**Miserable**

Am a having a bad day...its just tht am so bored and feeling fucking misrable......*siGh*....did not study much 2day....usually on mondayz am just not in a mood 2 study....not sure why......i did a math test.....thts preety much it....am just in such a fucked up mood 2day...not sure why...maybe its da boredam thts driving me crazy.......well am going 2 go and find something 2 do....if theres something...am so fucking bored....Damn!!!!!....cioZ

*Sad weekend*

Its was damn freaking borin these weekend,i sat home doing absolutely nothing........all i did was watch tv....take my dog 4 a walk...which is very irrating cause he constantly wants 2 eat grass....wat kind of dog eatz grass??????...also he kept dragging me around..arggghhh........besides tht all i did was listen 2 hilary duff's new album...lepaks around and slept.......its was a very fucked up weekend...damn!!...........

**Over before u know it**

A day starts 2 soon,
and ends 2 soons,
time goes by before u even know it,
when u wake up each day with a lot of planz,
but by da end of the day little is done,
everthing around is going 2 fast,
eveything happening 2 quickly,
I guess thts just life,
where everthing is over before u know.....

Normal

Well 2day was a very ordinary,normal,day.Work up early...again..did skool work...was surprised I did more than average 2day..maybe cause i had nothing else 2 do...hanged out in da house..annoying my mum and sis....Lolz...tht is wht i do best......went 2 church at nite...finished really late...besides tht did absolutely nothing....its been really borin these dayz....cant stand it any longer.....hope something will happen 2moro.....I really ReAaLL cant take it anymore....okies gtg ppl......Cioz!!!

*TypiCaL*

At last..after such a long time...I got da chance of sleeping in late..hahaha...woke up at 10...was soo much happier and cheerful 4 da rest of da day..c if a gurl getz da amount of sleep she needs she'll be good 4 da whole day...LoLZzz...studied 4 like 2 hours...went 2 organ class....i played well this week...after annoying my poor teacher for 3 weeks..at last I played da whole song without irrating him..lol.....hes said "good job and better than last week"... :) ..i bet it was 10 times better than last week.. :p..cause of da loads of practice...going 2 have 2 work on a report nowz..its dues this friday...which apparently is 2moro...nit3ZzZ...

#Going On#

Finally after sOo long I managed 2 sit down and do work for 2 hours in a row....finally...finished up my report..thankz 2 my mum's help...if not I would have sat 4 a whole day with it...reports suckZzZ.....still in pain cause of this damn braces...am on a soft food diet...HATE IT!!!....did work 4 preaty much 4 da whole day and listened 2 da launch radio...all of a sudden am into Green Day...not sure how come though...went 2 secret recipe and had cake.....da BESt cake I ever had...secret recipe RoCkZzZ!!!....guess thts all 4 2day...~CiOa~

***In My WoRLD***

Please tell me what is taking place,Cause I can't seem to find a trace,Guess it must've got erased somehow,Probably cause I always forget,Everytime someone tells me their name,It's always gotta be the same.(In my World)Never wore cover-up,Always beat the boys up,Grew up in a 5000 population town,Made my money by cutting grass,Got fired by fried chicken ass,All in a small town, Napanee.
You know I always stay up without sleepin',And think to myself,Where do I belong forever,In whose arms, the time and place?
[Chorus:]Can't help if I space in a daze,My eyes tune out the other way,I may switch off and go in a daydream,In this head my thoughts are deep,But sometimes I can't even speak,Would someone be and not pretend? I'm off again in my World
I never spend less than an hour,Washin' my hair in the shower,It always takes 5 hours to make it straight,So I'll braid it in a zillion braids,Though it may take all friggen day,There's nothin' else better to do anyway.
When you're all alone in the lands of forever,Lay under the milky way,On and on it's getting too late out,I'm not in love this time this night.......this song totally rockZzzz...its by avril lavigne 4rom her 1st album.....feel like am only in my world 2day......LOLZzz.....all am doing is being damn freaking bored!!!...wht a wondeful day!!!!......

*Laze ArouND*

Its soo boring around da house…….didn’t study much at all. was not in da mood of studying…spent most of my day hanging online doing absolutely nothing!!!! ……just finished chatting with my pet older sis……..she’s soo fun 2 chat with…there’s always something 2 talk bout with her…shes such a friendly and nice person.…always wanted a good older pet sis…...glad I have her…....am always chatting with her for hours…... just realized tht I chat with her nearly everday la…...wow…thts cool…...well this day was just freakin borin…..…..

^NoThInG^

Woke up at 7:30am!!!...not 8 but 7:30!!.....was about 2 drop dead on da church organ….which thank goodness didn’t happen…..went 2 KL…didnt shop…cause I didnt bring my wallet...damn!!!...wanted 2 shop badly….went around starring at stuff……Istan first then Tower Records….da prices of cds are outrageous……all da good singers albums are 40 plus…theres no way more da average Malaysia teenager can afford this kind of shitting prices…..felt bored 4 practically da whole day….this day is kinda fucked up….going 2 go drop dead on my bed….

*HeCtIC*

Man, was 2day hectic…went out 4 practically da whole day…. feel dead currently…went 2 someone house 4 CNY…a very generous person…..gave 10 riggit….went out in da afternoon in this damn freakin humid weather….cant take da heat anymore…feel like 2 moving 2 another country…....in da evening...practiced and practiced and practiced da organ 4 church…its just tht I get so damn freakin nervous when there’s a crowd…neighbors must have taught I’ve gone crazy..…... cause I was practicing at 11.00pm….. incredibly loudly....need sleep badly…..must wake up at 8 2moro and it’s already 11.50pm…Damn it….nit3ZzZzz

*Casual day*

Well at last I was allowed 2 wake up at 9...thank goodness...i soo need tht extra hour....4 da past few dayz I've been forced 2 wake up 8 and i feel totally dead 4 da whole day!!....this homeskooling thing is kinda hard 4 me cause its really diffult 4 me 2 sit in front of da damn computer....do u know how shitting diffult it is 2 sit in one area for 3 hours!!...it freakin horrible....didnt do much work 2day..wasnt much in a mood 2 study..not sure why though..went 2 organ class..my body was so fucking cram..hate sitting on tht organ chair 4 an hour!!......btw i really really pity my teacher..cause its takes me a while 2 learn new stuff...i can see tht he was totally fustrated 2 day...but he kept soo very cool...man is he patient...lolz....well i guess thts it...gtg and do some skool work...
~XoXo~
RoCKeRGuRL

*Doing nothing,Absolutely Nothing!!

What I'm standing on is sinking in,And I don't have a clue how to get off of it,But when I look at you there is hope,It's like you see the sadness in my eyes,You read the blue between the lines,You could be the one to hold me when I wanna cry,Underneath this smile,My world is slowly caving in,All the whileI'm hanging on,Cause that is all I know,Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?I've been hiding out for miles,Underneath this smileI have walked this earth with broken bones,I've been keeping secrets under all these lights,But when you're around my defenses go,You don't let me run away from you,You don't let me twist and turn the truth,Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?Underneath this smile,Could you be the one to save me from every bad habit that has helped me dig this hole?I've been hiding out for miles,Underneath this,Underneath this,Underneath this smile,What I'm standing on is sinking in......this is Underneath this smile by Hilary Duff....currently this is my favourite song!!!..It has great lyrics!!!.....love it!!!
~XoXo~
RoCkErGuRL

Thoughts

Why do u keep coming back 2 my mind,
I tried my best 2 forget u and all da times we spent 2gether,
but it seems so very hard,when all da thoughts of how u cared and how I hurt u keep hunting me.....When I think of da love u gave me...tears start 2 flow,it can't seem 2 stop........why am I lying 2 myself..maybe its because of the preassure around me tht I am forced 2 do this...its like I can't take this pain no more...am doing my best 2 move on..and doing ok so far..am glad tht ur going on with life and am happy 2 see u move on....I hope u'll be blessed with everything u want in life and tht u'll always be happy...and I too will try 2 go on..without this pain anymore.........

#Valentines#

Its valentines 2 day and I spent it with da theme of me,myself and I...(saddening isn't it)..i didnt get anything this year and was single...so i was kinda sad...*SiGh*....did nothing much 2day..just did school work and think of my ex-bf...and how much we alwaysz wanted 2 spend valentines 2gether....guess theres some things in life tht u'll never get.....but we chated 2day....which made me feel a bit better..only a bit....he offered 2 buy me roses and a card..so sweet!!....hes a nice guy...its just tht thingz didnt work out 4 us....*SiGh*....well am going 2 go watch da grammy's..hope tht will cheer me upz....
~XoXo~
RoCkErGurL

**Just a day,Just an ordinary day,Just trying 2 get by**

Well yesterday was seriesly damn freakin fun...esther was just soo fun 2 hang with..love hanging out with her la......we did all kinds of nonsense..mess around with make up...disturb her dogz...drank shandy and hang by da swings in da playgound..hahahaha{actually i was da one who drank shandy la}...lolz..chilled with her family at da mamak..its was all cool..am so glad tht after quite a while I found a true best fren...:)...FriEndShipZ Are GreaT!!!!!...nothing much happened 2 day..kinda boring!!...more like damn boring!!!...2moro's valentine day and my bro's birthday..guess I 'll just be staying at home and studying..as alwaysz....going 2 go and sleep....i feel like a car just ran over me...my body aches like shit and am really tired.....**NitEzz**

~Hanging Outz~

Its going 2 be intersting and fun 2day..am sure of it....Going 2 my best frez's{EsThEr} house 4 CNY.I just enjoy hanging out with her,though we have totally different opinions and views about stuff,shes just cool 2 hang with.Esther's da kind of person who helps me keep in touch with my spiritual life and stay on track..am happy I got good frenz with me!!.......Just woke up btw..I'm seriesly laking in sleep these dayz cause I go 2 sleep at 1 or 2 something{Not sure wht da hell I do??} and my dad comes,wackes on my door at 8 in da morning,then he come every 5 minuts till am up!!.......he insists tht I should get discipled since am homeskooling and i should sleep early and wake up early and be at my computer at this time and have lunch at this time..blah..blah..blah..blah..he can go on 4 while........thts just way 2 diffucult 4 me...anywayz these whole disciple thing will blow over in a week or 2...lolz...happenz all da time..well i gotta go and do school work now..before I go outz.....
~XoXO~
RocKeRGuRL

^^BoReD^^

Its been kinda boring 2day,all I did was study and study and study...damn it was boring.I had 2 study 4 a history quiz {"I hate history"}though its intersting.I have loads of projects 2 do,i never ever had this much of projects when I went 2 skool,never thought homeskooling would be this freakin hard!!Well I guess I just have 2 deal with,*siGh*besides all da studying i did have a bit of time 2 watch a movie,wasted my time watching it,i mean it was seriesly dumb,weird and stupit!!....guess tht was my day..hope it gets better 2moro....
~XoXo~
RoCkEr GuRL

*** Life***

Life is something tht is very beautiful<>its up 2 us wht we want 2 do with..no one makes da choice of where we go in this map..thts one of da worst part..when da treasure is lost and burnt theres no one 2 blame but us...there is so much 2 explore and exprerince but there are some things that are not meant to be found till a certain time if u find out bout it earlier you are going 2 feel devasted and terribly disappointed..guess thts just da pros and cons of it......A gift given 4rom God<<{LIFE}

Another day

Its a another day....went 2 church,practiced da song with da drummer and it sounded really cool with da drum which is good..I hope this whole choir thing goes well..I really do..I mean this is da first time am attempting something like this so its kinda frigtening and all but I know I 'll do well..{i think}..always I dream of doing something like this but when I do it I get the feeling tht I should back off and just don't do it all..then I dream again{SiGh}but tis time I have 2 go through with it no matter wht...I just gotta....well after I came home I had 2 bath my sweet dog..hes soo cute and chubby now!!.....rite now am doing school work..yeah am doing school work on a sunday!!...going outz 4 a birthday day dinner at nite..thts preaty much it 4 2day...
~XoXo~
RocKeRGuRL

Beginning

Well I just started blogging 4 da first time,hope this thing is going 2 be fun,just hanging online rite now while listening 2 eminem's sing 4 a moment..this guyz songs are cool but I don't think he has 2 sound angry all da time but wat da heck la..I still listen 2 him..lolzz..am going 2 go study nowzz,have 2 go and catch up on my history work..ChoWzz~XoXo~RoCkErGuRL