I've drifting down a river

[Mood: Cheery]

[Music: Fefe Dobson - Everything]

The week has been rather quiet,

With occision events,

But that what makes it intersting I guess,

Life's weird that way.

I realized that the more we fight the closer we become,

Well actually you said that but I like quotin from you sometimes,

Who else am I gonna steal quotes from anywayz,

But you know I realized that's kinda true in a way.

You're very unpredictable most of the time,

I can never know at times what goes on in your head,

Most people I can read,

But just not you.

Maybe that 's why am attracted to you
It's just that you have your way of makin me smile,
Even when I really don't want to,
And the way I can alwayz be honest with you,

That's just speacial,
You're just really speacial to me,
And I want you to know that.

Sweet 16

[Mood: Excited/Happy!!]

[Music: Hilary Duff - Sweet Sixteen]

And so my sweet sixteen celebration started out precisely at saturday.Headed down to the saloon to get my hair curled,not the whole thing though,just the ends and it turned out pretty good but it seriesly was so freakin tirin sittin on that chair. By then I was practically starvin to death cause it was 2pm when it was done and as usually I didnt grab breakfast.Later had lunch and hanged around the house.I got dressed up at bout 5 somethin,really loved the dress and....I decided to put flowers in my hair...I know it isn't really me but hey its "sweet 16".....

It started precisely at 7 and the early ones were Vitz and Sam.Everyone roller kinda later but I forgive you guyz...lolz...poor Denise and Danielle got lost....I had precisely 16 candles on my cake even though the large ones usually represented 10 but wht the heck...lolz.....dinner started out round bout 8 and by then everyone

was there...wesley,daniel,sonia,hannah,sheryln,denise,danielle,christine,

hannah,vitto and sam.I had loadz of fun,we kept laughin so much and crappin as usual....lol.....we were definately the loudest around...it was a total blast..everyone hanged around till bout 10 somethin and then Denise,her sis and Sonia went home 1st.Everyone else stayed round till 11 somethin and Wesley and Daniel decided if they didnt get transport home,they'll have 2 crash in my livin room with Vitto..which was definately a bad idea,especially the vitto part...LOL....the last 2 go was definately Vitto..we were watchin Alien and Predeator cause there was nothin else showin..later I sat up checkin out my presents..got some really cool stuff..cash,Ashlee Simpson's I Am Me(thankz Esther!!),a couple of jewelry items,teddy bears,chocolate,a discman!!..I wanted tht so very much... and loadz more...thankz everyone for ur gifts btw...

Headed to church this morning.Was really tired outz and all but Thank God I played well even though I didnt practice...Headed to the mall after that and did a little shoppin..went home and my parents gave me my gift and I got want I wanted from my wishlist!!..which was really cool since they don't check out my blog and all.....it was GUESS accesories!!!!!..I got a watch and a handbag..TOTALLY AWESOME!!...was checkin out all my greeting testimonials and greeting cards just nowz...they were so very darn sweet!!..thank you so much dearies!!!....loved them..

Well I gotta say ppl this has definately been one hell of a sweet sixteen!!!Really great.Thankz 2 all my family and homies for makin it an aweosme one!!...Loadz of Love...~XoXo~

It's been a very intersting journey so far,

With so many lessons learned,

Gaining much and lossin little,

But there is no regret in all,

All these wonderful memories will alwayz be with me,

Through times of joy and tears,

I've found love both in my family and frenz,

People standin in corners,

Alwayz willin to give me a helpin' hand,

And am indeed very greatful,

From here is gonna be discoverin so much more to life,

And carryin on all that I've learned,

It's the road to a whole new journey,

Livin life to the fullest,

And lovin every part of it

It definately gonna be sweet!!

Nervous,Happy Yetz Excited

[Mood: Nervous]

[Music: Chris Brown - Run It]

Headed to skool 2day.It was really hectic,running around givin out my addy,rememberin who I didn't invite yetz,checkin whos gonna comin and whos not.Then there were people with "whos coming?","is so-so coming","how formal is formal","do u want a teaset?".....tht was from Vitto btw...LOL....and then I was updatin Kc with all the details of my week...so it was really crazy and all 2day but it was good.Check this out...

*Everyone watchin Jarett's magic card trick...Kc and I were watchin*

Vitto: Oh look you guyz are actually not talkin

Me: LOL...yeah...

Kc and I were talkin non stop for nearly the whole day.We alwayz have so much to catch up on Fridayz.So skool was pretty cas for the rest of the day

Am really nervous bout 2moro.Not really sure why though.Feelin weirdly stressed.Maybe am worried if I invitied everyone and all...totally bizzare....lolzz....gonna go find somethin 2 do...kinda bored currently....muax~

Never take life for granted,

Live a little,

Love with everything you have

&

Never give up

It's Cold Out There

[Mood: Down Memory Lane]
[Music: Stray's Don't Sleep - For Blue Skies]

Does this darknesss have a name?
This cruelty, this hatred, how did it find us?
Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it?
What happened to us that now we send our children into the world like we send young men to war,
Hoping for their safe return, but knowing some would be lost along the way.
When did we lose our way?
Consumed by the shadows.
Swallowed whole by the darkness.
Does this darkness have a name?
Is it your name?

Slick and Sweet

[Mood: Cheery]
[Music: Amber Pacific - Poetically Pathetic]

It has been a definate intersting weekend.The camp was fun with its occasional bizzare happenings.But it was nice spendin time with everyone and all.I indeed had fun.Was totally tired outz when I came back yesterday.Watched the beginning of F1,slept and watched the ending.I slept for pretty much the rest of the day and hanged online at nit3zZ..

Today was okies,the usual chattin,listenin to music for the whole day and studyin.That was pretty much it.It was kind of a drag....The highlight for this week is definately goin to be my birthday this weekend...really excited bout it and all...I've been running around checkin with my guest list n all lately...really can't believe am gonna be 16 in a couple of dayz...gosh I feel old..lolz...Well am gonna go watch "Lost".....sadly I missed last week's episode....

Life is not a dress rehersal,
It's the final production,
So make it count.

LOVES!!

I'm caught in between perfect lies and impossible dreams

[Mood: Kinda Bored]

[Music: Lifehouse - Blind]

It was suppose to be sweet,

But currently it just seems messy,

Maybe I need to get my priorities straight,

It's time to rearrange again,

Cause I can't go on livin in a daydream.

The truth usually suxz,

So here I am again,

Talkin to myself,

Tryin ever so hard to find,

Courage,

Strength,

Support,

Will,

And all of that,

I need it all rite nowz,

Just to get by the day.

Confusion seems to take over just way too much lately,

It's been kinda overwhelming sometimes,

I really don't know where to go from here.

Tears Durin The Bitter Rain

[Mood:Emo]

[Music: Marion Raven - Break You]

Lookin at the sky,

It looks rather beautiful as evening turns to night,

The light hits it just right and it looks ever so lovely,

But how many out there lookin at the same beauty with tears in their eyes,

How many have lost someone at that very moment,

Or just have been broken hearted,

And those that have the thought of breakin someone's heart in that very night.

Those that can't stand the world and have suicide in their thoughts,

There are people out there who have lost hope in much,

And can't bare the truth cause it seems so bitter,

Cause somethin so beautiful turned into a hell of a nightmare within a day,

It's sad when you know so much goes on under the same beautiful sky,

So much tears and pain,

Screams that can't be heard,

And a broken heart behind a beautiful smile,

So be nice to everyone you meet,

Cause they're fighting a battle you know absolutely nothing about.

Throwin away every bit of regret

[Mood: Sadly Cheery]

[Music: The Veronicas - Everything I'm Not]

I definately am in need of a distraction,

Cause my emotions are in a whirlwind,

My head is spinning with questions,

And the answers never seem to be good enough

At first I thought am gonna kill the way I really feel with anger,

But that made me feel bitter,

Then I tried running away away from it,

By burying it anyway I can,

But that made it feel worse,

Later I realized I might as well face it nowz,

Cause sooner or later it's gonna get to me,

So for the last few dayz I've decided to face the way I feel,

And deal with it all,

So far it's goin fine,

Cause it's not somethin that hasnt happened before,

And it's not somethin new,

It's a repeat of history,

That happened just way too soon.

Sometimes you have to see the worst,

To apperieacte the bad.

Unoffical Vaca

[Mood: Relaxed]

[Music: Jack's Mannequin - Dark Blue]

Am on unoffcial vaca cause am currently waiting for my new shipment of cd's to come.So on Monday I watched the Oscars live in the morning which was bout 9 A.M and catched the red carpet at night with the family...okies more like they were forced to watched it with me.The Oscars was kinda simple this year.Reese Witherspoon definately wore the best dress.Total vintage! It seems it was some vintage Dior she found in Paris and her friend helped fix it and all ( read it somewhere :P) And the worse must have been Michelle Williams,tht horrible lookin yellow thing..lol...even Charlize Theoron's dress looked weird....the Best song winner was kind of a disappointment expected the track of Brokeback mountain or Memoris of Geisha to win...also thought Brokeback Mountain would win for the movie of the year..*sheesh*..this year's Oscar's was definately borin.....well I plan to watch Brokeback Mountain..I soo wanna watch that..also "Walk the Line","Memoirs of a Geisha" and Munich..I saw the DVD that day but didnt get it.....

Watched Lost at nite.It was good.Seems to be gettin more intersting,hope I'll be able to keep up with it but AXN alwayz has loadz of repeats so I don't think tht'll be a problemo....Didn't do notta much on Tuesday..my rountine these past two dayz and will be for probably the entire week.....wake up around 8,read the paper and listen to the radio till bout 10,watch tv and babysit bro till bout noon.Have lunch,catch up on some readin,be bored durin the evening and watch tv at nite yetz again....am not totally bored outz from this rountine but I definately can't take more then a week of this.....

Am currently showing a bit of interst on the "O.C".Been watchin for 2 weeks in a row but sadly it's not as intersting as One Tree Hill.Guess am still a loyal OTH fan.....

It's All Good

[Mood: Tragically Bored]

[Music: Fall out Boy - Sugar We're Goin Down]

And so my internet has been down for the last couple of dayz and all.So heres an update on my weekend...

Friday was a blast.Went to skool durin break which was pretty late.Kc was there and all.So it was our usual group hangin outz.Kc and I spent practically the whole day talkin bout boyz,boyz and more boyz...lolz...thank goodness I didnt get the " I told you so or didnt I tell this would happen" from either of them.They were totally darlin's and were really supportive and all.But they did hint a little..lol....Check this outz-->

Esther: See thats why I told you say no.You alwayz don't listen to me....

Kc: Well she wanted her own experience in this and she sure learned something.

Me: *Grinz*......Yea thts true.....And in my head *** HELL YEAH!! Of Course I gained experience and learned something from all that....DUH.......maybe I should rethink this whole method of experince gaining wisdom thing.......***

Chapel was okies,the new teacher took over this time.It was ok-ish...Headed home at bout 4 and continued with my "Memoirs of a Gesisha" which is really good btw.Do read it if you get the chance.Very intersting...

My parents decided to go watch "Pink Pather" at nite.So I decided to book the tickets and it actually worked!! Had dinner at Secret Recipe which is one of my fav restaurants! The movie was hilarious but the story was pretty simple.Steve Martin is a darn good comediean......

You know I learned that day that good friends alwayz find their way back to each other.Even after much bickerin and bitchin and all of that.You'll find that you're much closer than before and you just know you'll have each others back.Guess that's one of the many cool parts of life.

The rest of my weekend was spent in front of the tv with a pile of DVD's and quite a bit of babysitting to do.But it was all good.It was a simple but good weekend.

Can't wait to see what the week has in store for me!

Let The Rain Fall Down And Wake My Dreams

[Mood: Confused]

[Music: Evanescene - Goin Under]

Everything happens for a reason.

Things fall apart and can fall into place.

Don't question it, just let it happen.

If it`s meant to be, it will find a way

We live an unforgiving world,
Where we strive to learn,
And hurt for love,
Where nothing can last,
And where forever has no meaning,
We die to live,
And live to die,
We fight for love that takes a lifetime to find,
Where innocence takes a whole new meaning,
And evolves through time.
Where goals seem to be priorities,
And love becomes meaningless,
Where running seems to be unstoppable,
And drowning is just another hobby,
Where crying is an hourly activity,
And heartbrokenness just another trend.
Heartless is what this world is,
Where nothing seems to live with time.

Looking for a Saviour to save my soul,

Cause all the damage I've done has left a big hole.