These Dayz Are What They Call Livin Momentz To The Fullest Darlin'

[Mood: Excited]
[Music: Fergie - Fergalicious]

One of the best parts of livin in Malaysia is the abundant amount of holz for the festive season.The weekend seemed super long and I did have a good time.Had a couple of relatives over for the fun of it, mum cooked loadz and I eat a lot as well.Oh and not forgettin being glued to the tv.I just haven't been watchin tv much lately cause am happy with my downloads of LB and OTH but I decided to just catch on some movies and all.On Tuesday,my family decided to do the drive around with no specific location tradition.We do that on public holz usually.I wanted to go back to Ipoh again but dad decided it would too long of a drive.So decided to go to Morib.The beach was nice and they have good seafood there.It wasn't too bad.Besides all that it was just me and my skool work and not forgettin checkin out the cuties in LOTR.(:P)

Went to skool on Thursday.I've switched to books for Math and was overwhelmed with joy to touch a book again and to put my pencil to use again.Yes I know it sounds corny but seriesly I was sooo happy to have it back.The rest of day was very casual and I have a new luchin group.Its Eddy,Vitz,Rachey,Shaun,occisonaly Christine and the gf.They're just loadz of fun to hang with cause our conversations are a mix of crappness,sacrasm and a whole bunch of emal-ness(Nicki's way of sayin lame),super cool huh.lolz.Newayz Friday we had drama practice and I did nada skool work.Practice was cool cause all we did was laugh loadz and camwhore.Will uploadz the pics as soon as I get it from Daniel.Chapel was total crazyness.I may reconsider sittin in between Kc and Vitz the next time and opposite Pete as well cause he kept sendin sign language signals yht he loves Vitz and it was just freakin disturbin.Damn we have like to many gay couples in skool..*BAH*

It's a beautiful Saturday mornin and am up super early.I crashed at 3 last nite after my usual phone conversation but woke up around 9.I've got skool work to attend to currently.And also I've gtg to church tonite...tht may be excitin(:P)
~Loadz of Love~

And Doesn't It Make You Shiver; The Way Things Could Have Gone

[Mood: Worried]
[Music: Tresspassers William - Matching Weight]

I am thinking about: how my day is gonna go by and the thingz I have to do.Hopin a certain someone is fine.How am gonna get my hp from my mum's room.(she said I should start studyin more and hang on it a whole lot less)And tht the gf calls...we haven't talked in a while...it would be nice to have a recap bout the last few weeks.

I said: "I love you soo much" to someone today and meant every word.

I wish:for a pair of Converse and a good relationship,that all my dreams and wishes will come true,tht my frenz and family will alwayz be close by;protected and happy.And many more wondeful memories for the dayz to come.(I was thinkin of sayin world peace but we all know thts pretty much impossible and I rather be a lil realistic here.)

I hear:Tyler Hilton singing "Missing You" and myself singin along.

I wonder: if my ambitions and dreams are gonna be the same 10 yrs from now and if I'll still be close with all my frenz currently and how everyone will look like and what they'll be doin a couple of years from now.

I regret: A couple of thingz I guess.Sayin thingz I don't mean or talkin to much or hurtin someone.Guess everyone has some sorta regrets here and there and but I try my very best not to have many.There is really no point in regrets.All they do is just bring you down and "I wish I had" is a just a waste of time and strength.There was this "OTH" episode where one of this characters grandfather has alzeimer's disease and his fren says that it's good he doesn't remember much cause then he doesn't have to live with his regrets but then he says "Give me regrets as long as I get to keep the good memories as well".Thinkin bout it,its so true.When I look back at my life one day,I want there to be more good memories than regrets.That will definately drown the regrets!

I am: tryin to live dayz to the fullest.

I dance:A LOT!

I sing:along to all Ashlee Simpson songz.

I cry: a bit too much lately.

I am not always:quiet.It is very rare than you find me quietly sittin in a corner.You'll alwayz find me laughing and being noisy with a frenz.

I make with my hands: Apple muffins!(it's sorta my speaciality)Oh and no forgettin apple pies,pizza and chocalate cake.I do enjoy baking,it helps clear my head once in a while.

I write: a lotz of poem stuff about everything that goes on in my life.I usually throw all my emotions out on a piece of paper.Give me a radio,couple of cd's,a pen and a notebook.I'll be happy...

"IDA Scott Taylor wrote: 'Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.'"

P.S: Happy 18th Birthday Jay!!! Hope you have a great one!

Don't know why I feel so shattered; I really should have known better

[Mood: Hardworkin]

[Music: Evanescene - Lithium]

Vitz: I love ur life.

Me: Why?

Vitz: Cause it's a personal tv show

Me: Seriesly you don't wanna be in my place and I really need to fix thingz.The last thing I need now is Drama!

Vitz: Dude you already have drama!!

My week did contain lotz of drama.Hate it when his right!Newayz by the end of the week everything fell into place and it's been goin steady,not sure when I have to deal with everythin though cause am sorta proscratinating and pushin all of it off till the time comes to make decisions.And I guess am sorta gettin lazy 2 blog as well or I just haven't much to say.It could be either one.

Went to skool 3 times this week cause I didn't go last Friday and I sorta self-replaced.Everyone said they were pleased to see me more often which was pretty sweet of u guyz.I'm really hatin Math btw.I've been tacklin it all week and I come home lookin drained and mum thinks I have some social prob at skool.*sheesh*I told her the Algebra is makin me look this way.Everyone seems to be gettin busy for Awards nite and the gf asked if I would like to be in the play,I said okies,how bad can it be anywayz.Later found out it was gonna be a dramatic scene.Never been in a play before but dramatic scene won't be too bad I suppose,it's stage fright I worrin bout.And also that dance is botherin me quite a bit.Slow dance doesn't seem to be my thing but I definately can't bail now.BAH. T.Ben said the gf and I should stop sendin love notes to each other but we can't help it.Sendin notes are alwayz so fun.It helps pass time.Nowdayz there are less notes but she sends me "I heart u" sweets.It has loadz of caffain nad much more love.Keeps me goin.

Soon enough it's gonna be the end of another year.Talked bout New Year Resolutions with a fren the other day.They usually don't last too long and therefore we don't bother creatin one.I tried but failin to keep some just gets me disappointed so I decided to just have a main idea of what I wanna do for the year and just concentrate on walkin down tht path.This year I managed to accomplish partially what I wanted to do and there's 2 and half months left.Guess I gotta make the best out of it.

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past,
Stop planning the future,
Stop figuring out exactly how we feel,
Stop deciding what we want && just see what happens.

Cause Life's Like This

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - Complicated]

So I randomly picked this survey from someone's blog.Seemed intersting..thought I'll just give it a shot.It's the Top 50 songs of my life...I don't think I can even keep in to 50 but what the heck..here goes:

1. Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
2. Bethany Joy Lenz - Halo
3. Fall Out Boy - A little less sixteen candles, a little more touch
4. Ashlee Simpson - Beautifully Broken
5. Jojo - Too Little Too Late
5.Evanescene - Call Me When You're Sober
6. The Fray - How To Save A Life
7. Hilary Duff - So Yesterday
8. Jack's Mannequin - The Mixed Tape
9. John Mayer - Bigger Than My Body
10. Kelly Clarkson - Since You Been Gone
11. Fall Out Boy - Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner
12. Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue
13. Fall Out Boy - Chicago Is So 2 years Ago
14. Jem - Just A Ride
15. The Killers - When You Were Young
16. Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment
17. Liz Phair - Why Can't I?
18. Lost Prophets - Rooftops
19. Marion Raven - End of Me
20. Matchbox Twenty - Unwell
21. Lost Prophets - Broken Hearts,Torn Up Letters and A Story of a Lonely Girl
22. Marion Raven - Break You
23. Morningwood - Nth Degree
24. Feeder - Feelin A Moment
25. The Fray - Over My Head(Cable car)
26. Goo goo dolls - Iris
27. Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Wanna Be
28. Good Charlotte - The World Is Black
29. Backstreet Boys - Siberia
30. Sum 41 - Pieces
31. Sugarcult - Memory
32. Ashley Parker Angel - Let Me Go
33. Sugarcult - Pretty Girl(The way)
34. Good Charlotte - Predictable
35. Goo goo Dolls - Better Dayz
36. Nickleback - Photograph
37. Nelly Furtado - Try
38. Ben Moody ft. Anastacia - Everything Burns
39. Pink - Who Knew
40. Nelly Furtado ft. Juanes - Te Besque
41. Rascal Flatts - God Bless The Broken Road
42. Christina Aguilera - Fighter
43. Simple Plan - Perfect
44. Story of The Year - Sidwalks
45. Simple Plan - Shut Up!
46. Teddy Geiger - For You I Will (Confidence)
47. The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not
48. Ashlee Simpson - L.O.V.E
49. Ashlee Simpson - Love Makes The World Go Round
50. Avril Lavigne - Losing Grip

This bunch of tunes mean a whole lot to me.The lyrics can totally tell a story.It would go great with my autobiography.
~L.O.V.E~

Comfortin HugzZz and Naughty Eyes

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Goo goo dolls - Iris]

The past week has been one hell of a roller coaster ride and I've been dealin with a lil at a time.Tryin not to stress on details too much and not worryin too much.I've been dealin with a lot of emotional stuff but am grateful for all those that's been helpin me pull through it all.....

Monday to Thursday was very usual.Haven't been studyin much and have been sleepin a lotz.My sleepin scheulede is just all messed up and I've been findin it very diffult to fall asleep at nite these dayz and am super tired in the mornings.So am currently a total nite person who snoozes durin the daylight.So not good! Gotta fix that soon or else am gonna be in loadz of trouble....Skool was borin on Wednesday.Everyone was totally just stonin and all.Thingz just was very slow.

Friday seemed to be turned up a notch and I had deal with a lil drama.Actually quite a large amount of drama.The mornin seemed good and then the gf decided to use my lappie to chat with a certain someone which wasn't too good of an idea.Chapel was really good.T.Ben Lee spoke and everyone just started cryin and yes even me.It was just really good to feel God's Presence there.Went home and helped my mum prepare for dinner guests.Then slept for like a tiny bit.Had prayer meeting and the guests went home rather early.Chilled outz and then I had to deal with the damage of the online conversation the tht gf had.Thank goodness the person was gracious and to make thingz worse I decided on a hasty decision bout somethin and he was just totally sweet bout tht as well.In the end everythin turned out pretty smoothly.You know who you are.Thankz for being so gracious and such a darlin! The other drama I had to deal with was a missin pet sis.That was just sooo bad!Nearly half the skool was in frantic search and I was just pissed with the guy responsible.Like really pissed!We finally did locate her but ever if I do see her after this...she's bound to get it....

I was excited bout Saturday cause I was gonna go out with a few frenz.Woke up and thought I was gonna be freakin late but turned I was one of the few early ones.Checked out Vitz Ipod which is super cute!!Decided to go play pool with Pete,my sis,Vitz and Marielle.I haven't played in the longish of time and sorta really sucked.But the company was definately fun.Had breakfast at Mc'ds then.Went to watch the others play pool.Met the guy I was totally pissed with and we chatted and all but I was still angry and comfortin huggiez alwayz do good.Thankz Vitz!!! Marielle and I were waitin for frenz who were late.We waited for a bit and they both arrived nearly the same time.Had lunch with the fren at Secret Recipe...had brownies with ice-cream..total yum!..then played more pool,I got a whole lot better thankz to his help and now am not too bad I think..lolz...we hanged out for a bit and then headed home around 7.Went to my aunt's place and I was so dead.Got Red Bull and leaned on any wall available.Reached home around 9 somethin,practiced the organ for church,chatted on the phone and slept around 12 somthin.A really good day..it was totally nice to hang with the homies and just have a good time!

Sunday was smooth.It was Thanksgivin Sunday and we had the usual auction and now we have unusual amounts of cakes at home.Slept more and watched a movie at nite.Waited for OTH on 8tv,they've just started shownin season 3 but they showed Eve instead!!!! Seriesly they need to check their scheulede and not put the wrong thing on the papers.

Though the week was long.I had loadz of fun durin the weekend.More lesson learned.One of it is that I should alwayz seriesly think before makin hasty decisions.I seem to do that quite a bit.It messin up problems too much.So from now,more thinkin before approachs.The week ahead should also consist of more studyin.I gotta finish everything by November.So its more hardwork after this if I want a Christmas break..

P.S: I still haven't downloaded Season 4 of OTH..*snifflez*