Lookin forward to a Getaway Darlin's!

[Mood: Excited]
[Music:Enrique Iglesias - Hero]

My week so far has been rather eventful.Went out here and there and that did make it rather intersting I guess.On Wednesday,I did a little shoppin with mum.She was complaing that am such a tiresome shopper cause I kept makin her walk from one end of the mall to the other and also I can be rather picky and all.(:P)...Yes I admit that ppl cause I have this bout fallin in love with something before gettin it so yeah...am agreeing to that..lolz...So I got some stuff I've been craving for the last few months.Which was a pair of oversized shades and a denim skirt.So totally physced bout tht!!Had lunch after that with Dad.It was rather quiet lunch actually,without my bro and sis.But I realized then,that if I were the only child...my parents would pay wayy to much attention on me and that's not too good..lolz...yes I know that's rather bizzarre but they'll check on your scheulede and check on you too much..so yeah..lolz....not good!.....came home in the evening and it was raining so badly...*sheesh*....also I got a pair of 3quart jeans and a new wallet from Maggie T.They have rather cute stuff actually...

Headed to skool on Friday.I missed skool sooo much!Espeacially my gurlz!The gf and I exchanged stories and laughed a lot..as usual..lolz...Esther came to skool as well...everything else was pretty usual...won't be goin to skool next week though....*shiffles*

On the bright side..am goin on vaca!!!!....I need one soooo soo badly...and its by the beach so thats totally awesome!!...pool side,sand,sunsets and beach...seems pretty perfect..lolz...and am probably gonna do loadz of writing and sleeping and probably some lying around doin notta.... well if I have time(:P)....So the next post will be probably bout the vaca and my writingz......To all my dearies who see me online like 24 7...I won't be around next week ya...I'll check in with you guyz when I get back...Gonna miss my lappie and my online ppl...but I'll be okies..lolz......Well that's it for now darlin's!...take care and God Bless!

L.O.V.E

It's better to forget & be happy than to remember & be sad

[Mood: Alive]

[Music: Jason Mraz - Wordplay]

This is like the first time am actually keeping up with the FIFA and am all for England this year baby!Why you ask?Well its non other than cause they have the cutest players around!!...ok I know isnt a great reason to support a team but what the hell..England RockZz!!

I watched last nite's game which was England vs. T&T but slept after halftime and they only scored after halftime...BAH...

Finally finished my "Memoirs of a Geisha" and it's a pretty good book.Kinda sad and all but it's very intersting with a bit info on Japan's history and all.The book was longish but okies I guess...

My week has been rather..whats the word..yeah..sooopy intersting I guess..loadz of down with the occasion up I suppose.Its times like this that you totally lean on your frenz and am totally lovin them rite now..they being ever so supportive and cheering me up.I've been on the phone with Esther this last two dayz and that gurl knows me ever so well..the other day I greeted her my usually "Hello" and her respond was.."What's wrong,wanna talk bout it?"...lolz...the other best fren...Vitto that is,said I didnt sound my usual way and both was an online conversation..so I guess that sayin that the biggest smile can't fool your best fren is ever so true and they haven't even seen me in quite a while actually..lolz....So shout out to all you guyz...includin Rita and Ben whos been there to listen to me rant and cheerin me up and all...I really aperieacte the love you guyz!!!!!!

So I started this year with the aim of havin a total sweet 16 and it turned out that way until the wind blew in the storm but there's no rainbow without the rain right.So rite now it's time I learn to dance in the rain.I made decisions and I don't regret them.I seriesly fuckin hate regret.It can totally kill a person and it just makes you fustrated.So I'd rather take everything as a lesson.Guess that's why we call our past mistakes "Experience".Makes it sound cooler I guess.You can't hold onto certain things for forever..that's what everyone keeps sayin...it's time to Let Go...and that's what my heart has been tellin me for a long while now.So am going to go with it,knowing that I'll make it though the fall....

You can't look back and regret.

You need to look forward and progress

It's better to forget & be happy than to remember & be sad

The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight

[Mood:Heart Broken]

[Music:Marion Raven - Break You]

As I slowly fall to ground,

This pain has become unbearable,

I should have known,

I really should have.

There's nothing more left to say,

As I bleed little by little,

Someone please kill my misery,

I can't seem to find a way out.

As she watched the glass shatter,
It reminded her of the state of her heart,

She's broken,

And she knows it very well indeed.

That broken piece of glass seems ever so tempting,

She thought bout wantin to watchin herself bleed,

Cause that's how she's feeling on the inside,

And she can't seem to find a way to fix it.

Looks like my heart was right,
And yet again I refused to listen,
Why does a simply word not get to me,
Why does a shattered heart mean experience and then it sinks into me?

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

It seems that the fucked up wrong really loves my company

My stereo is blasting;

my eyeliner is beginning to smear;

I can barely hear;

My tears are forming in the corner of my eyes,

So just shut up and let me slip.

I can barely hear,

As the lyrics of this song start to make sense,

Caught up with memories,

Slowly fading away.

As she deletes lil memories here and there,

It's time to move along,

There's nothin more to hold on to,

But broken promises and hurtful lies.

In a perfect world,this would never happen

[Mood:Moody]

[Music:Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered]

Everything happens for a reason,

Things fall apart and can fall into place,

Don't question it, just let it happen,

If it`s meant to be, it will find a way.

Love, life, it's all the same,

The falling is easy,

It's getting up that's a pain.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means the world to you,

Only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

You don't have to hold onto the pain to hold onto the memory.

Things change + people change,

That doesn't mean to forget the past or try to cover it up,

It simply means move on & treasure all the memories

You're only young once,

Have fun & make mistakes,

But no matter what, regret nothing...

If you think it's time to let go,

Just let go,

There's no point looking back at what you've lost,

For the road was never meant to be traveled backwards.

In this cliche teenage tragedy

[Mood:Tired]

[Music:Nick Lachey - What's Left Of Me]

In conclusion my week has been rather dull with nothin much to do.I miss skool and my usual friday outingz...been tragically bored at home...I watched "She's the Man" the other day..wasn't exactly hilarious but it was cute..I have yetz to watch "Take the lead","The Da Vinci Code","Brokeback Mountain" and "Walk the Line".Oh and I've been havin a sudden urge to catch on "Million Dollar Baby".Btw Ashlee Simpson just realeased a new single and the video is to realeased on June 19....its called "Invisible"..its more of a slow beat track but great lyrics..I love her lyrics...they're usually kinda deep...currently hooked on Pink's Who Knew and Ashlee's Undiscovered.But more on the Pink tune...bah...

My weekend was quiet.Saturday was a just a total sit at home thing and on Sunday was me being in a very bad mood.My mum kept askin what I kept being distracted and my aunt added to it that I've been daydreaming too much throughout the day.It was kinda true actually..I missed playin certain parts durin the service cause I was so totally zoning out....and cause of all that crap..I got a darn loadz of lectures through the day..I mean as it I was a havin a fucked up day and everyone just had to pile on it.I hoped they would leave me alone or either I would feel better and thank goodness quesadillas and tacos did the trick...Gosh I love mexican food...

It's been one week officially and am trying.I've been piling myself with quotes and I've been hit with loadz actually.Mostly with main topics on how I would never get back this my teenhood again and that life can only lived once and that I should make the best out it.Thinkin bout it actually...how colourless would it would it be without the tears,pain and heartbreak.If everything was perfect,we would complain how fuckin borin it is and when theres too much goin on,we want to wish it all away...we're really odd beingz.It's the balance that keeps us going I guess and anywayz heartbreak makes great writing material.

Here is Pink's Who Knew...

You took my hand

You showed me how

You promised me you'd be around

Uh huh

That's right

I took your words

And I believed

In everything

You said to me

Yeah huh

That's right

If someone said three years from now,

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them up

Cause they're all wrong

I know better

Cause you said forever

And ever

Who knew

Remember when we were such fools

And so convinced and just too cool

Oh no

No no

I wish I could touch you again

I wish I could still call you friend

I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now

For they're long gone

I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong

They knew better

Still you said forever

And ever

Who knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head

Until we meet again

Until we

Until we meet again

And I won't forget you my friend

What happened

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long goneI'd stand up and punch them out

Cause they're all wrong and

That last kiss I'll cherish

Until we meet again

And time makes

It harder I wish I could remember

But I keep Your memory

You visit me in my sleep

My darling

Who knew

My darling

My darling

Who knew

My darling

I miss you

My darling

Who knew

Who knew

P.S:Thankz to all my darlin frenz for being totally suportive lately.Thankz Esther for the cards,they were totally sweet and to Rita for the poem..I heart tht!To Kc for listening to me blab away and being there.Vitz and Daniel for hearin me yap even more.Oh and to Ben for the song recomendation...lolz...Also To everyone else for just being there for me,its means ever so much dearies......Love ya loadz!!!Muax~

Is She Broken?--Maybe;Does it Hurt?--Like Crazy

[Mood:Upset]
[Music:Sum 41 - Pieces]

These last couple of dayz have been hard.I had a short 2 day getaway but that didn't help to much.I laughed when everyone was around but ran away and cried when no one was looking.I didnt know I kept so much memories and held lil things so close.I have memories with Mcdonald's sundae to the very way I say the word "irrating"....close frenz say stay strong,some say you'll make through and I know I would but for now the only thing I keep askin myself is......How long am I gonna feel this way?

Am broken up,
Torn and hurt,
And bleeding a lil more each day,
Plez don't fuckin bother bout the pieces,
For I won't know what to do with them.

Yes I do know how it feels,
To sit on the edge of your bed,
Listening to a sad song and wishing,
It would all just end.

The higher you build the walls around your heart,
The harder you fall when someone tears them down

All of these changes make me cry. I wish we had never said goodbye.

We attach ourselves so closely to people;
That when they are gone;a part of us is gone too.