*Hide Away*

I woke up early 2day cause da maid got here wayy 2 early,damn,well my parentz are coming home 2 day so is my lil bro..YiPeE!!....I got 2 say I missed them and its been freakin bored lately...well I watched "Raise ur Voice" yesterday..it was really good movie..its was fun and really sad at da same time,totally cool besides tht I watched charmed,miss match and a whole load of dramas on star world(I was totally bored)......tht was preety it yesterday....well I really have 2 get back 2 work..work load is pilling up like MAD!!!!.......

*ArGGHH*

>>>Okies am so damn freakin fucking upset I couldnt go for da Simple Plan concert...DAMN!!!!!!!!!....I can't believe it!!!...I soooooo wanted 2 go...ArGGGhhhhhhhhhhhRRRGGG........am just soo very upset rite nowzZz>>>>>

I will

Striving for wht I want is wht am gonna do,
Going my way and archiving wht I want,
I've fought with my emotions and feelings for a year already,
Why I can't my wounds heal?
But I've picked myself up,
I will move on conquering whatever that is in my path,
In a year I gained and lossed so much....
But am gonna make it...
I WILL!!!

*Grateful*

Woke up at 12 today...lolz...checked out some stuff on friendster,thankz 2 everyone who sent me testimonials 4 my birthday!!!......well Esther just made my day,she sent me a birthday card with a present inside tht was soo very cute....THANKZ GURL!!!....shes just so sweet,love her loadzzZ!!....its times like this that makes me realize all da ppl who care 4 me and are my frenzz...well u were rite sis,theres alwayz ppl caring bout me,btw sis thank u 4 being there 4 me..ur just alwayz there 4 when I needed u and I aperiacate tht a lotZzzZ...love ya 2!!!....am in a grantiful mood rite nowzz(:P)...also vitto..whos alwayz been there when I needed someone 2 crap 2...thankz dude!!!...LOLZ...not forgetting everyone else...I alwayz appreciate u guyzz!!!....

How could I

Watchin tv all tv all day,starin at da walls,sittin in a corner daydreaming,wishin I was in another world or planet,I hate the word bored currently...it makes me sound me pathetic and I hate sounding pathetic cause it just makes me fucky(thts a new word added 2 my vocab,I have a messed up vocab list).....I feel pain and hurt...listening 2 Mario's How could u?.....all these memories start flooding...ok i admit i miss being in luv...i seriesly do,but u see I promised myself I wouldnt anymore till I hit college..... cause I cant stand being fucking hurt and my heart cant take all da bulllshit tht comes with it anymore yetZzZ I flirt 2 much..(:P).... its a way 2pass time and its fun anywayz......I wanna get out of this world,I feel stuck and locked,I wanna break free...get out and do something yet am stuck.......I dont know why am writing all this stuff but I guess its just been all in my heart I had 2 let go of it somewhere..........

*The end of another day*

Just came back 4rom KLCC....had a great dinner at Chilli's...LOVE THT PLACE!!!!..speacially da tacos!!......shopped at GIRLS....lepaks around,had ice-cream and came back...really had fun....there are alwayz times tht I really enjoy da time I spend with my family.....(:P)....gonna go practice organ now.....btw I have 2 wake at 5 A.M tommorow....cause its a sunrise service at church.............am seriesly nervous bout 2moros service cause its usually at easther theres an extra crowd and am playing da choir's song....I hope I dont screw up!!....I soooo have 2 practice now!!!!......

P.S>>>Thanks u guyzz so much 4 all da birthday wishes,it meant so much 2 me!!!>>>

For da fun of it

*I had nothing better 2 do...LOL*

*Officialy*

Am official 15 2day!!..YEAH!!!!.....happy bout tht!!...this morning I was thinking bout how much I wanted 2 be 15 and finally its here...so damn fast and now am feelin old....sometimes I think am fucking weird...LOL....been lazying around and playing with bro....he does da cutest things at times....totally unpredicatble little guy.....currently I feel i have 2 go practice da organ cause its easther 2 moro but fingers dont feel like streaching rite now(:P)......am going 2 head 2 KLCC soon....gonna go bother someone nowzzz....CIoZ!!

*Layed Back*

Well its been very normal these last couple of dayz...my dayz was spent by hanging by da radio and tv...chatting with vitz...going 2 church..and studying as little as possible...lolz....btw its my last day of being a 14yr old..am getting old!!!....*siGh*......lately i've been a very laid back mood and extremely cheerful..theres no specific reason but am just happy(:P).....guess am just in a good mood..am gonna study nowz....practically all my subjects are overdue!!!...CioZZz!!

*Sicky*

Just came back 4rom da dentist.....my mouth hurts very very badly....but at least this way I'll eat less...lolz....but it still hurtz...damn....its been a very quiet day....life seems so quiet these dayz...*siGh*.....am bored,misrable and feeling broken.......its like all these quietness is driving me mad!!!.....but am gonna get through...more like I have 2,am gonna go stare at da wall rite nowz....

My dayz

Well i havent checked in 4 a while so here da updates<
Friday:Went 2 watch Lemony Sniketts's A Series of Unfortuanete Events...it was cool....hanged around da mall....and chilled at home 4 da rest of da day...its was boring...

My weekend: Saturday:went 2 my grandparents place,lepaks around there,got biten by some weird ant...my leg was hurting like shit(fuck tht ant...I didnt kill tht fucking thing!!!!),slept and chatted all day with my cousin...it wasnt tht bad...kinda fun actually.

Sunday:Da only exciting thing of da day was F1...Alanso won(hes kind cute..lolz)besides tht it was fucking boring

My Monday:Did work,went 2 da mall to look for J.R.R Tolkien's autobiography....went around da bookstore for an hour...asked 4 help..da useless help took another half hour of just trotting around da store and a few minutes late my mum found da book..damn crap it!!....wasted soo damn long in there........not sure wht kind of store are these ppl running!!!.....after tht went 2 secret recipe and headed home...went 2 church at nite..was feeling soo damn tired there..was about 2 drop dead anytime!!!.....tht was preety much it

Today:Hasnt exactly started..will update soon.....

Weird

Well heres wht I did 2day:
1.skool work
2.annoy my mum and sis(as usual..lolz)
3.ate wayy 2 much junk food...DaMn!!
4.Listen 2 simple plan's still not getting any album(AgAiN)
5.Watched some music videos..ashlee simpson and ryan cabrera ones
6.sleep
7.listen 2 hitz.fm
8.stare at my room walls(routine)
Wht am doing nowz:
1.currently listening 2 ryan cabrera and chattin with vittoz(a wacko fren who getz weird wayy 2 much)
Wht am gonna do:
1.Gonna watch mtv
2.eat more junk food
3.sleep
*As u see my dayz are kinda fucked up..hahaha*
Am in a weird mood rite nowzz...*i think*.....am confused.....

^BAH^

Day was casual as it can get...chilled around da house and did some work...am seriesly lacking in sleep these dayz...am feelin sooo damn fucking dead in da morningzz...*siGh*.....so i started work in da afternoon 2day......hanged bout da radio listening 2 Hitz.Fm....waiting 4 the simple plan ticket window 2 open......its not tht am sure 2 win and all but who knows rite..maybe i'll have luck or something....SIMPLE PLAN ROCKZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........I want those tickets soo damn BADLY!!!!!!!.....anywayz da damn ticket window didnt came...damn!!!........am soo damn fucking bored.......BAH..... BAH......BAH........gtg nowzz.......*CioZzZ*

*Cool*

Just came home 4rom KL...had a good day..it was fun...thank God..cause i've been fucking bored these last couple of dayz..Went 2 Klcc 2 day 2 watch a Petronas F1 demo...it was totally awesome!!..da cars and all...totally enjoyed it!!!...went rite after church with my uncle,a churhmember,my sis and Sanjay(intro:hes a churchmember,known him 4 a long time,a cool fren and a real whacko!!...LOL)..went there by train,had lunch a mc'ds(didnt eat there 4 quite sometime),hanged around klcc a while and went 2 find a place 2 hangout during da show...as usual malaysian timing is out cause da thing was suppose 2 start at 2.00 but only began at 2.45....already it was damn fucking hot....so had 2 wait...*siGh*...then it started 2 become cloudy when the show started(talk bout unpredictable weather)......it started 2 pour.. thank goodness not tht heavily...fucked up weather!!........but we stayed there anywayz.......went back by 3:00 something......reached our destinated station by 3:45 ...it was pouring like shit.....so my sis,me and sanjay...took da train 2 another station 4 the fun of it and came back..hahaha......i tot we got lost 4 while....(:P)..........crapped around at the station until da rain stopped...and then went home...fun feeling day...was all good.....well am gonna have dinner nowz...adios!!

*BeIng BoREd*

Just came back 4rom my aunt's place.....all I did there was lazy around......da usual....eat,sleep and watch tv.......there was no internet connection there..so major boredness.....glad 2 be home...miss my messenger wayy loadz....its kinda my getway 2 interaction with my homies!!.....also missed 2 epsodies of "friends"...its official....am addicted 2 tht sitcome!!.....well i have a major pile up of skool work awaiting me....2 quizs...an experiment...and a report...DAMN!!!....am just wayy 2 tired 2 tackle it all nowzzz...maybe i'll do it all 2moro....CiozZz!!

^Is This^

Stood in the corner of the street,
its was empty...everyone was gone,
Loneliness captivated me...
I wandered why am still here...
I can't stand it nomore....
I feel depressed day by day..
Sadness clings 2 me....
I hoped these feelings will leave me soon...
but it does not want 2........
as I stand there..with my head wondering.....
Thoughts bout friendships and luv take over...
How something u cherised so much can be over so fast....
Before u even knew it......
Friends u cared and luved so much doesnt seem 2 share tht friendship anymore....
Its like if u died 2moro they wouldnt care........
Its like wen we had good times..they were there 2 enjoy all tht...
but when u need them da most...
they're gone....no where near ur reach...
is this whts life bout...
Is this?????

*LivinG...*

Just came back 4rom dance class....my legs are hurting badly.........*OuCh*......cause its quiet sometime since i actually went 4 classes and all....lack of strecthing..........*siGh*.....day was casual...woke up at 11(cause i slept at 2 last nice after watchin da repeat of the grammy's"it totally rocked!!!!",speacially green day!!!)......this whole week i have da privilege of sleeping in late cause my parents are not here(:p).....lolz......did a little work...........well am gonna go 2 subang parade nowzz....gonna go 2 swensen!!!...YiPpe!!!....as u know 4rom my previous post...my luv 4 ice cream....LOL......well i gtg...CIoZ!!!

Punk RuleZzz

My luv for punk has grown so much.....it totally rulezz!!...da music,da clothes and all....i never was intersted in punk before,i use 2 hate it!!.........but all over a sudden i totally can relate 2 it.....it seems soo intersting and it just rockzz.....am not into goth or anything........dont get me wrong .......but i just think punk stands by itself...and not necessarily needs 2 involve goth...am totally against goth!!!.....its a totally weird thing.............well my day was good...listened 2 punk music 4 da whole day.... 2 green day mostly...american idiot is such a cool song!!....green day totally rocked it at da grammy's btw!!.......well i gtg...will check in soon....*cioZ*
~Xoxo~
**OfficiaL PunK loVer**

Am going get through it...

Well its officially monday morning...as u can see by da time of this blog....just finished watching Friends...i absolutely LOVE tht show!!!!!....its soo rockzz......well the analysis of this week is tht it has been a damn fucking depressing week 4 me...i've been feeling soo damn shitty lately....not sure why!!!!!!.....i just pray hard this week will go well...it has 2!!...it better!!...........well my sunday was good....da typical normal sunday thing...parents left 2 india...so i guess its a week of torture with my sibilings 4 a week.....**ArGhhhhh**...i shall get through it!!......well i gtg and see if theres anything nice 2 watch on mtv rite nowzz....nit3ZzZ!!

#Tangled Up In Me#

**You wanna know more, more, more about me I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine, I'm the one that's honking at you cuz ,I left late again,Hey! Hey! Hey! Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya! Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today, Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya! Hey! Hey! Get tangled up in me, You wanna know more, more, more about me Gotta know reverse phsychology I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see Hey! Hey! Hey! Could you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya! Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya! Hey! Hey! Get tangled up in me You think that you know me You think that I'm only When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you You wanna know more, more, more about me I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet Hey! Hey! Hey! Could you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya! Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!Hey! Hey! Get tangled up in me!!!!**....love this song...this whole week i've been feeling totally tangled up in me...everything around me seems so complicated...and so much is changing....i'll just do my best and go on with life....guess life is one hell of a rollercoaster!!!!..

*Laid back*

Was a totally laid back day....chilled out in the morning..did quite a bit of skool work...not sure why but on fridayz am damn hardworking...maybe its da joy of the weekend coming soon tht motivates me...hahaha.....attepted baking a pizza...its started out shitty cause i put baking soda instead of yeast.....saw da label wrongly....but must been blind temporarily or something...so tht flour got so fucking screwed up.!!!....was so pissed off!!....was about 2 give up but i found yeast after digging through the cupboards for 15 minutes....."thank goodness"........the 2nd attept was succesful...it tasted good after tht.........just came back 4rom church..am gonna go watch shrek 2 nowzZz..tht movie soo rockz!!...

*Simple*

Went out 2 day....grocery shopping and all..i can never find anything in giant,my mum asked 2 help,but all i did was get lost...lolz...maybe cause i had never stepped in 4 such a long time..(:P).....got some new songs in organ class....its from the phantom of the opera....da movie sucked big time,i only watched half of it cause i couldnt stand da opera singing style...why cant they sing normally!!!!...but some of the songs are cool though,speacially da lyrics.....i'll post it soon....well i gotta go do some skool work....cioz!!!!

Another day goes by...

Started out being another pathetic day.not sure why but lately i've just been fucking misrable...there was just soo much going on my head last nite........stuff like how shitting everything around me is and all...fuck!!.so i was damn fustrated by morning.........but after talking 2 my pet sis....i felt a lotZzz better...thaknz a lot sis!!!..did not study 2day...just being freaking lazy as usual..(:P)...indulged myself with ice cream in secret recipe at nite......man tht was good!!...i needed tht!!....tht made joyful.......ice cream alwayz makes me happy...hahahahaha............well gtg......nit3ZZ

**Why**

I keep thinking bout u,

Its like ur alwayz in my heart,

I miss u soo dearly,

The way u loved me,the way u cared,

Something tht will never leave me,

U meant soo much 2 me,

And u still do,

My heart doesnt want 2 leave u,

The memories keep flooding back day after day,

I think of how we wanted 2 be with each other soo much,

Why does fate have 2 choose us, and destroy us,

I feel like am never meant 2 be happy,

Why does this have 2 happen 2 me ,

Why...............................................

I feel like we're growing apart....

We dont talk 2 each other like the way we use 2,

Will this mean...we'll forget bout each other and all we had,

I dont want tht 2 happen,after all tht we've been through,

I don't want it 2 end this way....

**This is just me**

I'm an angel, I'm a devil, I am sometimes in between..I'm as bad it can get,And good as it can be.Sometimes I'm a million colors,Sometimes I'm black and white,I am all extremes,Try figure me out you never can,There's so many things I am...I am special,I am beautiful,I am wonderful..And powerful..Unstoppable,Sometimes I'm miserable,Sometimes I'm pitiful..But that's so typical of all the things I am..am someone filled with self-belief,And haunted by self-doubt,I've got all the answers,I've got nothing figured out,I like to be by myself.....I hate to be alone....I'm up and I am down....But that's part of the thrill Part of the plan,Part of all of the things I am,I'm a million contradictions,Sometimes I make no sense,Sometimes I'm perfect Sometimes I'm a mess,Sometimes I'm not sure who I am,I am Of all the things I am.>>Hilary Duff's "I am"...its a beautiful song......it refelcts soo much about me.....sometimes I feel I don't even know myself anymore and i just wonder who i am.....i guess am just made out of wayy 2 many elements..........