As The Storm Travels By...

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Unions of Knives - Opposite Direction]

My weekend started out shoppin with mum at pyramid on friday. We went there around 12 something. Thank goodness I knew my way around the new wing. So we went to Parkson first.Checked out the bags...My mum got me my Graduation gift!!! A gold colored GUESS!!!!! It's a new arrival and its ever so hottt!..Mum told dad wht she got me n they both agreed that am wayyy to freakin expensive!!..LOL..Then went to see the dresses...didnt see anything decent... So went to check the shoes..and as usual when mummmy and I go out we get SHoES...!!! She got me a funky gold shoe..!! I think am officially shoe obbessed.! Got lunch at Delifrance..The food was good cept they didnt cook my chicken properly n it took forever.Mum n I did catchin up n gossips..hehe...then we went on a dress hunt..went to this real cute botique n they had loadz of dresses...They were super cute..Mum went wild n kept askin me to try on stuff..haha..was there for bout 45 mintues..u get the piccy!..finally got 6 dresses..N my Graduation dress!!!! Seriously its sooo damn cute..! Came home aroun 4..was so effin tired..slept then went to church...

Stayed over my aunt's place for the night and Saturday was a breezy.Went to get more boxes..gosh I seriously am startin to hate this packin thing..then had dinner at Sri Kembangan...they have real good food there btw!..N i had this intersting dish..Paper chicken..they kinda bake it in tracing paper..looks intersting but it was good..lol...Sunday was usual.Went to church and had some activity in church at nite.Lazed around after that.

The rest of the week has been casual.Been kinda lazy to study...I hate it when this lazy pang hits me...*bah*...I seriously procrastinating on my math...N T.Ben had this talk with tht I really have to put some effort into..like bout 2 hrs a day...I freakin hate bondin with my math!!! But I really have to get into this self discipline thing....

Had some drama yesterday nite...It's alwayz one thing or the other....I think it finds me a good victim but am really startin to despise it....Just when things got calmed down n usual..then something drops from the sky and starts back the fire...seriously am soo fckin sick of it!!..For once I just want peace and calmness.After forever my life is back to normal, after those 2 unbearable months. I like the current situation...the way it all is...I seriously dont want anything gettin in the way of tht......I made decisions and am standin by them. Am not changing my mind anytime soon or ever matter of fact...I'm finally happy and for once everything is normal.I'm all good and everything is fine.All I want from you is to leave me alone and let me be. I'm happy and if you really care for me the way u say you do....You would let me be and let me be happy..So do understand and respect my decision......
...And Let Me Live My Life....

I don't really believe in regrets.all my experiences,
Even the ones that didn't turn out the way I wanted them to,
I firmly believe they were all worth it.
-Gilmore Girls-

Behind Every Great Love Is a Great Love Story

[Mood: Reminscing]
[Music: More Than Anyone - Gavin DeGraw]

I'm am a big time lover of chick flicks!One of my all time fav romantic flicks in The Notebook.It didn't premier in theaters here cause it was an Indie flick but it won best kiss on MTV's movie awards 2 years back.It stars Ryan Goosling an Indie actor and Rachel McAdams,she was the head of the plastics in Mean Girls.But she protrays a totally diff character here.It's a love story bout how two teenagers from diff social status fall in love one summer but are separated by her parents because they come from diff worlds.It has a very sweet ending n I tear every time even though I've watched it bout 5 times..lolz...I know thts weird but I cant help it..!! The quotes from this flick is lovely and the chemisty between actors are really hott n cute...I guess I like this soo much cause the teenage love is so adorable and it kinda gives you hope on such things on true love and soulmates.Also it has a special place cause it brings back memories and quotes and means a lotz to me...And Seriously we all could do with some hope sometimes...

" Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They are shooting stars---a spectacular moment of light in the heavens-- fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone"

Allie: [Noah is about to lie down in the street intersection] You're gonna get hit.

Noah: [Looks around for oncoming cars, there aren't any in sight] Uhh, by all the cars?

Allie: What happens if a car comes?
Noah: You die

Noah: I could be fun if you want, pensive, smart, superstitious, brave.. and i could be light on my feet. I could be whatever you want, you just tell me what you want and I'll be that for you.
Allie: you're dumb
Noah: I could be that

Allie: Now, say you're a bird.
Noah: If you're a bird, I'm a bird

"My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you."
-Noah-

"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough."
-Noah-

Allie: Why didn't you write me? Why? It wasn't over for me, I waited for you for seven years. But now it's too late.
Noah: I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year.
Allie: You wrote me?
Noah: Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over

Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Allie: So what?
Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.

Behind every great love is a great story

The Weekend

[Mood: Bored]

[Music: The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars]

The weekend was good.I went for Altered Frequency's concert on Friday at City Harvest. Heard of the band before but never really knew their music.They were pretty good actually..like the hav the whole punkish rock thing goin on. Oh and I found out the drummer is my mum's cousin..haha...small world!...Went with Christine,Shauny,Peter,Daniel and sis. It started at 8 and finished at 10 something.After that we went mamakin at 5 bintang...am not really a fan of the place...Shauny drove there.He has this vintage music collection...lolz...it brings back memories..haha..I had nasi lemak and was chattin with Pete...his so cute la...hehe...finished around 12 somethin...n shauny dear drove us back....we were singin along to Matchbox's Unwell on the wayy backk...lolz...daniel just sat there all blur-ish...tht was fun!

Had yetz another weddin on saturday.This time it was a church member's one.Gf said shes jealous I hav soo many weddings happenin lately...haha..Dad didnt come cause bro was not well n he volutered to babysit.It was okies...they kinda cut a few parts of the service...tht was effin amusin...the reception was such a drag...like each course took freakin forever n I was broed outta my wits.N so much for relyin on my frenz for company...the gf had no credit n I had no idea wht vitz was doin!!!..went home around 11.Came home and watched Private Practice..Its a spin off from Grey's Anatomy about one of the doctors and her like in L.A. And so it is another show am hooked onto!

Sunday's church was usual.I was tired cause of my sleepin disorder n I hardly had any sleep the nite before.Came home stoned n tried to get some sleep but couldnt.So watched tv and then played with my dogs.Btw I hav another dog now...shes labrador n rottweiler mix. But she looks more like a labrador.I'll get pics of them soon. Her name is Candy and my other dog...Chocolate(I named him!..haha..I alwayz wanted to name a dog chocolate chip..from the nancy drew book..) he didnt seem to like her very much at first...I think he was jealous..he gives her this cold stare and looks away when we touch her..lolz...so cute!...but after 2 dayz later they became buddies n were attackin each others tails...adorable lil thingz!....That nite hanged online and the most RANDOM thing happened..I've been chattin with this gurl who is my ex's gf or ex or I don't know what the heck they are..She seems nice and she thinkz am cute!...*BaH*...so we were talkin bout her past n I kinda asked her somethin tht I wasnt suppose to ask or know bout...Then I hav this flash of freakin drama!...I thought the drama left along with the break up...But somehow drama is effin attracted to me and am somehow involved in it again..I was ROFL cause of the bizzareness!...After the whole thing I just sat there with this whole "WTF!!!!"...thing on my mind...*ICKZ*....Hanged online for a bit after that and then hanged on the phone with my dear peverted "Patatic" fren...lolz...*inside joke*...its soo weird cause we've know each other for like 2 yrs now n he didnt know I had a blog...I was like its part of my nick on my msn...N his like I thought tht was some advertisement link.!...His a freakin blur at times!...lolz...The convo ended aroun 4 in the mornin...N thank goodness it was rainin cause I was laughin effin loud n my parents didnt hear..haha..I heart late nite/ early mornin convoz!!!

Well itz a new week..time is runnin by so freakin fast!...I'm tryin to catch up with it these dayz..

Here are some pics from the concert n mamkin session from Pete's phone...its kinda blurish though..:

As The Roads Reaches Its CrossRoads

[Mood: Emo]
[Music: Within Temptation - Memories]

I sit here reminiscing,

Memories that seem like yesterday,

Here I stand with all that I've done,

A sad tale,

Broken hearts and sorrow

Heartbreak hits every soul,

But I never knew I would be one of its victims,

Time heals everything,

I'm starting to question that very statement,

Maybe a gateaway will do me good,

Or a pen and a paper,

To pen down all that is is my heart,

To fill the pages with my unbearable thoughts,

I'm longing for a break through,

And just when I think am near to the point of sanity,

Those thoughts catch up to me and am right where I started,

I need an escape route,

But I really can't seem to find the way,

My thoughts are all over the place,

I have no idea what seems to be the way anymore,

Silent whispers and silent tears,

The hidden scars are on the road to healing,

Not too much but the right amount to keep me going,

The roads have reached its crossroads,

And I've lost the map along the way

What am I suppose to do now?

Official Caramel Lover..!

[Mood: Thrilled]
[Music: Kat Deluna - Whine Up ft. Elephant Man]

I finally got my Oversized shades at Vincci!!!!!!....Am Absolutely Thrilled!!

Went shoppin at 2 new shoppin malls..The Pavillion and The Garden..N They're both ever so similar!

My leg officially died on Sunday

Walkin in Mid Valley in killer heels is an effin big NO-NO

Checkin out A cute American punk rock boy is alwayz fun! Especially when he knows ur checkin him out and poses on the wall even more just cause he knows his HoTt...haha

I have yetz to find the perfect graduation dress

I'm buggin my parents for a GUESS handbag for Grad gift and I think they're lookin for one but don't want me to know bout it...

Mum and Daddy are amusin when they talk bout the same subject but aren't exactly on the same page....Example:
Dad: You know you keep goin around with this GUESS stuff and someone's gonna kidnap you one day...
Me: Oh gosh...you're just usin tht as an excuse not to get me more stuff..n dont be weird daddy!
Mum: *Listens*....Dear just get them more GUESS stuff when you go to the U.S..cause the stores there seem to have more choice there.
Dad: WhT????...*confused*
Me: *Squels in joy*.....I Love u mummy!
You get the piccy....LOL!..My parents are SimPLY amusin!

My Guy best fren thinks I spend too much time in front of the camera...

I spend half my day sms-isn my gf now dayz >3

Currently cravin for Caramel!!!

I'm gonna go deal with Computer Literacy

I'm done with Grey's Anatomy Season 3!!!!!!!.....The feelin of accomplishment lingerz...!

I spend wayyy to much time online these dayz

My biology clock is messed up

I love my muscle relaxant pillss..They keep my relaxed n shut my thoughts up when they get overboard...I want more!!...

L.O.V.E

I Am Who I Am; Your Approval Is Not Desired Or Required!

[Mood: Thoughful]
[Music: Michelle Featherstone - Go On My Child]

Judge: to form an opinion about through careful weighing of evidence

This is what it says in the Webster Dictionary. But people seem to have lost the meaning of "to judge" There isnt any careful weighing of evidence or any of that such. They just grasp something and form a statement and their mind is set.

I've never really been judged throughout my life. There were the occasional times but there were really countable. And they never have affected me anyways. The other day as I was speaking to someone and as our conversation went on...I was hit by the vibe of judgement real hard. Bad enough to make me tear. This has never ever happened to me before. I just sat on my bed in shock and I felt so hurt and angry. As I lay in on my pillow, so much ran through my mind. And at that moment I felt regret slowly creepin its way.Thank Goodness I feel asleep soon enough.I really can't afford regret at this moment.Especially not now! Just when I feel am fallin into place and stability is here.

I know I've made mistakes but no one has the right to judge an individual! So yeah maybe I should have known better and all that. But its not that this doesn't happen to people.Its especially when your young that you fall short the most.Some fall lower than others but it doesnt mean they're a lesser person.At times the one that falls more,may seem stronger and smarter in situations. You just never really know actually.

I know it's so easy to form judgemental statements but when you do so.Do be considerate.Do you want another to do that to you? To label you? To make you seem something you're not? To have this mind set bout you and think bout you that way all the time? So do be position yourself in the other's shoes before making up your mind on a statement....Do take the time and give people a chance...!

People are gonna talk about you....
Especially when they envy you and the life you live,
Let them,
You affeted their lives but They didnt Affect Yours!

Exercising Has Never Been My Thing...EVER!

[Mood: Happy]
[Music: Signal Fire - Snow Patrol]

The after effects of a healthy lifestyle with exercise : Excruciating Pain!!!

I'm been walking around with a freakin limp all weekend!! Whatmore was I had to go for a family wedding with it. Seriously I effin love weddings!! It was my mum's cousin's wedding.I love the dressing part most of all (:P).....And the whole vibe is just real nice...When I sit there n just observe it all..It kinda gives you hope that there are good things in life and there is such thing as Love.Even through all the messed up part of life...It shows you that there are things to look after for.So yeah....I had fun.Then there were the usual relatives with the whole "Wow you've grown so much" kinda thing.I always find tht amusin...I have no effin idea why!....But the unfortunate part was those weird/pitiful stares I got.....You know the kind that says "Shes so young but poor thing shes a limp" kinda thing...*sheesh*...It was such am embrassment!!...N I was usin mummy as a camofluge but it didnt quite work...cause there were those ppl tht stare to hard n they noticed...It wasnt exactly fun explanin the story bout 10 times!...How I wish I could say I sprained my leg while runnin for a cross country marathon for 3 dayz or somethin...at least tht would have sounded cool!!!!

Besides all that...Its been a rather ordinary week.I got a hair cut and its something a lil diff.Not shorter but just more layers..haha...N the bets news ever...*drum roll plez*......I'm GRADUATIN tis yr!!!!!!...Am super happy cause its another New Year Resolution fulfilled!!!!....*Shrills****

Well am gonna go celebrate with my one of my best frenz...HERSHEY!

~LA LA!

P.S : I have a phobia to do Computer Literacy cause I sat doin it for 2 hrs n couldnt walk after tht.....!....N I have no idea how to get over it...!

It's All About The Shoes Honey..!

[Mood: Gleeful]
[Music: Rihanna ft Neyo - Hate That I Love You]

My weekend was spent shoppin!!...And yeah it was all about shoes!

On Saturday headed to KLCC cause dad wanted to check the tv he wants to get for our new place.Its some sony plasma tv that's 52".It looks soo cool and it'll be wonderful to watch Lord of the Rings on it! I saw this real cute mp4 player and was buggin dad for it.He said he might consider..at least its better than a no..haha.Went window shoppin, was on a mission to look for my oversized shades.So I went back to Girlz but couldnt find any.I went lookin around but there wasnt anything I liked.So went to Nose instead and got a pair of heels.Its purpleish and has this gold chain on it.Itz real prettty!! Had dinner and headed home.

On Sunday went to Pyramid 2 with my aunt.This time I was determined to get my hoop earings.Checked out a few places and finally got it..!!!! I got them in three diff sizes.Then back to Nose again and I FINALLY got my long wanted barbie shoes! Itz pink with killer heels and a ribbon at the back.Its soooe ffin cute.Well so far I've gotten 3 pairs of shoes in a week.I have a weird obession with them these dayz tht its kinda disturbin...*bah*....Had lunch at Secret Recipe.I had lemon cheese cake this time and a caramel bleended.I < 3 anything with caramel..!!

Stayed over at my aunts on Sunday.I watched "The Zodiac".It stares Jake Gyllenhael and Mark Ruffalo.It's bout this serial murder that was never really solves.It was pretty intersting since am into mystery.The "Bourne Ultimatum" was pretty.Its best you watch the first two movies from the series cause its kinda the conclusion and you maybe blur on this. Well I just got done with tuition and its good to feel rejuvated to study back again.I've been hit by the lazy pang for the last two weeks...*ickz*...Thank goodness thats gone!

Ex boyfriends are like an old pair of shoes,
You know that you don't need them anymore,
But you don't have the guts to get rid of them.