You made my day...

[Mood:Glad]

[Music:Backstreet Boys - Safest Place To Hide]

Miracles do happen,

All you have to do is to believe,

When you least expect something to happen,it happens,

When you feel its never gonna be the same again,

You're somehow proved wrong.

I'm glad you've decided to forgive me,

Cause you're have no idea how happy you made me,

For I feel totally relieved now....

But I just want you to know that I mean this....

I'm really sorry darlin'.....

Now am standing in the cold......

[Mood: Upset]
[Music: Backstreet Boys - Siberia]

For all times for ego to take over,
This time theres no one else to blame....
How could I have lied to you?

I've alwayz cared about you,
And I'll alwayz have your back,
Not speakin to you kills me,
And you ignoring me,drowns me with guilt.

I've never said 'I love you" wihout meaning it,
But why did I pretend??
Am still trying to figure that outz....

I've alwayz feared telling someone the way I feel,
Fear takes over just by thinking about it,
All wounds start hurting again,
And that's when I decide to pretend.

As I held on to my covers,
And closed my eyes,
All the thoughts of you flowed through me,
I cligged onto my pillow as tears flowed from my eyes,
And I cried myself softly to sleep,
Hoping that this will turn out to be a bitter nightmare.....

Survey/Quiz

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Beautifully Broken

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Ashlee Simpson - Beautifully Broken]

After all I've been through,

Why haven't I learned,

Am beautifully broken....

Am back to where I started,

Yet again....

Listen to heart,

Alwayz....

Thts wht I've just learned.

I've gone through much this year,

And I've learned alwayz to pick myself up,

To go on with the scars,

To carry them around without showin them.....

Theres beauty in everything,even in a broken heart,its'll just take time to see it...

Don't Try this.....

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Danial Powter - Bad Day]

You've alwayz been my shoulder to cry on and to lean on
And I have no idea how you can make me laugh when am in tears,
I can't lose you,
For I don't know what I will become of me if I do,
So hurting you is out of the picture.
The scars you've left still hurt,
And I think the many times I've hurt you still sting,
I regret the day I left your side,
For I left a part of me with you,
And tht was one of my biggest mistake,
Why do you alwayz hide the way you feel?
I wanna see you the way you see me,

I thought my heart would have an answer for this,
But I think this is just far too diffult,

You're different from the other,
Your words captivate me and drown me at the same time,
I have come down an unknown road and there seems no way back,
There are no detours or shortcuts,
This time am real sure....
Don't catch me as I fall,For am falling too fast....

Hanginz outz the unusual way...

[Mood: Happy]

[Music: Howie Day - Collide]

Yesterday was super fun..in the morning had this field trip to th Aquatic at KLCC.We went there with the train and it was really funny cause we were so loud in there,everyone kept starin at us like we were a bunch of pyshos...lol....hanged in the Aquaria for like 45 minutes...the fishes were really intersting and all....after tht everyone went window shoppin...Christine,Esther and I were hangin out the whole time and we kept laughing so much tht every shop we went to,we got a whole load of stares.........it was really hilarious...we went into GUESS,Converse,FCUK...and a few others....just browsing around......after tht we had lunch at Secret Recipe.........later a few others planned to go to Denise's house and I decided to tag along.....so like 15 of us pilled into her van and went there.It was a really funny sight cause everyone was sitting on each others lap and Asha and I kept takin photos and all...hahaha....we hanged at her house for like an hour or two.....and I reached home at about 6 in the evening....

Had a bath and hanged on line after tht,and then I decided to get on the phone with a fren...which lasted for nearly an hour...lolz....tht was about it...it was one hell of a day...and I had loadz of fun.........~XoXo~

Heres the group pic at the train station.....am the seventh person from the left to right...by Asha,in front of Christine...

Totally Chocolately

[Mood: Full]

[Music: My Chemical Romance - Helena]

When I feel depressed,its chocolate I go 2.I just ate a whole bar.......Damn........I feel totally guilty now. *siGh*

My mum watched a little of "One Tree Hill" 2day and decide tht today is the last time I'm ever gonna watch it.She said tht am only 15 and I shouldnt watch stuff about high skool kidz goin around havin sex and babies......fuck.....thts like my most favourite tv show ever...I've never been so obbssed with a show like this before.....my mum is just wayy too fussy....Thank God I can download epsiodes....or else I don't know wht I'll do......I feel so damn chocolately rite now...must be the chocolate latte.....I feel like gettin drunk 2 nite and I have no idea why.......ok maybe I have a slight idea why

I alwayz put myself in fucked up messed and I alwayz have no idea how 2 get out.....I need to getaway.....to somewhere far,far away.....I think the chocolate is takin effect....cause am fuckin crappin here....am gonna do some maths homework now.....Nit3ZzzZZzzZZ.....

I'm leavin...and this time it may be for good..

[Mood:Tired/bored]

[Music: Story of the Year - Sidewalks]

"I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth."

I think ppl like seeing my reactions when am hurt, so tht may be why they like hurting me a lot.I don't really show much emotion at times.So I think its thrilling 2 see me cry......

I have come down to the point where I can't think straight anymore and nothing I do seems worth it.

I'm gonna go pack and start walking now.For I've plan to go far far away from you.I seriesly can't take it anymore.I've tried to be patient and understanding but nothing seems to work.Dragging me in circles also, have only been driving me crazy.So am gonna leave now and this time it may be for good......

Round and round,here we go again

[Mood: Blurry]

[Music: N'sync - This I Promise You]

Well a few dayz back I thought I knew what I wanted and then I didnt,

and now I think I know again...damn...all this crazyness just gotta stop and I hope soon.

When we are faced with choices in life,we alwayz have 2 choice the right ones cause they'll end up effecting us,moulding us to wht we will become.

I've been through a lot this last couple of dayz and its been mad.

One part of me ones to just have fun,go around..... jumping the words"Whtever will be,will be" and the other side of me keeps saying "Listen to your heart,it will show you the way"

I don't want to hurt anyone,I really dont.I don't want to lose anyone either.But curiosity confuses me and am afraid will lead me to the wrong path.

I know wht I want but I do wander,is having too much wrong,will it mess me up.

It seems so harmless.Kinda of right in a screwed up way.

If I explain my situation to someone,they'll say the right path is so clear.

Its rite before my eyes,I know,but from here,its wht I choose......

My sunshines all around...why cant you see??

[Mood:Crazy]

[Music: Backstreet Boys - Climbing the Walls]

I wanna be the only one,

Is that too much to ask,

I want you 2 be mine,

My one and only.

Have you just decided to surrender?

After all the shit that you've gone through,

Did you just decided I was the one that was gonna save you?

Didn't I tell you this would happen babe.

Am the physco going out of control,

And there doesnt seem to be an end to this road.

Look out your window,

And you'll find my sunshine all around,

You drive me crazy and you make me feel speacial at the same time,

You screwed up idiot.

I've become undiscovered again,

I didn't do anything right than,

And I feel am making mistakes yet again,

But why do I still want you,

Have I gone mad?