My Song Is Love

[Mood: Painful]
[Music: ColdPlay - A Message]

I have no idea what's been goin on in my head,
Or what I've been thinking,
I just wanted to live it for the moment,
Didn't wanna think bout consequeces,
I wanted to live by the too young to care line,
But my actions seem unexplainable,
But the very intent and the very act of a lie,
I'm not where all that came from,
These are the people that make my world go round,
The ones that keep me sane and are my biggest support system,
The ones that keep on the right path all the time,
How could I have hurt them?
I've lost myself along the way lately,
Losin my principles,
Everything I've stood for,
Disappointed,
That's what that has been done,
Not only myself but the very ones I love,
Such a cold thing to do,
Thise has never been me,
I have never been known for being so cruel,so hurtful,
Knowin deep within that I will have to deal with all this alone,

Broken your trust,
That's what I've done,
Thrown away the faith you've had on me,
Puttin myself in your shoes makes me tear,
There isn't an enough of an apology for my actions,
I'll understand if you wanna stay away for a while,
But am hopin for not too long,
I know my actions were harsh n painful,
But I love you very much,
And am deeply sorry for doing so,
You're like a sister to me,
Alwayz being there and holding me when am in tears,
But lately I haven't been showin how much I care,
I feel the change,
And that its not for the good,
I will do somethin bout it,
And am gonna start with you,
Am sorry for it all,
And I truly hope you forgive me....

The Long Weekend

[Mood: Worn Out]
[Music: Breaking Benjamin - Breathe]

The preparations for sports day has been hectic.I tried to get fit in 2 months or so.I started joggin and practicin badminton every other day.I was sore a whole lot but am not sure why but I really wanted to do this.Never been a sporty person n all tht but I decided to give it a go.

I was super nervous the day before n I just knew I was gonna lose.But I was super scared tht everyone would laugh at me or somethin.Couldnt really sleep n I woke up 4:45 that mornin.Got ready,had breakfast and headed to sonya's around 6.We chilled till around 7 somethin n then left to the stadium.Every other skool had their own tshirts and ours was the only tht had diff shades of purple.And we were the most uncordinated one!! Whatmore was that we were the host of the event.*sheesh* Had the march past thing and we were totally fooling around the whole time.Hilarious! There was a few openin dances but the other skools n then we had netball n football.We got to the finals for both but didn't win...we got to the penalty shoot out for football!...I was panickin for the whole day...totally freaked out bout the badminton...chilled till bout 3 n then the game started around 3 somethin.The usual gang were there cheerin n I felt better with all of them there...hehe...n suprisingly I won the first round!!..*beams with joy*...but lost the 2nd cause the constent from the other skool's dad was there...he was totally buddin but whtever! The doublez was intersting.The gf and I bet the first team easily.We were like "wht the hell happened?"..we didnt even practice..haha...n in the 2nd round we were up againsnt....*suspense*...The Racheyz!!...haha...I know!...on skool!...lolz...they bet us n we didn't really care cause anywayz our skool wins...N they did practice more than us..
After that I chilled at Sonya's place..she was sweet enough to let me sleep...was soo wiped out.I slept for an hour n then watched her bro n his fren play Resident Evil 2.I had no P.S 2 could be soo intersting.Reached home around 8 somethin n then chilled with the family.Mum was proud cause I actually achieved somethin in sports for once..she even massaged my damaged ankle!!...Love her loadz!!

Church was the usual.Oh there's this new guy whos started to attend n his sorta cute actually(:P) His 20 somethin but totally doesnt look like it n doesnt really hang around his age group.His super shy n everythin n I havent picked up the courage to speak to him yetz.Workin on tht..hehe...had lunch at an Indian restaurant...went shoppin n got this super cute pants!!! But got into an argument with mummy over a skirt.It was extrmely cute but she made a fuss that is was too short.BLEH.Came home n slept n lazed around for the whole day.

Monday came n I was out for the whole day.Was at Pyramid n all that.It gets sorta complicated here so I'm not gonna go in too much detail.I had dinner with rachey,vitz,kc,eddy,james n nicholas at tht chicken place.Actually kc n I ate at mcdz.Then I hanged with Rachey n Vitz till bout 8.They tried to educate me on Anime but I was just interested in the gay stuff(:P) Then they went cd shoppin.Got home n slept super early.

Was totally lazy ass that mornin n decided to skip skool.I chilled for the rest of the day n did absolutely notta productive.I really hav 2 start gettin back on study mode!

"You're a messed up chick!"
-Vitz-

Tagged!

[Mood: Reminiscing]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - I Will Be]

5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG.....
~~Wallet - Never leave home without money
~~Lip Gloss - A must must!
~~Hp-Communication purposes
~~Compact Powder-Comes with a mirror:P
~~Comb-Very handy!

5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE UR PURSE/WALLET....
~~Identity Card - a must...must
~~Cash - Like dUh
~~Calender - For plannings
~~Pics - Looks cute
~~Coins

5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM....
~~My Lappie - My LIFE!
~~My radio - Runs 22 hrs a day
~~My stuff tiger - His very treasured..hehe
~~My wardrobe - Love my clothes!
~~My Cd collection

5 THINGS YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO...
~ GO TO PARIS
~~ Go to Rome - Beautiful history there!
~~ A total beach vaca - I < 3 the beach
~~ Get a tougue ring - Sooooo HOTT
~~ Write a book - Will be intersting

5 THINGS UR CURRENTLY INTO...
~~ Bloggin
~~Music
~~ Grey's Anatomy
~~ One Tree Hill
~~ The person am on the phone with soo much..hehe..

~5 PEOPLE YOU WILL TAG....
~~Sharu - I know you did it...hehe
~~Zim - since ur bored so much:P
~~Rachey
~~Ariel
~~Rita

Scientific dayz

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Evan Olsan - Not What I Wanted]

It's been quite a while but I've been sorta lazy to update.Notta much as been happenin lately.Sports day practices...studyin and being bored.Yeah definatley the usual.I don't remember much of last week.But it was pretty casual actually.

Well we had a science camp sorta thing a week back.Tht was pretty fun.Not overly educationcal but we were sick talkin n camwhorin mostly so here are some pics:

Some baking soda yeast thing

We improvised the cover with the dropper:p

Looked hott

The Happy Patato(this was what we discentted!)

Totally Grey's Anatomy

Boredom: Bryan's New Manicure

Rachey and Silas doodlings

The protected water sprayer...*I know looks peverted*..haha

Kc and Me....the camera had to end up on us..<3

The River Keeps Flowin

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - I can do better]

So my week has started in a totally fucked up note. The same usual thing.Yea...its like a never ending circle....*sheesh*..I have no idea what I would do with my best frenz. Vitz called me at 3 in the mornin cause I needed someone to talk to and was a totally darlin cause he chatted for an hour even thought he was tired and the gf got my sms and called me the first thing in the mornin. She called throughout the day to make sure I was ok. Love you guyz!>3

And therefore I baked after a longtime.My family have no idea about my "baking only in a bad mood" thing.I do bake when am happy but mostly when am upset. They just enjoyed the fudge. That was fun and I felt happy. Bakin alwayz makes me feel good.That nite I was on the phone till bout 4 something in the mornin.

My current tv show obssession: Grey's Anatomy!!
I'm soooo hooked on it.The actors are cool,the story line intersting and has the fair share of drama,and I absolutely adore the intros.I use to collect them before I even started watchin the series.I'm just done with season 1.Season 2 on the way....

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
-- "Greys Anatomy