing you about your doltishness.That's the kind that mixes anger and fustration and pain,balling up into this bitterness that you carry along with you till the day you decide to forgive and let go.

I've put myself in situations like this quite a few times but the most recent was totally unexpected.At first I was just plainly so mad..truly I've never been so angry at a person before..I think it was mostly fustration and disappointment.Just a huge percentage of it Disappointment though.But I'm takin it all in and sorting it out in my own way,this time without anger getting in and taking over.Personally anger just kills you and it's the one thing that I never wanna kept within and hold on to.So am letting it all go and taking it as another lesson learned the hard wayy...

18th Celebration ( Part 2)

[Music: Fergie - London Bridge]

On friday I planned my 18th celebration.Am not sure why but this 18th thing has been a huge deal for me and I kinda had a rough plan ever since I was 16 I think.I just really found this whole legal thing amusin! lol Well the whole plannin was not an easy at all not cause of everyone's scheulede but cause of the fuckin drama that got in the wayy of it and was really murderin me but I wasn't gonna let anything get in the wayy of my 18th that I wanted soo much!

I went to pyamid at 2 something,mum wasn't pleased cause it was gonna rain like crazy soon and she was tired so yeah u get the idea..I was there waitin for benji who is usually fashionably late..ish ish..so then we went and got the movies tickets for "Shutter" and his fren at the couter got it for us at 6 bucks..how cool is tht! :D So that we went n got late lunch at Uncle Lim's.The movie was not too bad n not exactly scary but disgusting!!! Then we went n got a drink n he had to leave..so yeah I was alone..donkey!..(P.S: Ur forgiven though thankz to the hersheys!!! Now the marshmarllow conversation makes sense..haha)

Random-ness..!

So I went decided to past time window shoppin n rachey come at 7.When we were walkin bout,shaun called n said he can't make it so I was really bummed outz n with shaun bein the gentleman he is he would go into a string of sorrys so I didnt really show and I got total sounding from rachey for not showing..haha..so we decided to sit and she got a call from her fren and she was like "I alwayz bump into her wherever I go" So we sat and waited for her fren then all of a sudden she goes "Pevert!" lol..And there was shaun! So yeah techinally I got belated april fool..haha..we went to Italiannies and chilled while waiting for the others.They were takin forever so we ordered first.Rachey n I split the lasagna n shauny got the linguini.Oh n in conjunction with my legality of alcohol I got a cosmopolitan! It was vodka and cranberry.Jon and Nicki came after that daniel arrived.For dessert rachey n I got the bread pudding..OMG it was Heavenly!!! The others got the lunguini as well...Oh and my birthday cake was the bread pudding as well which I didnt mind at all! But before they sang "Happy Birthday",the waiter insisted I sing cause my speech was too short so I ended up singin Florida's Low..gosh do I lovee tht song :D Jon and Shaun(they ryhme..haha) were totally facinated by the waiteresses..lol..their flirtin skills were hilarious..really!

Captured Moments:

My cosmopolitan..!

Shaun's Linguini

This was planned :D

I lovee this pic..!

Well we kinda forgot to take a pic when it arrived..haha

Nicki looks soo cute in this..:)

Oh the la-la ness..!

The awesome bread pudding..!!!!

Flirtation Attempt

Future Marc Jacobs Model..!

After dinner the others went to get movie tickets..I wasn't much in a mood to watch anything and I wanted to go the Republic soooo much.Asked Shaun if he wanted to drop by there before we leave. So we went there and sat inside and the best part was we were havin this catch up convo n was practically screamning over the music..haha..I got the chocolate diamond then..some kind of alcohol with chocolate chips in it...It was really yummy! The others came n we camwhored.Daniel got heineken and he treated me one as well..lol..I just really lovee tht place cause the environment is great and so is the music..they hav a real good dj!

Shaun and I left aroun 11 something cause he had to go to his fren's place.Dropped by there and then went home...

I had a really great time!! It was exactly the wayy I wanted it so yeah am happy..Thankz to everyone who came!..

xoxo

P.S: There are more piccy's on my facebook..!