The Reunion Weekend..!

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: Lil Mama - Lipgloss]

After 2 months I finally had a good time with my besties and some frenz.This was a very needed outing n was totally unplanned.

On Saturday I invited Kc to go to City Harvest n well eddy invited himself along.So I went to Daniel's place n we went to get them n went to church.Reached there late and the place was packed.Thank Goodness we got sittin n John decided to join...I was suprised he came to church on Saturdayz but the guy had a hidden agenda..I sooo knew it!!..haha..We left early cause it was already 8 somethin.We headed to pyramid cause Daniel needed to get somthin done to his hardrive.We ate at Mcd's cause everywhere else was super packed.Then we decided to drop at Ken's party.Wantin to crash in style cause the party was suppose to be for 5 to 10...n it was already 9:30.....we went to the supermarket to get Vodka and thankz to the stupid rules they have there, they close the alchohal section at 9.How the hell do they expect to sell alcohol tht way????....Ppl dont usually get their alcohol so early..*bah*...so we headed to Ken's and made a pit stop at 7 eleven to get beer.We nearly left Daniel's bro there..haha...n we were super noisy n seriously Daniel's bro is peverted in way...will not go into details ya..lol.

Got to the party n Ken was gettin outta the house with a water balloon..apparently they wanted to hit us when we arrived bu failed to..Thank God!....So vitz comes out as well and me n kc were already squellin.It was such a nice reunion!!! I seriously missed Vitz n he was whinin bout how he hasnt seen me in 2 months n we have to catch up on 2 months of huggin...haha...we hanged at the party for 10 minutes n then decided to chill at Asiacafe and some of the guyz wanted to 24 there.Everyone left with us n we were goin crazy in the car..blastin music n goin crazy.Got parkin super fast which is a miracle at tht hour at tht area.We went to check out the CC n found Bryan,Nicki n his bf there.Nicki was totally showin off his eyelids n how pretty there were.They do look pretty cool...So we chilled n drank.Then we had to leave at 12 so shared hugz n goodbyez n headed home.Daniel was such a sweetheart to chauffeur us around all nite.

I had a fuckin good time and I bet its gonna be more of this since am gonna go there on Saturdayz tht am free n Kc agreed to this as well.N maybe we could met up with Vitz after tht.It was fun...

Well my parents just left to Aussie n am already bored!!..*bah*...Oh yeah rachey got picked for NS so am freaked out now! I hope I dont get picked cause am in no shape for outdoor activities n I hate livin in the freakin forest!! I will not survive even for a week....thts for sure...*sheesh*....well am gonna catch up on Grey's Anatomy before the new season starts....Am finishin Season 2 up and startin Season 3...I plan to finish it up by this week..Hopefully!

Frozen

[Mood: Sad]
[Music: Within Temptation - Frozen]

I can’t feel my senses

I just feel the cold

All colors seem to fade away

I can’t reach my soul

I would stop running,

If knew there was a chance

It tears me apart to sacrifice it all but I’m forced to let go

Tell me I’m frozen but what can I do?

Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you

When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you

You say that I’m frozen but what can I do?

I can feel your sorrow

You won’t forgive me,but I know you’ll be all right

It tears me apart that you will never know but I have to let go

Everything will slip way

Shattered peaces will remain

When memories fade into emptiness

Only time will tell its tale

If it all has been in vain

I can’t feel my senses

I just feel the cold

Frozen...But what can I do ?

Frozen...Tell me I’m frozen but what can I do?

Can’t tell the reasons I did it for you

When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you

You say that I’m frozen,

Frozen...

She Drowns Herself Into The Music Just So She Can Escape This Reality

[Mood: Inspirational]
[Music: Fall Out Boy - The Take Over,The Breaks Over]

Attention center stage ! ! !
We got a suicidal star.
Another tragic case;;
No more than a broken heart

Whenever I watch romantic movies, witness couples kiss and make-up, listen to love songs --
I smile and feel good because I know that love still works,
If not for me, at least to others.

I'm the kind of girl that falls into her music
Dives into a scene
And runs away from love

Life doesn't give you the people you want.
It gives you the people you need to help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you & to make you into the person you were meant to be.

"I wish it could just be simple,
Like a retro pop song. 'I want you to want me.' BOOM. End of story.
We all want to live happily ever after.
But its never really like that, is it?"
[John Tucker Must Die]

Everything happens for a reason.
People change so you learn to let go.
Things go wrong so you appreciate when things are right.
You hear lies to learn to trust yourself.
& Good things fall apart so that Better things can fall into place.

As Time Goes By

[Mood: Lazy]
[Music: James Blunt - 1973]

My weekend has been quite decent.Nothin much has happened and I think I'm letting time heal it all and am giving myself some slack.I'm letting myself breathe and start enjoying life a little here and there.

Friday was spent watchin tv all day.....I watched "Sisterhood of Traveling Pants"....Its a seriesly nice story and yes it made me tear a lil...when it comes to gurlie movie like this it makez me tear n shit...*bah*....I was super emo all day and I spent the whole afternoon drownin in tears and ended up with a killer headache.Took a panadol n slept n then definately helped the headache and the depression mood. Went for prayer meetin at nite and then a total pig out session after tht.That was fun.

Saturday...well I have no idea what the hell I did but it went by fast.I did a bit of work and practiced for church since I haven't played for like 3 weeks and I was so afraid I forgot how to play...haha..paronoid!Spent the rest of the day on the phone with gf.I felt so light hearted after tht.A good heart to heart talk alwayz does it!

Church was casual.A bit of drama but I think am pulling myself together pretty well.It's definately not easy but am gonna stand on my decision this time and am slowly feelin stronger as a person.Well thts tht...Went to Summit after tht..parents needed to get some stuff there and then had lunch.Came home and watched 'Monster-In Law".....hilarious yet very prediactable but it was enjoyable I would say.Oh and recently I've been hooked to "Ghost Whisperer".Jennifer Hewitt speaks to ghost and shows a whole lot of cleavage while doin so...haha...yea its a hott show but no thts not why I watch it though am seriesly considerin the possibility of switchin my preferences from guyz to gurlz but thts still in consideration...Chilled with music after tht and daydreamt a whole lot.That got my mind cleared.

A new week is about to begin and I so need to go on hardworkin mode.I plan to do 10 books this month and I think its highly possibly cause I seem to do more work than when I went to school.So I guess itz back to the books for now...

She misses him& still cares so much
But it just doesn’t feel RiGhT [Anymore.]

Faith!!...Where Are You?

I'm trying to make the best of it all.The situation and the misery.Everything happens for a reason and am a huge believer of that.Sometimes we don't understand things and we may not see the real truth behind it all but I know my heart knows me best.I'm trying to be happy but my heart is punishing me.Maybe I don't deserve to be happy and am so afraid of karma.

There has to be something out there to make me feel alive again.Cause nothing seems good enough to look forward to. I'm feeling more lost than ever at this time.This time given to me and situation at hand maybe a road of self discovery.Oh maybe thats what I want to believe.

Currently my music is my refuge.I may seem ok at one moment and the next am soaking my pillow with my tears.I think its a breakdown or a turning point.Whatever it is,its driving me crazy.My brain doesnt seem to wanna shut up and I havent had proper sleep for ages now.I wake up at nite with awful thoughts and I stare at the ceiling praying to fall back to sleep.I can't seem to talk this out cause it maybe misunderstood.

Well I'm gonna try to fight through it all and find strength somewhere along the way.
Oh faith where are you when I need you the most!

As The Darkness Linger

[Mood: Misreable]
[Music: Carrie Underwood - So Small]

The dayz have been lonely,
I don't know what I believe in anymore,
Somedayz I just wanna lay down n die,
On a search for my principals,
And readjusting those unbelieable ones,
Will I ever smile again?
Will I ever know what joy means?
My tears are my best friend,
But this is what I wanted and the consequences I will face,
It may take years,
But what is said n done come outta me,
Lonely dayz,
Hearts bleeding,
Purposes gone,
Is this what we're in this world for,
To love,get heart broken and bleed to death,
I don't seem to have any answers right now,
But I feel my loneliness will take me a long way,
This is what I've alwayz feared,
But I'm facing in everyday,
The truth is...At the end of the day...You're alone.

A million people maybe by your side,
But when the sun goes down and the dayz excitement fads,
Misery and sadness is your company,
They're mine anyway,
Mornings are meaningless,
And my nights are filled with tears,
Someday hope will find its way back into my life,
Thats what I believe in,
The question is....
When?

Big Girls Don't Cry

[Mood: Thoughtful]
[Music: Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie]

The endless tale...well more like the endless drama.I think this is finally my stop and off i go.It's been really hard on me for the last 2 months.A crazy emotional rollar coaster n huge decisions had to be made.I guess that comes along being 17.You have to be mature n take responsibilities and just know whats right for you

So I've had made my decision and it's over now.It would have been a year and half offically today not counting the additional 2 yrs of courting.I wouldn't say it's been super easy on me lately n no am totally enjoyin the new found freedom you would say.It's not been an easy decision but after much thought n consideration I've come to this conclusion.It's for the best on both parties n I know its gonna be another emotinal turmoil from here but what has to be done is done.I don't regret anything or have hard feelings.I've learned so much in the last 3 yrs n have experienced life's most beautiful gifts.I've grown so much as a person n I'm who I am today cause of it all.This huge decision is me just being a big girl now.

The reasons behind this decision is hard to explain but this is where my heart is leading me.I never meant to hurt you or use you.It's just the way Nelly Furtado puts it...Flames to dust...Lovers to Frenz....All good things come to an end.Definately a sad ending to another teenage love tale.Like I've said to you before your first love never usually works out.I think its some sorta curse that's been around for a while.

Each day is an adventure am embracing.This is life and everything happens for a reason.Well am off on another journey down this windy road.I'm ready to stand on my own now and I feel stronger than ever.Another experience added to my book.

I hope you know,
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown,
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I've found Out That Music does Indeed heal the soul

The Comeback

[Mood: Bored]
[Music: R Kelly ft Usher - Same Girl]

I'm grounded from the internet so I hope that explains the lack of updates.

I'm on serious probation...so tht means am home bound for a while.

College courses are drivin me mad!!

Parents want me to do computer science n I dont!!!...I wanna do somethin in Business or HR

Maybe I'm just gonna find some rich dude..get married...n live in the Carribean Islands!

I suck at math honey!!

Either its Life or Monash...Advantages at Life is that I get to go to Melbourne,

I'm dying out of boredom at home

Goin 2 skool 2moro!!!

I miss Kc n Vitz loadz!!!!

Also everyone else 2!

I'm workin a whole lot at harder at home..maybe cause there's fuckin notta else to do

Abel n I spend too much 2gether..its weird...it's like standard 1 again where he bullys me...*sheesh*

I hav effin no idea when I'll blog again

I miss my lappie n the internet

I'm gonna update myself on the music world

Loadz of Love

Beauty in Pain

[Mood: Dark]
[Music: Evanescence - Sweet Sacrifice]

The edge of the blade shines,
The beauty of it,
And the effects it can bring,
The pain is on the inside and it's longin to get out,
As the blade hits her pretty wrist,
She knows it will leave a scar,
And its what she's longing for,
Livin with a cut so deep,
She wants it out physically.
For it feels unbearable.

The shinnin blade in her dim room,
She doesn't deserve this,
Hopin no one else will ever feel this way,
The edge hits her lovely wrist,
Softly yet sweetly she runs it across her wrist,
Not deep enough to kill but enough to leave a life long scar,
This is what she wanted,
Something to remind her of those words,
The unbearable pain along with her painful tears is a beautiful sight,
Her misery is out on the open,
Satisfication sinks in,
She's just died on the inside.

A stained blade sits in the drawer,
It's her best fren for now,
One day she'll get over it,
But not for now,
There's just too much misery,
Too much ache and hate,
Her crimson blood hits the floor,
The bleedin and tears,
The pain of a sad,lonely gurl.

She seems perfect on the outside,
But no one knows the truth,
Her perfect clothes and shoes,
No one hears those bitter tears,
She aches for love and life,
Confined by those walls,
She longs to live,
But there seems no way out.

She screams,
Yells,
Sobs,
Bleeds,
But no one hears her.
No one cares.

The crimson stained blade
The beauty of a scar.
The story of a beautiful wound.

The Breakdown

[Mood: Emo]
[Music: Tyler Hilton - You'll Ask For Me]

Its in the breakdown,
Cryin hysterically and rambling bout the disappointments,
Integrity got in the way,
And I felt I got lost from dignity,
There are so much expection and my dreams are high,
Regret scares me,
I don't wanna look back and bury these memories,
I had hopes,
But I can't seem to be keepin up to any of those,
It seems like I've brought down my standards,
Is this what I want?
Maybe but maybe not,
Theres doubt still lingerin,
And my heart sendin me the opposite signals,
Trust,
The key to any relationship,
Built with loadz of work and can be torn down without effort,
I've always had difficulties at this part,
There are people I know I can trust without a doubt,
And then there are those you have no idea bout,
Confused on whats goin on within,
Afraid to be vunerable,
Lookin for the instints,
When it coms down to faith,
How much should be instilled in a person,
If there's seems to be too little, there seems to be a problem,
But if there's too much,
What happens durin the downfall,
The crash and burn
I see that on its way,
It's right around the corner,
Now all I have to do is to push obstacles to delay its arrival,
There's too much runnin on my mind,
I think am too young for such questions,
Maybe it's my fault after all,
I pulled this onto myself,
There is solution to all this,
I bet it's somewhere,
Now all I have to do is go look for it.

You're The Fallin Star

[Mood: In Love]
[Music: Everything - Micheal Bubble']

Am more cheery these dayz and I find wayz to entertain myself.
I'm tryin to keep myself motivated and pushin towards doin more work.

Went and watched Fantastic 4 that day.It was seriously super cool! I hav no idea whats up with all the bad review but the special effects was great and the story line was intersting. The silver surfer has this hott sexy voice n I think am crushin on him(:P)

Headed for the Edu Fair yesterday.Had a lunch date with daddy and sis.Then dad left to see some stuff and I went on a search to find him.He told me the exit but as usual my sense of direction rockz! And I went a whole round n then found the freakin exit!! His super mean...he saw me go a whole round n everything...*sheesh*...He pulled the whole " I dont know thing" and someone workin with him asked if he was attemptin to flirt with me...haha...I got introduced around and we went to look at Monash after that. This is like my dream college and I wanna go here at least for a yr or two.So maybe I'll do Life a yr or 2 n then finish off at Monash. See how it goes. Also i think am most probably stickin with computer science.It's not tht am in capable of doin math but am goin to try my level best and if it really doesnt pull through then I may consider switchin. So we walked around and he got me hersheys!!...hehe..cookies n cream..cause I've been sorta buggin him for it quite a while..then we just chilled.Met up with my dad and then we got frappucinos and headed home. Had dinner with the family tht nite in association with my grandfathers birthday and then I had my usual phone convo...

I'm tryin to be patient with the current situation.Yes am still in prison but its definately more relaxed than a few weeks back. Now all I need to do it put that dinner plan in action.Then if I have that fixed, everything else will be normal again. Now if only I knew how to bring the idea up to her....

Love is an accident waiting to happen.
Desire is a stranger you think you know.
Intimacy is a lie we tell ourselves.
Truth is a game we play to win

LoveStoned

[Mood: Cheery]
[Music: Dashboard Confessional - Stolen]

I've been doin more work than usual.

He keeps me motivated.

How?

By remindin me of the joyz thats gonna be in college.

I'm still confused on what course I should take.

Totally stressin on it..*sheesh*

Waitin for the Edu Fair to come around

Am grounded for quite a while

Rottin n fuckin bored

Am online wayy to much

He amuses me a lotz

I'm being emo to much

Can't blame me..You will be to if you were in my situition

3 hours of tuition is no joke

I find pigeons adorable

I wish I could fly away from here

Badly needin a piercing n soon

By next year around this time I would have a kick ass belly ring

I need to do more Math...And I mean really LOADZ MORE!

I wanna earn 18,000 by the time am 27

I'm gonna go have lunch nowz

~She's dancin in the sky~

Just Let Me Cry

[Mood: Deep Thought]
[Music: Evenescenes - Weight Of The World]

This situation is being really hard on me.N I feel like am just goin to depression or somethin. I'm really startin to hate each day before it even begins. I don't understand why such huge drama for small situitions. It really doesnt make sense. How long are u goin to keep me in? Forcin me to be your fren isn't the best thing, I hope you know that. You can't change who I am.I'm sorry am not what you wanted me to turn out to be.Sometimes I even wander what went wrong but I wanna live life on my terms.Learn my own lessons, pick myself up from my falls n learn to move on. I don't wanna be spoon fed on life. I'm gonna be 18 soon and am sick and tired of being treated this way. I just wanna get skool done with and continue with my plans. But being patient through all this is so hard and am draggin myself each day to make it through. I don't see the point of lookin forward for anything anymore.




Besides that am really confused bout the current situition.This is not what I planned or dreamt for myself. Everything was suppose to come naturally not through a horrible struggle. I was suppose to be the priority not the option. I was suppose to be the first and the only. The one who inspires and makes a huge impact. The gurl who shows you what love is. I just realized that am the 2nd one and its never ever suppose to be this way. The feelings and emotions are there but I can't help feelin that its sooo unfair and this is not what I saw for myself. It really does hurt but am tryin not to think about it. There's nothin much that can be done. Nothing you can do or say can change that fact. I love you very much and I can't lose you. Especially not now and this moment is where I need you more than ever. I can't talk to you bout this cause you won't understand. This is something I must deal with personally and I can only pray that this is horrible feeling will go away once n for all.

Don`t use excuses..
Don`t ask why
It`s just a breakdown.. happens all the time..
So get out of my face - don`t even try..
Youu wanna help me? ..
Just Let Me Cry

Misery's My Company

[Mood: Sad]
[Music: Good Charlotte - Misery]

There's good news and theres fucked up news.

The Good Newz: After drama n being emo for 3 dayz.My parents couldnt take it to see me utterly miserable n they were thinkin of talkin 2 him again.So we had this thing set up tht he calls on tuesday mornin before his exams n say tht he wants 2 met them after in the evenin.Then the phone rang and my parents acted like no one called..I kept askin but they acted like notta.Super fustratin n whtmore am the one who set it up!!!! They talked 2 me in the evenin n said they'll agree to us on certain conditions.He came in the evenin n talked to them.His such a darlin!! To come n approach them.We got interrigated n shit.But they asked if we were both serious.We were yeah n we want this.We're not allowed to go out but his allowed to come over anytime! So thts great. But he had to open his mouth n add fire to flame bout my gf!!! I was soo tempted to get the freakin knife from the kitchen.He came with a fren n they had dinner n hanged till bout midnight.It was good.I guess thts one thing settled.

The Fucked Up News: T Ben came on thursday n my mum poured her heart out on how rebellious n uncontrollable n stubborn I am.hahahaha.Riteeee.Okies maybe thts partially true(:P) So am gonna be tutored n wont be goin back to skool till bout next year.N I'll only come for test n spanish.FUCK!!!!!!! Also am not allowed anywhere near my gf.As though thts ever gonna happen! Whtever.But am really gonna miss them soo much.N I really dread seein my mum for the whole damn day.It gets annoyin after a while speacially her naggin.So am gonna be totally isolated n am only gonna be able to communicate with him but his gonna be busy with his own thing so yeah....

I'm pretty much alone at the end of the day.But nothing is gonna keep me away from my darlinz.They're like family to me! But this is my last year of high skool n I never thought it would end in such a fucked up note.Everything is just sooo messed up.I just feel like gettin away for a while n forget bout everythin n just live.Even its just for a day.

I need a getaway,
From all this misery,
Guess independence starts from here,
I'm just drownin n out of breathe,
Someone save me.

-Walkin down this empty roads alone-

Holdin On

[Mood: Depressed]
[Music: Nada Surf - Inside of Love]

My idea of a good two week holz is goin somewhere or just chillin at home n being dead bored or doin something enjoyable.I had no idea mine was goin to turn into a bitter nightmare in the second day.

My mum found out bout all the hanky-panky thats been goin.N as usual she totally flipped out.There was yellin n screaming for pretty much the whole day.The cause and the source of this happenin is *drum roll plez* ....MY SIS!..I was real dumb to trust her seriously n the only reason she told was cause she got fucked for skool work n to save her ass n make her story seem small she told on me.Yea I sorta do hate her now! My life is in a totally messed up stage now.My mum is in an all lecture mood n everyone else just givez me the cold stare.His been my pillar to lean onto lately n am glad tht his sooo patient with everything.Am currently phone-less n fuckin bored n emo...am not sure if am even goin back to skool n mum's meetin with teacher on thursday.

So its a living nightmare rite now but my darlinz have been steadily on my side n I love them for it! It's so hard to put up with everythin but am at no point of regret n I feel its a just a tough phase thats been thrown at me.I'm feelin so weak lately but am gonna fight to make it through.The consequences are not as bad as before but my parents have "lost trust" in me sorta thing and it's gonna take a whole lotta convincing to get back on their good side.

P.S: Am grounded for another decade I suppose

Life's soooo FUCKED UP!
For the moment...

My Song Is Love

[Mood: Painful]
[Music: ColdPlay - A Message]

I have no idea what's been goin on in my head,
Or what I've been thinking,
I just wanted to live it for the moment,
Didn't wanna think bout consequeces,
I wanted to live by the too young to care line,
But my actions seem unexplainable,
But the very intent and the very act of a lie,
I'm not where all that came from,
These are the people that make my world go round,
The ones that keep me sane and are my biggest support system,
The ones that keep on the right path all the time,
How could I have hurt them?
I've lost myself along the way lately,
Losin my principles,
Everything I've stood for,
Disappointed,
That's what that has been done,
Not only myself but the very ones I love,
Such a cold thing to do,
Thise has never been me,
I have never been known for being so cruel,so hurtful,
Knowin deep within that I will have to deal with all this alone,

Broken your trust,
That's what I've done,
Thrown away the faith you've had on me,
Puttin myself in your shoes makes me tear,
There isn't an enough of an apology for my actions,
I'll understand if you wanna stay away for a while,
But am hopin for not too long,
I know my actions were harsh n painful,
But I love you very much,
And am deeply sorry for doing so,
You're like a sister to me,
Alwayz being there and holding me when am in tears,
But lately I haven't been showin how much I care,
I feel the change,
And that its not for the good,
I will do somethin bout it,
And am gonna start with you,
Am sorry for it all,
And I truly hope you forgive me....

The Long Weekend

[Mood: Worn Out]
[Music: Breaking Benjamin - Breathe]

The preparations for sports day has been hectic.I tried to get fit in 2 months or so.I started joggin and practicin badminton every other day.I was sore a whole lot but am not sure why but I really wanted to do this.Never been a sporty person n all tht but I decided to give it a go.

I was super nervous the day before n I just knew I was gonna lose.But I was super scared tht everyone would laugh at me or somethin.Couldnt really sleep n I woke up 4:45 that mornin.Got ready,had breakfast and headed to sonya's around 6.We chilled till around 7 somethin n then left to the stadium.Every other skool had their own tshirts and ours was the only tht had diff shades of purple.And we were the most uncordinated one!! Whatmore was that we were the host of the event.*sheesh* Had the march past thing and we were totally fooling around the whole time.Hilarious! There was a few openin dances but the other skools n then we had netball n football.We got to the finals for both but didn't win...we got to the penalty shoot out for football!...I was panickin for the whole day...totally freaked out bout the badminton...chilled till bout 3 n then the game started around 3 somethin.The usual gang were there cheerin n I felt better with all of them there...hehe...n suprisingly I won the first round!!..*beams with joy*...but lost the 2nd cause the constent from the other skool's dad was there...he was totally buddin but whtever! The doublez was intersting.The gf and I bet the first team easily.We were like "wht the hell happened?"..we didnt even practice..haha...n in the 2nd round we were up againsnt....*suspense*...The Racheyz!!...haha...I know!...on skool!...lolz...they bet us n we didn't really care cause anywayz our skool wins...N they did practice more than us..
After that I chilled at Sonya's place..she was sweet enough to let me sleep...was soo wiped out.I slept for an hour n then watched her bro n his fren play Resident Evil 2.I had no P.S 2 could be soo intersting.Reached home around 8 somethin n then chilled with the family.Mum was proud cause I actually achieved somethin in sports for once..she even massaged my damaged ankle!!...Love her loadz!!

Church was the usual.Oh there's this new guy whos started to attend n his sorta cute actually(:P) His 20 somethin but totally doesnt look like it n doesnt really hang around his age group.His super shy n everythin n I havent picked up the courage to speak to him yetz.Workin on tht..hehe...had lunch at an Indian restaurant...went shoppin n got this super cute pants!!! But got into an argument with mummy over a skirt.It was extrmely cute but she made a fuss that is was too short.BLEH.Came home n slept n lazed around for the whole day.

Monday came n I was out for the whole day.Was at Pyramid n all that.It gets sorta complicated here so I'm not gonna go in too much detail.I had dinner with rachey,vitz,kc,eddy,james n nicholas at tht chicken place.Actually kc n I ate at mcdz.Then I hanged with Rachey n Vitz till bout 8.They tried to educate me on Anime but I was just interested in the gay stuff(:P) Then they went cd shoppin.Got home n slept super early.

Was totally lazy ass that mornin n decided to skip skool.I chilled for the rest of the day n did absolutely notta productive.I really hav 2 start gettin back on study mode!

"You're a messed up chick!"
-Vitz-

Tagged!

[Mood: Reminiscing]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - I Will Be]

5 THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG.....
~~Wallet - Never leave home without money
~~Lip Gloss - A must must!
~~Hp-Communication purposes
~~Compact Powder-Comes with a mirror:P
~~Comb-Very handy!

5 THINGS FOUND INSIDE UR PURSE/WALLET....
~~Identity Card - a must...must
~~Cash - Like dUh
~~Calender - For plannings
~~Pics - Looks cute
~~Coins

5 FAVOURITE THINGS IN MY ROOM....
~~My Lappie - My LIFE!
~~My radio - Runs 22 hrs a day
~~My stuff tiger - His very treasured..hehe
~~My wardrobe - Love my clothes!
~~My Cd collection

5 THINGS YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO...
~ GO TO PARIS
~~ Go to Rome - Beautiful history there!
~~ A total beach vaca - I < 3 the beach
~~ Get a tougue ring - Sooooo HOTT
~~ Write a book - Will be intersting

5 THINGS UR CURRENTLY INTO...
~~ Bloggin
~~Music
~~ Grey's Anatomy
~~ One Tree Hill
~~ The person am on the phone with soo much..hehe..

~5 PEOPLE YOU WILL TAG....
~~Sharu - I know you did it...hehe
~~Zim - since ur bored so much:P
~~Rachey
~~Ariel
~~Rita

Scientific dayz

[Mood: Sick]
[Music: Evan Olsan - Not What I Wanted]

It's been quite a while but I've been sorta lazy to update.Notta much as been happenin lately.Sports day practices...studyin and being bored.Yeah definatley the usual.I don't remember much of last week.But it was pretty casual actually.

Well we had a science camp sorta thing a week back.Tht was pretty fun.Not overly educationcal but we were sick talkin n camwhorin mostly so here are some pics:

Some baking soda yeast thing

We improvised the cover with the dropper:p

Looked hott

The Happy Patato(this was what we discentted!)

Totally Grey's Anatomy

Boredom: Bryan's New Manicure

Rachey and Silas doodlings

The protected water sprayer...*I know looks peverted*..haha

Kc and Me....the camera had to end up on us..<3

The River Keeps Flowin

[Mood: Tired]
[Music: Avril Lavigne - I can do better]

So my week has started in a totally fucked up note. The same usual thing.Yea...its like a never ending circle....*sheesh*..I have no idea what I would do with my best frenz. Vitz called me at 3 in the mornin cause I needed someone to talk to and was a totally darlin cause he chatted for an hour even thought he was tired and the gf got my sms and called me the first thing in the mornin. She called throughout the day to make sure I was ok. Love you guyz!>3

And therefore I baked after a longtime.My family have no idea about my "baking only in a bad mood" thing.I do bake when am happy but mostly when am upset. They just enjoyed the fudge. That was fun and I felt happy. Bakin alwayz makes me feel good.That nite I was on the phone till bout 4 something in the mornin.

My current tv show obssession: Grey's Anatomy!!
I'm soooo hooked on it.The actors are cool,the story line intersting and has the fair share of drama,and I absolutely adore the intros.I use to collect them before I even started watchin the series.I'm just done with season 1.Season 2 on the way....

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
-- "Greys Anatomy