This year started out with the excitement of turning 21! Yeah that and the fact that my boyfriend was gonna to be done with university. There was excitement and uncertainty at the same time. The year begin and my semester begin with law and economics and that made it even worse. But by God's grace I made through the semester and pretty well in fact. I was grateful and in awe. Then the boyfriend was working his way through his FYP being busy peasy a lot and I helped cheering him up whenever I could and he did pretty good as well! Again with the help of God. Then there was an ad in the newspaper for a graduate SAP course at British Petroleum (BP) for fresh grads and he applied. We prayed for it and he went through each interview stage. There was more uncertainty but when that phone call came through, there was just sheer joy really. We thanked God for being so faithful.
He begin his new job and he continued studying and so did I. The second semester of the year begin.There was accounts and oh the horror. But God's grace was there and my test scores surprised me and thank God for helpful friends who helped tutor and I spent so much time in the library, I scared myself. Finals was done with and Christmas came along. Christmas was just beautiful and that time was the year just makes me so grateful for all that I have. I manage to spent time with both family and friends. I really am grateful for them.
However this year wasn't all work. I went to Chiang Mai, Singapore and a couple of local holidays. Chiang Mai was an eye opener mainly a cultural one. At Singapore was me just being a kid really. The holidays were mainly quality time with the family which truly I treasure. My family is seriously an interesting and wonderful bunch and I love them to bits.
My relationship has also grown and we have to learned to be more undersstanding with one another and everyday is a growing process for the both of us. He is truly a blessing. The way he accepts my flaws and tells me its ok to make mistakes and explains how I can grow for them is just beautiful. I love that boy to insanely tiny bits. He knows exactly how to make me smile and that sums it up.
Well as a person, this year I guess I learned to be patient, to love more and listen. I have also found out that people may seem one thing for a couple of years and change into something totally different the next second.Through years, people may seem like they are growing and in time they might just fall that landslide and end up in a ditch the next. I have learned that I can't trust everyone and am careful with my words and what I say to people. I don't open up as much as I use to and that's a little sad in a way. I found out the dangers of giving so much in friendships and therefore am conscious now more than ever. I have also learned to never judge a book by its cover. I did find people to trust here and there and to those only I say all that is on my mind. I guess next year I really have to work on this trust issue really.
Next year is really going to be interesting. At college, everyone is going to into their specialized field so that's going to be interesting. I guess am going to learn to venture out and make the best out of it. I will definitely miss the gang though! We will still have certain same classes but not all. I will definitely miss that. And also the fact am going to be 22! I'm really going to be depressed during my birthday. I predict that. But I never know what the year will bring and I will not judge or say anything. I am just going to take everyday as a blessing really.
This year has been gracious,filled with love, joy, hard times and smiles. Looking back, its been a beautiful joyride and am joyed and excited to see what 2012 brings to me.
I wish everyone a Blessed New Year and may this new beginning bring you excitement as well as hope for the year to come.
Love,
Ezreena
