Randomness

[Mood: Sleepy]
[Music: J.Lo - Jenny From The Block]

It's been a long week and its gonna be that wayy for a couple of weeks more.I've got loadz of skool work and am slightly procrastinating.Which is effin not good! Heres a few highlights of the week:
-Spent an hour plus on the phone.That was definately fun!
-Watched "Monster House" which wasn't too bad for an animation.Not the greatest but didn't suck big time.
-Was totally bored and watched "Jersey Gurl" on Cd.Sweet story.Probably the 3rd time watchin it.
-Had lunch at Chilli's on Sunday.Tacos make me happy! Really....

That's bout it...*BAH*

Here's a long survey:
Name Ezreena
Nick Name(s) Reena,Ren
Birthday 26/3/90
Height Not sure
Hair Color Black
Hair Length Longer than shoulder
Eye Color Black
Birth Place K.L
Current Location K.L
Zodiac Sign Aries
Clothing Style Dependin on my mood
Do you wear make up? Yeah,eyeliner and lipgloss!
Does anybody you know think you're emo? Not really
Do you have any tattoos? No
Do you want any tattoos? If so, where? Maybe a butterfly on my ankle or L.O.V.E on my wrist
Do you wear hats? Sometimes
Do you drink? Nope
Do you swear? Yeah
Do you smoke? Nada
Have you ever done drugs? Nope
Have you ever drank? Does wine count?
Have you ever been drunk? Nope
Have you ever barfed from drinking too much? No
Would you ever try a cigarette? Not sure
Have you ever tried a cigarette? Maybe(:P)
What day is it? Monday
What's your favorite day of the week? Friday and Saturday
Are you single/taken? Single
Do you like anybody? If so, who? Perhaps(:P)
Do you want to get married? Yea
Do you want to have kids? Yup
Do you have a job? If so, what? Nope
Do you have any pets? Nah
How many computers are in your house right now? One
Are you on a lap top right now? Yea
Are there any laptops in your house right now? Yup
When's the last time you were asked out? A few dayz back
When's the last time you realized/thought for sure somebody likes you? umm...
Do you enjoy single or group dates more? Single
Do you like Starbucks? Yup,Love it!
Do you consider yourself High-Maitenence? Sorta off
Have you ever been called a slut? Nope
Have you ever been beaten up? No

Back To The Random/Sweetness...

Do you like going to the beach? Love it!!!!!
Have you been out of country? Yup
If so, how many times? Bout four
How many states have you been too? Quite a few
How many times have you moved? Never
Do you watch MTV? Yup
Who knows you better;; your friends or your family? Both

Friends

Who's your "best friend"? Actually I have best frenZzZ
Who do you talk to most on the phone? Kc
Who have you known longest? Don't really remember
Who do you miss most, if any? Jason
Who's the friendliest? Christine
Who knows you best? My homies!
Who can make you smile no matter what? Kc,Vitz,Esther and Christine
Who do you get in the most fights with? No one
Who do you get along best with? All of them
Who has the nicest house? Not sure,they all have nice houses..lolz

"The Last"

who IMed you? Jay
Thing you ate? Gum
Thing you drank? Apple Juice
Clothing Item you bought? A pair of sandals
Coffee Drink you've had? Coffee
Would You rather eat a snickers or hersheys bar? Hershey!!
What was the last movie you watched? Jersey Girl
What are you listening to? J Lo- Jenny From The Block
Do you have Cable for your TV? Yupz
Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really
Who do you think is thinking about you right now? Not sure
What color is your room? Purple Pinkish
Why did you take this survey? Fuckin boredom

An open heart is suicide in my philosphy

[Mood: Emo]

[Music: Evanescence - Going Under]

Stuck at this very moment,

Something does not feel right,

I've never really took time,

To listen to my heart,

Let it have a say in all this,

And as I sit quietly,

Trying to hear,

In the silence,

Am hoping for the truth,

Even its something I don't wanna know,

Cause sometimes the truth,

Is the last thing thing you want to hear.

Take it back, take it all back now

The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,

I miss that now

I can't try any harder than I do

All the reasons I gave,

Excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two.

Without pain,

There would be no suffering.

Without suffering, we would never learn from our mistakes.

To make it right - pain && suffering is the key to all windows,

Without it there is no way of life.

Yes I do know how it feels,

To sit on the edge of your bed,

Listening to a sad song and wishing,

It would all just end.

Toughest parts in life is deciding

When to give up or just try harder.

Photograph momentz!

[Mood: Happy/Sick]

[Music: Snow Patrol - Run]

It's been a while since the last update but thingz have rather uneventful dearies and I've been drowning in skool work is still is actually...Newayz...

Friday I headed to skool after 2 weeks of not being there and notta much has changed,not many ppl attended cause it was the last day and all.Also everyone was studyin even on the last day but we had more privilages to talk and all.Kinda laid back.Had lunch with Kc,Vitz,Shaun and Samuel,tht was fun.We kept crappin a lot as usual,shufflin through bizzare topics..lolz....The teachers took turns at chapel and talked bout the semester.That was bout it.Headed home around 3 somethin and had to get ready for the gatherin thing.

Went to Denise's place rather early like an hour plus but the organizing community was there and I helped out a lil here and there and it's a pity cause us gurlz were unsure on how to fry fries(:P) and the coach who teaches football at skool helped out.The guyz were doin the bbq and then more ppl arrived.Vitz and a few others...hanged with them a while and then ppl started gettin thrown into the pool soon enough.Everyone was screamning and holdin onto the doors..lolz...it was definately a hilarious sight...I was thinkin twice bout goin in and all but if I didn't I was gonna get thrown in with my jeans and all...hanged a lil with Michelle,Esther,Christine and Rachel...and then changed and got thrown in along with Michelle...I don't really remember by whom though...but whenever anyone got out,you were bound to see them back in again..lolz....this turned out to be a more pool party thing then a gatherin actually..haha...had dinner and watched a lil of "Benchwarmers"..seemed reallllly dumb and all...then had some games and talent time..Belinda's dance team won..hanged around for a lil with Vitz and Michelle....said our goodbyes and then headed home.I was freakin tired and all..slept around 3 somethin after a lil bit of onlining.Had a fuckin great time!

Went down to my grandparents place the next morning and was totally worn.Slept and was bored pretty much the whole day and was hooked on this book I was reading.It was from the Redemption series...borrowed it from the gf..it was really intersting and all...came home bout 10 somethin and put the neighrbours to sleep with my organ playing...*BAH*...

Sunday was very very slow.Didn't go nowhere after church and came home and slept somemore.Onlined a lil and filled the gf bout the events on Friday since she couldn't make it and all.Had dinner and read till bout 3 in the morning.

It's been ok lately and am glad I had great weekend.Wonderful time with my frenz..gosh I love you guyz soooo much!!!......Bet you know tht....(:P)

I'm down with the cold and am aching...fuck...goin to go get some sleep...loadz of sleep...*worning outz*

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry;

Show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile

~Hugz~

Te Busque(I looked for you)

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Nelly Furtado ft. Juanes - Te Busque]

Dayz are going by,
So fast that I can't seem to hold onto much,
Being forced to grow up,
That I can't seem to have time to sit down and breath in moments,
Havin to make decisions and letting go,
Never really thought that I would have to come to this very day,
But I gotta catch up with these times,
Holdin dear to the people I love,
And lettin go of the ones that seem to have no hope,
I guess this is what it feels like to GROW UP,
It really is no FUN.

Isn't it ironic?
When we're young - we can't wait to be old,
Now that we're old - we wish we could be young again.

Your not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me.
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry,
Before it drains the light right from your eyes.
And I can't go on that way.
So I'm letting go of everything we were.
But It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

On the phone a year later, he asked her if she missed him.Her reply was "I don't miss you, I miss the guy who talked to me every second he could, who sat home on Saturday nights when we couldn't be together thinking of me....The guy who was my shoulder to lean after a bad day, The guy who told me he'll alwayz love me, That's the guy I miss. How could I miss you? I don't even know you."

~XoXo~

As I look up to the sky

[Mood: Hopeful]

[Music: Angels and Airwaves - Valkyrie Missile]

There's the part of you that wants to be loved,
And then you are afraid of love,
It's the fear of hurting that keeps a person away from happiness,
It's the fear of heart brokenness,
And so we build high walls,
While others decide to run way,
Some decide to bury,
And then there are those that go after that love,
And take chances cause it seemed worth all that pain,
It's all bout the risk in life,
And the will to walk over the boundaries,
Or out that door,
Cause it takes bravery to step out into this world everyday,
And telling someone you care for them,
Or that you love them,
Never knowin when death may come along your way

Maybe seconds or hours away,
Do we need a tragedy to notice how brave we are,
Cause everyone is fighting their own battle,

We just don't know every single of it.

Things change + people change,

That doesn't mean to forget the past or try to cover it up,

It simply means,

Move On & Treasure all those Memories.

We live

We love

We forgive

And never give up

Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above,

And today we remember to Live and to Love.

P.S: 200th Post!!!

Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

[Mood:Emo]

[Music: Sugarcult - Pretty Girl(The Way)]

Brooke: That suxs.....Sorry

Rachel: Why? I mean you and me.....Why are you sorry?

Brooke: Because I know what it feels like.....to have your heartbroken and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

Rachel: Not even your worse enemy....

Brooke: Not even her.

That was from "One Tree Hill".I was watchin it the other day and that set of lines really made me think.I feel that's sorta true in a way.If you've had your heart broken,you really wouldn't want to wish it on others.Gettin your heartbroken is no joy ride.But we all carry hope around and have faith that time will heal....we'll alwayz carry that scar around and maybe occasionaly it will hurt.But I wanna sit down one day and not regret my past.I wanna look back at those memories and smile.I wanna say to myself that I had the time of my life and it just didn't work out.It was just another teenage tragedy.

Through this process of healing,you find that friends is what gives you strength to move on.Even when you feel like giving up and sometimes when they know you're gonna make another mistake.They tell in the softest of wayz and let you learn slowly in your own way,always by your side.

Mostly you gotta carry that flame,that ray of hope even when you really can't hold on any longer.Cause that's whats gonna make us stronger and help us make wiser decisions in the dayz to come.

This is a really touching song by Across Five Aprils:

Complete and total adoration,

My gift to you, my heart was yours,

In ten weeks you shaped it,

In one night you murdered it.

Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,

That first step that you took was the worst.

Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,

And I still have these memories,

But we'll never see what we could have been.

Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?

Remember, cause that's all you can do.

We'll never make another memory,

We'll never make another memory.

I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,

So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.

This time I thought things were real,

You said they were,

What happened?

You were a priority,

Was I an option?

I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.

Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.

Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,

I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.

So, we'll go our own ways,

And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,

Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.

A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,

But I guess I've learned from it.

But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?

I don't consider this a mistake,

I just wish the story didn't end this way,

Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?

Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?