The City Lights Burn

[Mood: Emo-ing]
[Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay(I Pomise)]

I'm tired of dropping my guard too fast,

Bleeding for something that refuses to last...

11:11 Is My Favorite Number, But It Has Yet To Show Me Why

[Mood: Upset]

[Music: Jimmy Eat World - May Angels Lead You In]

It’s those cold days that get to the soul,
It’s when those hurtful words run deep,
And scar the heart,
Tired of the pain,
Can’t seem to find the tears,
Wanting to be set free,
But held back by consequence of a regret,
So much for experience,
Thought the day was near,
But now it seems like eternity,
There’s so much a heart can take,
The memories are like a mixtape,
They play me to sleep,
Wanting to smile again,
But oh such horrible mistakes have been made,
It’s sad that we can’t take back time,
Would you please set me free?
Throw away this misery and make me laugh,
But don’t come too close,
I’d rather not have you near the heart,
This distance is good,
The loneliness does kill though,
My pride is broken,
All for the sake of love,
Vulnerable,
For far too long,
What wasted days,
Ignorance should have been born much before the time,
I was your miracle,
Its just sad that you didn’t see that,
I cherish the days we hoped,
And try to get rid of that bitterness,
But I rather be left out in the cold,
Then to drown in all this ache.

It's All About The Wordplay

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

Layer One
Name: Ezreena
Birth date: March 26, 1990
Birthplace: Malaysia,
Location: Malaysia
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Hair Color: Black
Height: 4 ish I think
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Aries
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Layer Two
The shoes you wore today: None
Your weakness: Procrastinating
Your fears: End of the world
Your perfect pizza: BBQ chicken with extra cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve: Write a book
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Layer Three
Your most overused phrase on MSN: Heyyaz
Your first waking thoughts: Please dont wake me up nowz
Your best physical feature: My eyes
Your most missed memory: Being all carefree when I was 5
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Layer Four
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McD's
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Give me CONVERSE baby!!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
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Layer Five
Smoke: Nopez
Cuss: Yea
Sing: Yup
Take a shower everyday: Yea
Do you think you've been in love: Yeah
Want to go to college: Yes
Like high school: Yea
Want to get married: Yea
Believe in yourself: Most of the time
Get motion sickness: Nada
Think you're attractive: Sorta
Think you're a health freak: Nopez
Get along with your parent(s): Yes
Like thunderstorms: Not really
Play an instrument: The organ..dont ask why..
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Layer Six
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: Yup
Smoked: No
Done a drug: Nopez
Kissed: Yea
Gone on a date: Yea
Gone to a party: Nope
Gone to the mall: Yup
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
Eaten sushi: Nada
Been on stage: Yup
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Nopez
Made homeade cookies: Nope
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: Nopez
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Layer Seven
Ever....
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nopez
If so, was it mixed company: ...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
Been caught "doing something" : I don't think so
Been called a tease: Nope
Gotten beaten up: No
Shoplifted: Nope
Changed who you were to fit in: Yea but not to fit in
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Layer Eight
Age you hope to be married: 24 or 25
Numbers and Names of Children: 2 or 3.Lalaine,Racquel,Ryan
Describe your Dream Wedding: It would take up too much space
How do you want to die: In my sleep.
Where you want to go to college: Monash
What do you want to be when you grow up: A impactive person
What country would you most like to visit: Spain
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Layer Nine
Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
Number of CDs that I own: Lost count
Number of piercing: 2 and cravin for more!!
Number of tattoos: Nada
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Once
Number of scars on my body: 2 or 3
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few

-Loadz of Love-

Surviving Those Cold Dayz

[Mood: Thoughtful]

[Music: Susie Suh - Recognition]

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.And, of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads.But, once in a while, people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in.Or to give someone a second chance.Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.Because, it's only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are.And, it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.
-Lucas-
{One Tree Hill}

Life isnt a destination,

Its a journey we all come upon unexpected curves& turning points.

Everything that happens to us shapes who we are becoming.

& In the adventure of each day, we discover the important things in life & why they're important.

Lights Will Guide You Home

[Mood: Daydreamin]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - Falling Down]

First day of skool still do give me butterflies.I have no idea why but they just do.I was nervous in the car but calmed down when I reached skool grounds.The classes are the same and thank God I have the same teacher.Not many new students this year so I didn't have to start learning new names.Did some math but I was occupied with my phone for the whole day.I was sms-ing and dealin with this rather large drama ad my darlin gf was my shoulder to cling on while Eddy was tryin to cheer me up the whole time with Abel tryin to give advice whenever he could and tellin me I could borrow his shoulder for the day..lolz.I missed Vitz a lot tht day!! I was pretty much upset for the whole time and was not in the mood to watch "King Kong".It's family tradition that we watch a dvd,have dinner or do something as a family on fridayz.Hanged on the phone even more and everything was fixed by that nite and it's good now.

The rest of my weekend was sorta of a bore.Mostly I spent time on the phone or online.The internet sorta suxs rite now cause I can't seem to download anything,just that it better be fixed by Jan 17 or I'll be really mad! OTH is coming back darlins!!!

My year is startin out pretty well but am still procrastinating.Will work on that soon or I'm gonna be stuck in high skool for the rest of my life.I NEED to study.

Its not who you spend the most time with,
Its who you have the best memories with.