The Year That Was

[Mood: Thoughtful]
[Music: Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love]

It's New Year's Eve and am in reminscing mode.I can't believe a year has passed by ever so fast.It seems like I just celebrated the New Year of 07.

This year I would say has been a very educational year for me.I've learned sooo much and grown.And the whole process has not been easy on me.I mean I've gone through everything from depression to a break down.Lost myself along the way and cried a river.But am grateful for it all in a way.

My challenges started from June onwards.Startin with the break up and all.That was my lowest point this year.But am grateful for the endless support from the people I love.And I've learned to lean on myself sometimes.Guess emotional independence kicked in this year.I learned tht ppl dont change no matter how much you sacrifce n give.They are who they are.They may put this temporary mask for a while but the deep down the core never changes.Also I found out tht good things don't come immediately after a bad thing...sometimes horrible things come after bad things just to see how you withstand.I was put through tht as well.For a while I kinda lost hope on good things as well...I'm hopin to find tht this new year.

I learned tht ppl aren't always wht they seem.Even the closest fren can feel differently for you and only show one side of how they feel for you.Sometimes frenship is just a one side thing and *frenz forver* doesnt really mean forver.But I learned tht the phrase "Life doesn't give you the people you want. it gives you the people you need to help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you; to make you into the person you were meant to be" is sooo true.I guess these ppl were sent to me to make me who I am today.

Resolutions I've completed this yr:

1.Study Really Really Hard(Diddn't feel like it though..hehe0
2.Graduate!!(I can't believe I did it)
3.Makin a Difference In Someone's Life(A person told me this..I was sooo touched by it)

Well I'm proud I accoplished a couple of things this yr.It was been a crazy roller coaster ride.Well I know it's gonna be a start of a new adventure from here on.

~Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you,They're supposed to help you discover who you are~

The Orginal Threesome!

[Mood: Cheeky]
[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Outta My Head]

Met up with Esther and Jason on Wednesday.They both just flew down from the land down under.Jason flew in last week and esther this monday.Gosh hav I missed them both!! But its great tht we've manage to keep in contact.It did feel like we've been apart so we've manage to keep each other updated bout whts happenin in our lives

I went to pyramid at 2 something.Christine met with me first and then we saw the Ben's.Chatted with them n then Esther showed.Jason came an hour later..haha...he was suppose 2 be there first! We had lunch at Uncle Lim's cause Esther couldnt take anymore western food..lol..catched up and then we decided to check up whts on theater...We decided to watch HeartBreak Kid since the only other choice is Alvin and the Chipmunks.Esther and Jason wanted to get some presents.So we went to find kids clothing toys and decided hav fun with the baby hats..haha

Got some gifts and then we saw this super loong line for J Co doughnuts...Christine was tellin us how wonderful it is so we decided to join the line...guess while chattin we didnt realize time go by.The doughnuts looks soo pretty!

They were ABSOLUTELY delicious! Then high sugar intake lead to a lil camwhorin session

Then Esther left cause she had to go somewhere.So Jason,me and Christine watched the movie.It was rather amusin n sick funny..haha...Jason was like I told we should hav watched Alvin and the Chipmunks..!.We had a drink at A&W,then shopped for more gifts.I called daddy to get me n this is how convo went

Daddy: Can't pick u up la..we're in klang havin dinner

Me: But the mall is closin!!!

Mum:*yellin behind*...we're enjoyin hazelnut coffee n fruitcake in front of the christmas tree n your missin out dear!!

Me: That doesnt sound like klang *ish*

Dad: Why should I pick u up?

Me: Cause you know u luv me!!

Dad: I'll pick u up in 10 minutes

Me: *beams*..kies!!

That line alwayz works...LOL...alwayz!!...so he came n got me 5 minutes after Jason.I had a spenldid time with them!!! Was sooo worn out n whtmore there was service the next day.So I was entertainin my neighbours with my organ playin at 12am..lol...My neighbours luv me!

~XoXo~

A Very Merry Christmas!

[Mood: Joyous]
[Music: Jessica Simpson ft Ashlee Simpson - Drummer Boy]

Itz my fav time of the year...Christmas!!!! I love everything bout it.The cookies,gifts,shoppin,fruit cakes,turkey,crowds,gingerbread man,wine and loadz more. Am a totaly tradition person and a very strict one at tht!My family trado starts on the 24th where we hav a family meal.Open presents after midnight and frenz n family over on christmas day.On the 26th we head to my grandparents in seremban.Followed by meetin with family from my mum's side. I really enjoy the family time and the atmosphere of it all.

Helped mum out in the kitchen yesterday..havent done tht in a long time...Mum was happy tht I had reformed this yr...hehe...Dinner was fun and then had service after tht...Came home aroun 1,open gifts then...We'll this yr my gifts included dressed from my aunt and grandma and from my parents...*jeng jeng jeng*...A Limited Edition GUESS BAG!!!!!!!...I was literary screamning away!!!!!!...hahaha..Enjoyed coffee and mum's fruit cake after tht.I woke up aroun 11.Dad was practically bangin on my door.He was like "Santa Claus got you another GUESS bag but u missed it"...LOL...haha..Seriously I never believed in santa claus even as a kid.I was wayyy smarter then tht! (:P)

It hasn't been a smooth ride this yr but am lookin past it all and am thankful for things I have.This season am thankful for love am surrounded by and the joy n peace I have.Truly I believe am blessed!

Merry Christmas to All!!!!!
Hope you have blessed with loadz of love,peace and joy this season
Have a rockin one!
-Loadz of Love-
~XoXoXoXo~

The Passin Dayz

[Mood: Daydream]
[Music: What Goes Around..Comes Around - Justin Timberlake]

So the other day Daniel yee decided to pop by without notice...haha...my maid came up and said a fren of urs is here...I thot who in the world...He showed up with a college fren of his.Nice guy..we chatted online n all.Went to kopitiam..they had exams comin up and all.So did tiy bit of work.While me and his fren were chattin,he was watchin movies on the guy's laptopWe hanged there the whole evenin cause it was rainin crazily...haha...They dropped us home arou five.

Well the rest of the week was spent goin out to Subang Parada or practices.Yes I went to subang parade 3 times last week.Do not ask me why but we did.First was on Sunday,then on Wednesday and on Thursday.Mum wanted to get something..am not quite sure wht though.I got another dress.Its sooo freakin quite.It has this whole 70's looks..! Spurgled on it...Itz 200..haha..but totally worth it!

I've been spendin loadz of time in the malls lately.It been Ikano and the Curve a lot lately as well.It's been shoppin n eat loadz..haha..this is wht Christmas does to ya..haha.So Jason is down n he drops by with Samuel.We hav bunch.Thts cause we were suppose 2 meet at pyramid but i overslept n woke up at noon.Went to a mamak n catched up.It was great seein him again after the longest of time.My christmas party at church was the next day.I was nervous bout the dance but it went real well.The kids were so excited bout it n did well.I had great time workin with them...hehe..it was fun n it felt tht I did a good deed..!!

Am gonna go bum aroun somemore.Happy Holz ya'll!!

The Continous Storm

[Mood: Upset]
[Music: I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance]

I have no idea what is it.The rain clouds decided to bring along all its bad luck along or just plain bad karma I suppose....I think Ppl decided that I haven't been hurt enough already for this year.I'm tryin 2 put it all behind me and be happy with whats before me.But its not easy as it sounds..

First I had to deal with the whole I can't be frenz with you no longer cause we're different material wise.WTH! is that suppose 2 mean..I mean after all this years and after all we've been through.You cant just say tht and say you wanna stay away from me....U know the truth is I actually teared after hearin that.I mean we were sooo close.She was like a sister to me and it hurts like hell when you say shit like tht and the best part of it all is tht u sound so cool with it.One fine day you say "u know why I dont sms u much anymore thts cause we're different"And when asked wht kinda difference,you giv me bullshit answers.And wht do u expect me say..."Oh yea cool..so Goodbye n cya"....Am not kinda person!I cant get ppl outta my life just like tht...especially someone so close.But here's the truth and as hard as it is for me I know its the way it should be ..if I didnt mean as much to you as you did 2 me..And our friendship didnt matter one single bit to you...You so damn well dont deserve my friendship!


And when that's done with...Then there's the "I think its cool 2 say something to everyone cause I know it will hurt you" crap.Its really amazing how a person can look and seem so very kind and decent on the outside and be so cruel and cold deep down.I somehow knew you weren't a nice person but then there I went again refusin to listen to my concious...*sheesh*.....I was really hurt.Why would a person do such a thing? How can a person be so cruel? Do you really lack tht much braincells!! I was really shocked,hurt and super mad at the same time.Well first I just sat in a daydream..ventin out the shock for a while and then the hurt poured out and finally the mad kicked in along with a whole lot of screamin along with it...the worst part of it all...*jeng jeng*...I hav to see this person soon enough!!...*bah*..gosh do I feel like drivin a bullet through his head!..I know it sounds effin violent but I really cant help it...Am mad and hurt at the same time!


It's been one thing after the other constantly lately.But I'm learnin to accept tht bad things happen and sometimes all at once and you have to learn to accept them and just try your best get past them all.You can't sit and mop bout it nor can you sit and curse at the world.All you can do is suck it all in,learn from them and move on.And thats exactly wht am doin....!

Enchanted

[Mood: Dreamy]
[Music:Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood]

He has shiny blonde hair and striking blue eyes.He mets you and you realize you hav so much in common...He whisks you away into the sunset and you live...HAPPILY EVER AFTER..!

We were practically fed with this kinda stories as a kid.Mostly thankz to Disney...and in our minds there was this picture..when the time was right..they will be a happy ever after.But as we got older...all of a sudden reality hits and u experience heartache,pain and disappointments...n u realize after a while there isnt such a thing as a happily ever after...all those stories were a mere illusion that we were suppose to keep or aim for but its near to impossible in the world these dayz.

Watchin Enchanted made me come up with this thought.I havent watched this kinda flicks for a looongest of time now.Now at 17,I realized how beautiful that dream seemed.Now its something you know will happen if the stars are in perfect alignment,fate lovez u and a shooting star falls at your feet...haha...ok so maybe am overexaggerating but you really cant blame me.I've seen too many heartbreaks,isappointments and cried myself to sleep wayy too many times...tht beautiful picture seems kinda impossible to me lately..*bah*..

Well watching tht flick kinda made me smile for tht moment.I realized how I use to so assurinly know am gonna get my happily ever after..I guess thats wht disney does.It gives u hope and something to look forward 2....The movie wasa classic fairy tale with a pinch of the modern world.The songs wer cute and Patrick Dempsy made it wayyyy better.Gosh I have this gigantic crush on him!!!...His super cute!!!..The lead actress did a good work from the transformation from cartoon to real life as well..I really enjoyed the flick!..

Here's the reason why I wanted to watch Enchanted sooo much!!...Isn't he incredibly hottt!

Patrick Dempsey in Grey's Anatomy as Derek Shepherd

His sooooo SEXY!

The Two Week's Updates

I know I've been kinda of a bum n not updatin..haha...but heres a recap of the last two weeks...with piccys!!...

Sunday was usual at church..Went to the Ikano and the Curve...seriously the curve looks soooo chrismasy!...the lights n trees..hehe...got more christmas deco at ikea..its family trado..n dad got ever more candles..after tht went to the Curve and had dinner..the bbq chicken was real good!..

The pretty lights..!

Mum n dad

I hav no idea wht my bro is tryin 2 do

Mummy n I!

On Wednesday I started with dance pratice at church.My christmas alwayz starts with this tradition. It does take time and loadz of energy and a serious amount of patience but I really enjoy it and it makes me happy to see the kidz enjoyin...After tht had lunch with my uncle n aunt...then mum,aunt,sis and I headed to Summit.We went to Secret Recipe and pigged out..lolz..we had cakes and caramel blend...seriously there is such a thing as over caramelization!..I was sufferin from sugar rush after tht..haha.

The effect of caramelization..!

I absolutely adore the caramel blend..!

On thursday went to K.L n was there till bout evening.Came back by bus and it was rainin crazilyy..came home all wet..haha..it was fun..Went to cell tht nite..Kc came along..went to Tanjong after tht..came home 12 somethin..stayed up till 2 n then wake up at 5.Was leavin to Ipoh for a short holz..slept mostly throughout the drive..reched there aroun 10 something.Had dim sum for breakie n then went to the water park there.Gosh seriously the surroundings is just lovely.Checked in the hotel aroun 6,had a nap n then went for dinner.I just lovee goin to Ipoh for the popiah...haha..crashed aroun 1 somethin after watchin some weird malaysian reality tv show...

Had breakfast at the hotel and then left to KL.Reached home,onlined/unpacked...multitaskin is alwayz an adventure...went to Hannah's house warmin.They had good food btw.Turkey n fruit cake...felt so in the season!..loadz of ppl from skool came..camwhored a while n then watched Russel Peters after tht...Seriously the guyy is such an ass !!..like wht he says his says is soo very true..he really has an observant eye!..haha

After church left to MidValley.Sis wasnt well n mum went elsewhere with aunt.So it was just me,bro n daddy.The deco is loveeely!..went to MPH to look for the carol book n it seems it hasnt arrived..then wth! put it on the pamphlet..*bah*..had lunch at some cafe...then I got a cute top from FOS....came home n slept...chilled for pretty much the rest of the day...

The rest of the week was a bore...Had more dance practice n all...On wednesday went to Ikano..current new fav hang out spot...shopped!!..I got more shoes n oversized shades...I'm runnin out of space for my shoes...*bah*..N I need more diff sorta shades...haha..spent pretty much the whole day there....was super worn out...

That's pretty much it...its gonna be crazily busy from now on.Am excited!

Currently down with the flu

*ickz*

And am also voiceless...

My odd sign language rockz!

~XoXo~