Its Just One Those Dayz Where It All Just Seems Dark

[Mood:Sleepy]

[Music:Alanis Morissette - Everything]

My Tuesday wasn't too good.It kinda sucked actually.I was in a totally bad mood and I had no idea why.It just seemed that everything was goin downhill that day and I just kept snarling at quite a few ppl speacially my mum and sis.Everything just seemed to be very dark that day and am sorry to all those I tortured...really didnt mean to.I felt ever so lonely and just felt like crying for no apperant reason.That nite the only thing that I knew would clear my mind was to write and thank goodness it did clear my head a little.I prayed so hard that nite that those feelingz would leave before the sun rises the next day.I really cound't stand it and I couldnt find the reason why and that got me just fuckin fustrated.It just felt that those feelingz were never gonna go away and I wanted to find hope around somewhere.It just felt that I was out in the cold and I've gotta pick myself and walk in the pain for a very long time.

Embracing those feelingz that day was so hard for me and I felt I had to deal with it all by myself....

So here's a little something of what I wrote that nite

I pray ever so hard,

That I won't feel this way again,

I really wanna just get rid of it all,

And smile again to a new morning.

Numbness is slowly sinking in,

And all I want to feel is love,

The meaning of that seem to have withered away today,

And all I wanna do is sit by my corner and cry.

Is there an alwayz,

And has forever lost it meaning,

No one wants to be alone,

But sometimes we just are.