Those Teenage Dayz

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Jojo - This Time]

Last Sunday was the Awards and Graduation and after the hectic week of much practicing and having fun.It finally came.I woke super tired cause the nite before I crashed at bout 3 in the mornin. Got ready for church and I was in total panic/stressed mode cause we were goin to the venue straight after church and I couldn't forget anything so I kept goin throught the check list in my head.Had to stay back after church for a bit and I was sleepy and hoping we wouldn't be late.Reached to the venue bout 2 and realized only a few were there and I was early so chilled and hanged with Vitz,Rachey and Michelle.Got changed and the butterflies started kicking in.The beginning dance went well and everything else followed in place.Daniel decided to juggle his drumsticks durin the praise and Kc and I were totally laughing along with Paul.It look real hilarious..guess he was nervous and goin hectic since he was handling the computer stuff as well.Then it was our dance and tht went real well..Thank God!!!..got compliments and after that did I start to relax..the drama went well 2..lost our voices durin the award givin ceremony and graduation part.After the whole thing it was just a total camwhorin session.I gotta have to get pics from everyone soon.I was worn out by the end of the day.Had dinner with the family and slept pretty early...

The next mornin it hit me that am never gonna see the graduates after this.Everyone will probably go their own way and we won't see each other for a long time.Was sorta emo the rest of the day and Daniel messaged in the mornin sayin his gonna miss skool and it soo didn't make me feel better..lolz..but I guess that's life u know..Ppl came and go and I' ve really gotta learn to deal with tht.

We had this skool outing on Wed.Bout 30 ppl came and I had a really good time.We played bowling which was super fun since we were makin so much noise and screamning and laughing. T. ben's class did win though!! So the movie was paid for.We had lunch at Subway and got a cake for Tracy.We had another camera session.Seriesly all of us totally love the camera and I bet it loves us too.LOL.Played pool as well n I really need more practice cause I sorta suck at it badly.We watched Step up..it was sooooo cool!!!!!..a total dance movie...if u love dance this is sooo for u!!!...Loved it!..had ice cream at Mc'ds after tht..hanged with Vitz and Rachey for the day.Played daytona for a bit and then lost our voices yetz again cheerin for the guyz who were playin...lolz..headed home around 6 somethin.Rushed for prayer meeting and was super worn outz after that.It wasn't too bad..I did have fun there as well..lolz...came home around 10 somethin...

So far my week has been rather intersting but after all this it's gonna be sorta slow for a few weeks with skool work and lotz of stayin at home.Really gotta get my study momentum back cause it's really gone..am gonna go look for it darlin's!

BEST FRENZ!
It's a promise. not a label

The sky glows and I see it shining with my eyes close

[Mood: Wanderin]
[Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside]

Running away from the a problem isn't alwayz the smartest thing to do nor is it a very mature thing to do.Guess thats wht I've been doin,acting like it's all ok when its not.I guess the truth caught up anywayz and I realized how much my frenz love me today.The didn't confront me with it just so I won't be hurt by it all but I guess we all knew it deep down.Btw I had no idea Vitz was so good at physcology,I just discovered that today...

I gave excuses again and again and tried that again today.It was a stupid thing to do but at the end of the day all I wanted to do is cry.I couldn't answer any question with a full stand assurance.I kept zoning off or avoiding it.So much for a year's effort, months have gone and after all that's said and done..I can't fuckin answer the simpliest of questions.

Told Esther today I'll have to make a change by the end of this year.It's really time to grow up and make a mature decison bout this instead of acting like it's okies when its absolutely not.No more playin pretend for am really too old for it anywayz.I gave myself by the end of this months and that's it.I really don't wanna take this years drama into the next..

Realized also that a few of my frenz are graduatin high skool this year.I've never been good at sayin goodbye and I really hope I don't break down this Sunday,that would be super embrassing.But this is what's life bout I guess..growing up and letting go...I really don't wanna grow up...

"Life is full of different things, its full of,hope and sorrow.
The things you choose to do today,could affect your life tomorrow.
Life is full of decisions.
So be careful what you choose.
Cause life is yours to cherish.
But it’s also yours to lose."

Signed Sincerely Me

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Hellogoodbye - Dear Jamie....Sincerely Me]

It's been kinda crazy for the last few weeks.Preparations for awards nite, practices that are loadz of fun,hangin out at the mall and skool work in between it all.I've been in skool everyday this week.No one seems to be studyin cept the brillant,the rest of us are either camwhorin, playin some lame game or havin conversations with peverted topics.The highlight of my week was goin out with Rachey,Nicky and Wesley on Tuesday.We played pool,hanged out for a bit,window shopped and chilled.It was fun and a big shout out to Nicky for following that day since he was suppose to go gym-ing .I owe u dear!

So I have 11 more books to go for this year and my hardworkin momentum that was with me the last few weeks is fading but I really gotta finish it all in bout 2 weeks time if I want to go out..so yeah..quoting mum..."Unless you wanna stay home while we go out for Christmas,you better study"...I've been hearin this everyday day this week on the car trip to and from skool.*sheesh*...so far the slow dance seems good and am not in the drama anymore so that's all good.No more intense practices,its more laid back.

Besides all that it's been good lately.Not too much drama and I've been in a good mood too.I'm feelin really grateful lately for havin so much and I think am gonna take to time to appericate it all and make every moment are memory.

"You know you had a good time when you can't tell your mom what you did."
~XoXoXo~

We might as well be strangers

[Mood: Artsy]
[Music: Ashley Parker Angel - Let U Go]

"At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in the world.
Some are running scared..
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day..
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men at war with good,
Some are good.. struggling with evil.
6 billion people in the world,
6 billion souls,
And sometimes.. all you need is 1."
-Peyton-{OTH}

"There seems to be a kind of order in the universe…in the movement of the stars and the turning of the Earth and the changing of the seasons. But human life is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own right and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own."
-Katherine Ann Porter-

"Most of our life is a series of images.
They pass us by like towns on the highway.
But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens.
And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image.
We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.'"
-Lucas-{OTH}

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

[Mood: Day-dreamin]
[Music: Mario Vazquez - Gallery]

Life is really simply.
We just insist on making it___>>Complicated.

Summarizing the 1st of week of November I gotta say I can't believe we're left with the last two months of the year.The last two months of being 16.Seriesly I don't wanna move on to 17.I like being 16.It's that age where you're right in the middle and you feel all young and ready for a new adventure.I like high school and I know college maybe fun and all but even with the drama and crazyness I love it.High skool memories will alwayz be the best.I was listening to Bowling For Soup's new single called High Skool Never Ends the other day.That song really makes sense,thinkin bout it, high skool drama will alwayz be out there.The girl-fights,break-ups,back-stabbings and life changing relationships.I really wanna enjoy my skool dayz to the fullest currently and not worry to much about sayin goodbye and lose out on the time I have with me.

Seems like the end of the year stresses have been catching me up.I've gotta get ready for christmas at church which means ample practice time is needed.The drama needs work and I have no idea what's really goin on there.Then there's the skool work that needs to be dealt with.Yes people am starting to feel the pressur,the lack of time and a desperate need for a organized scheulede.

Friday at skool was very quiet.Maybe cause Vitz wasn't there and neither was Nicki.So it was just me and Kc entertaining ourselves.As lesbian as that sounds,it's true.The good news at skool this week must be the change in the cafetria.The food has definately improved and we are all very grateful.After skool,I was meeting someone at Summit and since there was no transport.My sis,Son,Me and Shaun who decided to be our bodyguard walked there.It was really nice of him to tag along.I felt so accomplished after that.Had tea and then watched "The Covenant".Wasn't too bad I would give it 3 out of 5.Gotta give props for the speacial effects though.Played daytona after that and I won.It was really sweet of you to let me win dear.I so know you did. I had really great time hanging out with you darlin'!Went to starbucks and got my regular caramel frappucino but was totally disturbed by the fact tht the guy asked me if I was just done with work and when I said no he tried college and when I respoded no again,he just gave this totally blur look and I finally said skool and went off complainin to the others how mean the guy workin there was.Hanged in Sonya's place for a bit while I waited for dad.Went home and hanged on the phone with Kc,givin her the 411 on my dayz events.Was very worn out that day that I slept before 12.

Saturday was spent in total day dreaming mode.I couldn't concentrate on much and I had to start workin on the Christmas song list for church.I really gotta start praticing...really.Watched the "Perfect Man" that nite and was rather emo after that...

This next 3 weeks is gonna be crazy with skool work,practices and gettin ready for the end of another year.I'll go start with skool work darlin's.

Photographic Memories Are For Forever

[Mood: Sleepy]
[Music: Jojo- Coming For You]

Here are some of the pics we took durin the drama rehersal last Friday:

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